Page 75 of Losing Control

“Are you being good?” Maddox asked.

Jade nodded, still begging with her eyes.

Maddox let her thumb slip between Jade’s wet folds and barely enter her before she resumed rubbing. Maddox slipped her middle finger inside fully, and Jade sighed as she felt her entire body relax and open for Maddox. She added another finger, and Jade felt herself unravel slowly.

She squeezed her eyes shut, feeling the sensations inside build slowly. When she opened her eyes, she found Maddox still staring at her, that grin and twinkle in her eye still in place. Maddox removed her fingers and turned on the vibrator to the middle setting. Maddox spread her lips, exposing her clit, and positioned the toy right on her clitoris, holding it steady.

“Oh my god, holy shit,” Jade said. She inhaled sharply and let the air hiss through her teeth as she moaned.

“When’s the last time you used it?” Maddox asked.

Jade narrowed her eyes. “With you.”

“Good girl,” Maddox said, her grin widening as she increased the toy’s speed and pressed it against her clit with more pressure.

Jade grabbed the bed sheets and twisted them in her fist as she tried to hang on. She let out a low, guttural sound as she circled her hips. The toy’s vibrations were over-sensitizing her clit, and Maddox must’ve realized because she started moving the toy in circles around her clit, then put more pressure before she eased up.

“Just like that,” Jade managed, doing her best to prolong the moment.

When Maddox inserted two fingers inside her again, she almost lost control and squeezed around Maddox tightly. Maddox curled her fingers upward, finding her G-spot easily, and pressed against it rhythmically, the toy still making quick work of her.

Jade felt her orgasm rise inside of her, building slowly until it consumed every inch of her, and when it crashed over her body, she arched her back and cried out, Maddox’s name on her lips. Maddox kept circling the toy lightly on her clit, and Jade felt a second build-up swell inside. When she thought it was done, it kept continuing until another wave moved through her. Every muscle in her body tensed again, and she clamped hard around Maddox’s fingers.

Finally, her body went slack, and Maddox turned off the toy and took out her fingers, satisfaction written all over her face.

“Well, that was new,” Jade said with a soft laugh.

“Stop, you’ve had orgasms before,” Maddox said as she replaced the toy on top of the bedside table to clean later.

“Duh. I mean that second post-gasm ‘gasm. I’ve never felt it like that before.”

“That’s because I have magic fingers,” Maddox said, and it was enough explanation for Jade.

She wriggled under the comforter and pushed close against Maddox. They lay tangled together in the darkness, breathing hard. Jade's face was pressed against Maddox's shoulder and Maddox's arm was heavy across her waist. The room was quiet except for their breathing gradually slowing and settling.

Jade felt hollowed out in a way that wasn't entirely bad, like something had been released. She felt like she had space inside her body to breathe again.

"Feeling okay?" Maddox asked quietly, her breath warm against Jade's hair.

"Better than okay." Jade's voice was rough. "You?"

"Yeah, me too."

They lay there in silence for a while, and Jade could feel Maddox's heartbeat against her side, a calm and reassuring thrum that Jade let herself sink into.

"Last night," Jade said finally, "you told me you were falling in love with me."

Maddox went very still beside her. "Yeah."

"I didn't say it back."

"I know." Maddox's voice was measured. "You said you needed time."

"I did need time." Jade shifted slightly, propping herself up on one elbow so she could see Maddox's face in the dim light. "Not to figure out how I felt; I already knew that."

Maddox's eyes searched hers, dark and uncertain.

"I needed time to be brave enough to say it," Jade continued. "Because my ex spent three years making me feel like my feelings were too much, like I was too intense, too needy, too everything." She paused, gathering her courage. "So when you said those words, I wanted to say them back so badly. I was just terrified that if I did, you'd realize she was right."