Page 37 of Anyone But Me

How can you see someone so much, but never really see them?

How did she go from someone I knew to someone I couldn’t live without?

It scared me how quickly it happened. What terrified me even more was what I had learned years ago—how quickly it could all be taken away.

As much as I wanted to talk to Jax about what was happening between us, if there was any small chance the talk would bring this to an end, I wasn’t willing to take that risk.

“What are you thinking about?” Jax asked. “I swear I can hear your brain working.”

Busted. “I was just thinking about you.”

“All good things, I presume.”

“Oh, yes. Great things.” I made sure the tone of my voice told her exactly what I was talking about. I didn’t want to leave any question about how much I enjoyed the night before.

Jax leaned around me and stared up at something above the fireplace.

“What are you looking at?” I asked with a giggle that I couldn’t hold back. “Just checking how much longer we have until the resort closes, so I can get you back in my bed.”

*

Somehow, Jax and I survived the rest of the day.

It might have had something to do with the fact that we were both very touchy during the rest of my ski lessons and used any excuse to touch each other.

It also helped (and actually made it harder at the same time) that Jax kept a hand resting high up on my thigh the whole time we ate dinner across from her parents.

Luckily, as soon as we got back to their house, her parents were so tired that they went right to bed. I showered Speck with kisses and promised to be a better mom tomorrow, and Jax and I also went to bed, except unlike her parents, neither of us had sleeping on the brain.

When we entered her room, I half expected her to throw me against the door like she had done the night before and again that morning, but instead, she took my hand and led me over to the bed. She sat on the edge and pulled me down to sit beside her.

She removed her hand from mine to wrap an arm around my waist and laid her head on my shoulder. “Any requests for tonight?”

Requests? Does she mean that in the way I think she does? “Like sexual requests?”

Jax chucked and pulled me tighter up against her. “Yes. Like sexual requests. You said before that there were things you wanted to try, so I figured I should ask.”

My heart tugged in my chest. This woman couldn’t get any sweeter. She truly listened to every little thing I said. I knew how rare it was to find people like that, and I appreciated it more than I could put into words.

For now, though, I had to figure out what to tell her. It had kind of been a whirlwind since this started less than twenty-four hours ago, so I hadn’t really gotten a chance to think about exactly what I wanted. “Putting a girl on the spot here,” I joked.

Jax squeezed my side before standing from the bed. “I have a box that might inspire you.”

I watched as she walked over to her closet, rummaged through a bunch of clothes and shoes at the bottom, and pulled out a tattered shoe box.

When she sat back down beside me, she opened it up to reveal multiple sex toys, many of which I couldn’t identify.

The girthy rainbow colored dildo was easy to distinguish, and I found myself swallowing hard as I stared down at it.

Even though I wasn’t able to take my eyes off of the toys, I could feel Jax smiling at me. “See anything you like? I promise they are all clean. I make sure to give this stash attention whenever I’m at my parents’.”

I swallowed hard once again. I didn’t know what made my palms sweat more—the fact that Jax gave these attention whenever she was here or the fact that she said this stash , meaning there was more. I pointed at the dildo. “I’ve always wanted to use a strap.”

Jax’s eyes were wide when she looked over at me. “You’ve never used a strap before?”

I shook my head. “Marcie and I never used toys together. I always wanted to, but was too afraid to ask.”

Jax put her hand on top of mine. “Please don’t ever be afraid to ask me for anything.” She smirked. “Chances are my answer will always be yes.”

Jax let go of my hand to grab the dildo and the harness that I hadn’t even noticed was below it. “So, when you said you’ve always wanted to use a strap, did you mean…?”

I nodded, because I already knew exactly what Jax was asking. “I want to wear it.”

Jax bit down on her bottom lip and looked me up and down, her chest rising and falling as her eyes wandered. When she finally met my gaze, there was fire in her eyes. “You want to fuck me with it?”

I held onto her gaze as I nodded. “I want to fuck you so hard you see stars.”

I didn’t know what had come over me, but I honestly didn’t hate it. I loved how easily Jax brought this side out of me.

Jax jumped from the bed and started tearing off layer after layer of her clothes. Before long, she was standing in front of me completely naked, and all I could do was stare. I didn’t think I would ever get used to this view.

Jax motioned toward where I was sitting. “What are you waiting for?”

I stood up in front of her and ran my hands up and down her sides, loving the way my fingers tingled as they touched her skin. “I’m waiting for you to help me.”

Jax understood what I was asking and immediately began removing my clothes. She undressed me much slower than she had undressed herself, slowly and meticulously removing every layer.

As soon as she unhooked my bra, she brought her mouth to one breast and a hand to the other.

I threw my head back as a million sensations ran through my body.

Much too soon, Jax’s mouth and hand were gone.

I was about to pull her back when I felt her hands going to work on my pants.

She slowly slid them down my legs, followed by the long thermal underwear I was wearing underneath.

When all that was left was my bikini underwear, she went down on her knees and grabbed them with her teeth.

With her teeth and hands working together, she dragged them down my legs at an excruciatingly slow pace.

Part of me wanted to scream at her to hurry up, but the other part was loving the foreplay, even if it was making chills run down my spine in the most pleasingly uncomfortable way.

When my underwear was at my feet, I stepped out of them, but Jax stayed on her knees. Before I could comprehend what was happening, she leaned in and licked me. When she sucked my clit into her mouth, my hands automatically went to her head to keep her there, because she was so goddamn good.

I could feel my clit becoming harder under her tongue and again worried how long I’d be able to last. I wanted to move on to the strap, but I also wasn’t willing to give this up.

When Jax added her fingers into the mix, I knew I was a goner. She pumped her fingers in and out of me while continuing to use her mouth to lick and suck me.

“I’m so close,” I whispered as I held her up against me even tighter.

Jax moaned, but didn’t move her mouth away from me. When she sucked on my clit at the same time as curling her fingers inside of me, I lost all control. My body shuddered as wave after wave of pulses shot throughout my whole body.

“Fuck,” I whispered as Jax gave me one last lick.

Jax stood up, a satisfied grin on her face as she wiped her mouth. “Yeah?”

I nodded. “You are very talented.”

Between our activities from last night, skiing all day, and what Jax had just done to me, I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to do what I promised, but I was determined.

There was only one small problem. “So, this is embarrassing, but I don’t actually know how to get this on,” I said as I picked up the dildo and harness.

Jax took the items from me and knelt in front of me once again. “Lucky for you, I think helping someone put it on is super sexy foreplay.”

She made a point of touching me much more than necessary as she put it on, and by the time the object was hanging from between my legs, I was physically holding myself back from coming again.

Jax moved her eyes up and down my body and licked her lips. “Where do you want me?”

“The bed?” I honestly wasn’t sure what the other options were.

Jax nodded and laid down on the bed. Seeing her naked body laid out for me had me feeling both turned on and nervous. I really wanted this to be good for her. I didn’t want to mess it up.

“You’re gonna be amazing, baby,” Jax said.

How did she do that? How did she always know exactly what I was thinking?

Her confidence gave me confidence, so I lay on the bed next to her and brought my hand between her legs, surprised to find how wet she already was.

“I have lube, but I won’t need it with you,” Jax explained. “I’m so wet for you all the time.”

All the time? That seemed like a bit of an exaggeration since we had just had sex for the first time twenty-four hours ago, but now wasn’t the time to question her.

“Are you sure? I don’t want to hurt you.”

Jax smiled. “Trust me. You won’t. If you’re worried though, you can get your hand wet from touching me and rub it on the dildo.”

When I ran my fingers over Jax, she closed her eyes in pleasure, but as soon as I moved them to wet the dildo, she opened them and watched me.

The desire in her eyes was obvious, so I made a show of it.

I slowly moved my hand up and down the dildo as if I was stroking myself.

Oddly enough, the whole thing was so sensual, even though the dildo wasn’t actually part of my body, it really did feel like I was touching myself and had me so turned on.

I did this a few more times until Jax grabbed my arm. When I looked at her, there was a desperation in her eyes I’d never seen before. “I really need you to fuck me now. I need to feel you inside of me.”

Shit . I loved the way that sounded. I brought my body on top of Jax’s and slowly lowered myself onto her until our bodies were flush.

“Do you need me to direct you?” she asked.