Page 2 of Is It Casual Now?

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Siena hesitated when she reached the highway, automatically making the turn toward her home. Narrowing her eyes, she took the next exit and found the closest hotel that she could, immediately pulling into the parking lot.

“You’re not taking me to your place?” Julie’s voice was calm and curious, but something in the undertones said that she was nervous.

Was this something she didn’t often do? Despite the confident way she had begun their entire evening together?

Not that Siena had one-night stands often either, but she did have rules, and she didn’t want everyone in the world to know where she lived. Even if it was a one-night stand she would never see again.

“No offense, Julie ”—Siena made sure to emphasize the name she knew wasn’t a real name—“but I’m not comfortable bringing strangers back to my home for sex.”

“Your loss,” Julie answered with a wink. “I can’t be as loud here.”

“Or, you can be even louder,” Siena challenged back, leaning across the center console of her car and getting even closer to Julie. Their lips nearly brushed like this, but neither of them made the move to touch. “Because I don’t give a flying fuck what these people think.”

Julie’s lips curled upward, her eyes alight with mischief. “Well then, Van , I do think you have yourself a rebound.”

“Thank fuck.” Siena didn’t hesitate or bother to correct Julie’s assumption. What did it even matter really? And yet the lie felt like worms twisting in her stomach.

Meeting Julie’s eyes again she shook the thoughts away and wrapped her hand behind Julie’s head, pulling her in closer. Their mouths pushed against each other. The kiss was sloppy, fast, and full of heat. Siena didn’t care if she made it good. Not this time around. Right now, she wanted to know if the sexual tension between them was just driving her mad or if it was actually tangible like she thought it was.

Julie whimpered, the sound sending waves of pleasure through Siena, and she couldn’t stop herself from diving back in and pulling at Julie’s lower lip, scraping her teeth along it with a bit more pain than pleasure. Julie hissed when she pulled back, raising her fingers to her mouth and then looking at them, as if expecting blood.

“Don’t like it rough?” Siena asked.

“Oh I do.” Julie flicked her gaze up to Siena’s. “Just give me a little warning next time.”

“Fair.” Siena kissed Julie again, briefly, and then pulled back with a grin. “Stay here.”

She jumped out of the car and ran directly into the lobby to book them a room. Hopefully Julie wasn’t a nosy person and wasn’t rummaging through the glove compartment to find Siena’s actual name somewhere. That would ruin the night flat out. Surely, she’d have questions about the car seat in the back of Siena’s car, but maybe she’d be so into tonight that she wouldn’t have the gumption to ask.

This wasn’t personal .

It was all heat and sex.

With the room card in her hand, Siena went back out to the car and was pleasantly surprised to find Julie on her phone and not rummaging through the paperwork in the car. Biting her lip, Siena slipped behind the wheel and handed Julie one of the two cards she’d gotten.

“Ready for tonight?” Siena asked, but it was more for herself than anyone else. She wasn’t prepared for this. She hadn’t expected it, and despite wanting to get lost in the carnal pleasures of another woman, she still hesitated.

“Absolutely, Van. I can’t wait for tonight.”

Siena forced her lips into a grin as she pulled into a parking spot. They didn’t have anything with them, so this would be relatively easy. Siena took Julie’s hand as soon as they were outside. She laced their fingers together, the warmth from Julie’s skin heating her hand.

“So in terms of rough, how exactly do you like it?” Siena tugged Julie down the hall toward the elevator. She was going to take as much command and control as she could tonight, keep everything perfectly happy between the two of them.

“I like my clit to be sucked until it hurts.” Julie’s cheeks pinked, and it was honestly adorable. The words were loud and confident, but underneath it all, Siena sensed there was a lack of confidence on Julie’s part.

As soon as they were inside the elevator, Siena turned to push Julie against the wall. She lowered her mouth to Julie’s ear, bending to reach the much shorter woman. She nipped her earlobe and closed her eyes, listening to the shift in Julie’s breath, the small sounds she would or wouldn’t make. They would tell her a whole lot about how comfortable Julie was with everything going on between them.

“What else do you want me to do to you?”

“With me,” Julie corrected. “We do this together or not at all. ”

Siena hummed as she scraped her teeth along Julie’s neck, pushing her thin blonde hair over her shoulder. Julie’s skin was so hot. Siena could fall into her and stay there for a very long time. Wrapping a hand around Julie’s waist, Siena held onto her, tugging their bodies together and holding Julie firmly.

“You’ll have your chance.” Siena sucked Julie’s neck just above her collarbone and swirled her tongue.

The elevator doors opened, and Siena glanced at them before focusing back on Julie’s pale skin and the mark she’d left. Oh she was going to have fun with this one. Julie’s skin made it perfect to see any marks left behind. Would her skin redden as she moaned in pleasure? Siena was damn sure she was going to find out.

Tugging hard on Julie’s hand, Siena led the way down the hall toward the room in silence. Her heart thudded against her rib cage, anticipation and nerves filling her. She wanted this for sure, but that didn’t mean that it wasn’t also anxiety-inducing. Maybe she should just give up on love altogether and focus only on the physical pleasures of life.

She had Harley, her daughter, so she had the family she’d always wanted. What else could she possibly need? She wouldn’t make the same mistake twice, that was for sure. Marrying Tori, while it gave her the family she wanted, had been a mistake in the long term. They’d rushed into something they weren’t ready for, and they hadn’t thought out.

But she really didn’t want to think about that tonight.

Finally in the room, Siena stood awkwardly by the bed. Julie smiled at her, but there was that same undertone of indecisiveness that Siena had witnessed earlier. This start-and-stop needed to end so they could get naked and between the sheets together. Everything between them had been smooth until they’d entered into the physical realm, and then they’d both been forced to question whether this was what they really wanted .

That had to be it.

Siena reached up for the belt on her jacket and pulled it through slowly. She raised an eyebrow in Julie’s direction, hoping that she’d do the same thing and start to undress slowly. Or quickly—Siena would take that too.

When Julie didn’t make a move, Siena reached forward and cupped her cheek. She stepped in closer when Julie raised her chin up, obviously searching for a kiss. Siena had to change tactics, while she might want a really quick fuck and to forgo the undressing rituals, it was clear to her at this point that Julie wasn’t quite ready for that.

Kissing Julie, Siena skimmed her hands down Julie’s arms to her fingers and wrapped them together. Pulling away slightly, Siena whispered, “I wasn’t expecting you tonight.”

Julie hummed, her lips curling upward. She finally moved, reaching up and pushing Siena’s jacket off her shoulders so it could fall into a heap on the floor. Nipping Julie’s lower lip, Siena let her take control for now. Build that confidence back up and they’d be right back to where they were before. It seemed neither of them was very familiar with one-night stands, but Siena was certainly going to make the most of this one.

“Can I take this off?” Siena murmured against Julie’s neck as her fingers slipped beneath the material covering her shoulders.

“Yes.” Julie moved to help, sliding her arms from the sleeves and pushing the tight bodice of the dress over her stomach and her chest, revealing perfect breasts and smooth creamy skin. Siena wrapped her arms around Julie’s back and pulled her in tight, dropping gentle kisses against the top of her chest, along her collarbone and to her shoulder. “More.”

“Bra?” Siena asked.

Without saying anything, Julie reached up behind her and flicked the clasp on her bra. The material fell away from her skin, revealing gorgeous large breasts. Her nipples were a dusky pink, already hard, and begging for Siena to cover them with her mouth. Julie tangled her fingers in Siena’s hair and moved Siena’s face right down to where she wanted to be.

Shivering, Siena parted her lips and opened her mouth, taking Julie’s nipple. She was slow at first, sucking gently before she flicked her tongue hard and used her teeth lightly against the sensitive flesh. They had talked about being rough, and perhaps Julie would want that as soon as she was a little more comfortable.

Fuck, Siena was going to lose herself completely in this woman tonight. It was exactly what she needed. A distraction from the reality of the world spinning around her, from her personal responsibilities, from the mountains of work that she still had to do. It was a break from the ever-ringing phone that ruled her world.

Here they had built an oasis where none of that existed. Where she could simply be a horny woman who wanted to feel good physically. Someone who could throw herself into her desires and pretend like the world outside these four walls never existed.

Siena moved down, getting on her knees. She put her hands on the bundled material at Julie’s waist and looked up at her, waiting for confirmation to continue. When she got the nod, and the slight quirk of Julie’s lips upward, Siena pushed the dress over Julie’s hips—hips that seemed to go on for days. She had that definite hourglass figure, but her thighs were thick, her stomach curved, and she had dimples on her skin. Siena immediately pressed her lips against Julie’s hip and one of those dimples, closing her eyes and reveling in the heat of her skin.

Julie plopped onto the edge of the mattress, her knees parting enough for Siena to get a good whiff of her arousal. It sent waves of anticipation and pleasure coursing through her. This was exactly what they both wanted, hands down. And Siena was going to give it to them. She placed another kiss, this one at the top of Julie’s mound, right on the edge of her panties. Siena didn’t hesitate as she hooked her thumbs into the fabric and tugged it down.

Her heart thundered, rapping hard against her chest and stealing small increments of her breath. Scraping her teeth, Siena followed the trail of cloth as she pushed it down Julie’s legs to her ankles. She pulled off Julie’s flats and then completely removed all of her clothing, so she was bare, naked as the day she was born.

“Stunning,” Siena whispered, not quite sure if she said the word out loud. She closed her eyes, her mind flipping through all the different scenarios, deciding exactly what she wanted to do first. She finally settled on the easiest one. “May I?” Siena asked, her hands on Julie’s knees with a little pressure, indicating exactly what she wanted Julie to do.

“Fuck me, Van. ”

Siena chuckled, her voice low as she moved in slowly. This wasn’t going to be fast. It wasn’t going to be quick. She wanted to savor every moment that she had with this gorgeous woman, eyeing her like candy in a candy shop and then devouring her one lick at a time.

One kiss to the inside of Julie’s thigh wasn’t enough. The second one only made her want even more. Siena slid her hands under Julie’s thighs and lifted them up, resting them on her shoulders as she leaned in even closer to where they both desperately wanted her to be. But she wasn’t ready—not just yet. She wanted to tease herself into this more.

With a scrape of her teeth, Siena listened for the echoing moan she wanted to hear. But Julie was quiet. For someone who had boasted about being loud, she was suddenly so quiet. It sent a wave of unease through Siena, that she wasn’t doing something right, that Julie wasn’t ready or didn’t want to be here. She tried it again and caught the sound of Julie’s breath catching. It was slight, but just enough for Siena to hope that she was doing this right.

“If you want to scream, then scream,” Siena said against Julie’s skin, going back for another kiss and another nip.

Julie whimpered, the flat of her palm on the top of Siena’s head. Siena pulled away enough to be able to look up into Julie’s sky-blue eyes. Her full lips were parted, her face slack.

“What is it?” Siena asked.

Julie shook her head, those stunning locks of bright blonde hair falling over her shoulders.

“Do you want me to stop?”

“No,” Julie said, breathless. “No, don’t stop.”

A frown formed on Siena’s face, a line deepening in the center of her forehead. The mixed signals were almost too much, and she was about to pull the plug on everything. She would if she had to. She wasn’t going to do this if they both weren’t into it.

“Don’t stop,” Julie repeated.

“What’s wrong?” Siena asked, hoping for an actual answer to what she wasn’t specifically asking this time around. She needed more to go on than what Julie was giving her.

Julie bit her lip, her breathing coming in quickly and making those stunning breasts rise and fall with each inhale and exhale.

“Julie?”

Julie shook her head, cringing. “Don’t call me that.”

“That was your suggestion for the game.” Siena was about to move away, but Julie clamped her legs down on her shoulders and tightened her thighs. When Siena looked up at her again, her look hardened, filling with determination. “What do you want me to call you?”

“Nothing.” Julie sucked in a deep breath and let her legs slide off of Siena’s shoulders once more as she cupped Siena’s cheek. Half sitting now, meeting Siena halfway, she brought their lips together, tangling their tongues.

Siena lost herself in the embrace, in the forwardness she was finally seeing come back to life in Julie. She was pinned down, forced to remain where she was by Julie’s legs now wrapped around her body. Julie nipped at her lip, sucking it into her mouth and biting. Siena winced but then grinned. That must have been payback for earlier.

“I want you to fuck me,” Julie said, putting her hands behind her and thrusting her chest into the air, her nipples calling to Siena like a moth to flame.

“Are you sure?” Siena asked, needing that verbal confirmation now.

“Fuck me, Van. ”