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SADIE

The stubborn man takes his time, gently skimming my skin with the tips of his fingers until he gets to the clasp of my bra, unhooking it and dropping it next to my sweater on the floor. His hands come up to caress and knead my breasts, gently tugging at my taut nipples. I’m not sure what I like in the bedroom, my experience is limited, but the feel of his fingers pinching and rolling my nipples feels fucking amazing. I let out a small whimper at the mixture of pain and pleasure he so expertly delivers. An appreciative moan escapes, my head falls back on Hawk’s shoulder. I keep my eyes closed as he continues his onslaught. I’m so fucking turned on by just him playing with my nipples, I tilt my hips back seeking more. Seeking him .

His right hand travels slowly, teasingly down my abdomen stopping at the button of my jeans. My body is so ready for him, it’s screaming for him to hurry the fuck up, but I don’t want him to rush any part of this. If this, is the only time I’ll ever have to experience what it is to be with Nathaniel, I want to savor every little detail. Burn it all into my memory.

With a flick of his fingers, the button on my jeans pops. With a slight tug, opening the fabric, the zipper falls. Rubbing his hands around my waist, he expertly pushes the denim down over my hips and down to the lush carpet below.

“You’re thrusting your hips back, greedy girl.” He hums against my neck. My breathing is coming in pants. I’m already on edge, needing his touch, craving everything I know Nathaniel can do to me.

“Mine.” He growls, and my eyes fly open at his words.

He doesn’t mean it. It’s the heat of the moment. Don’t let it go to your heart.

His hand travels back up my body, brushing my breast. I whimper in protest. What the hell am I doing? Until his hand reaches my throat gripping it firmly, restricting my air just enough to make the point - he’s in charge. A reminder that he’s in control. It’s him who’s making me feel this good. Nathaniel owns me.

Just for tonight.

“Fucking mine.” Nathaniel says in my ear then nips it with his teeth.

His other hand travels to my panties, breaching the thin scrap of elastic until his finger skims past my swollen clit, stroking through the wetness. I should probably feel embarrassed by how wert I am, but I can’t find it in me to care. I want this. I want him. Even though I know it will hurt like hell tomorrow, I still want to know what it’s like to be owned and ravished by the only man to own my heart. For tonight, I want him to own my body too.

Nathaniel growls his approval and nips at my neck, licking over the same spot, relieving some of the sting with his tongue. “Who is this for Sapphire? Who makes your pussy this wet?” He slides one finger inside me and then another, stroking in and out slowly. Jesus. If he’s this good with his fingers, I can’t wait to feel his cock.

I’m lost in the sensation of his fingers and the way he plays my body like a fucking instrument, I forget to answer. His hand leaves my throat, reaching around to tug the hair at the nape of my neck. My eyes shoot open, staring at the intensity looking back at me in his. “Answer me, or I’ll stop and send you to bed a wanting, needy mess.”

“Asshole.” I snap. His grip tightens in response.

“Try again.”

“You. You make me this wet.” I tell him honestly. He releases my hair and my shoulders drop, relaxing my body into his once again.

“Mmmm.” He increases his rhythm, stroking harder, faster, curving his fingers until they hit that perfect place causing my walls to squeeze and pulse. Nathaniel pushes the heel of his palm to my clit adding just the right amount of pressure while his other hand pinches and twists my nipple hard. I’m so fucking close.

“Come. Now .” At his command, my body shatters. If not for his arm firmly holding my against his chest, I’m certain my knees would’ve buckled.

He chuckles in my ear, kissing my neck. “You’re beautiful when you come.”

“Mmmm.” It’s all the words I can muster. Incoherent sounds of pleasure and satiation. Lifting my hand, I grab behind Nathaniel’s head, running my fingers through his hair, tugging lightly. He moans making me smile. To my surprise, he pulls back out of my reach, slapping me on the ass with a hard whack.

“The fuck?” I yelp, grabbing my ass in protest.

“Get on that bed. Hands and knees. I’m not even close to finished with you yet, baby.” He demands. I glare at him over my shoulder, walking the few slow steps to the bed. He raises a challenging brow at me, crossing his arms over his chest.

“You don’t want to challenge me now, Sapphire. Things are about to get really good for both of us. But that can change, if you want to be a brat.”

Asshole. I keep my thought to myself, because though I may love to give him shit from time to time, I’m not stupid enough to risk him not giving me everything I’ve longed for all this time.

I climb up on the bed, watching him over my shoulder as he undresses. My eyes burn with tears, as I watch him remove his cut, laying it respectfully over the arm of the chair in the corner of the room. The reverence he shows a simple piece of leather, and the heavy burden the patches on it carry, both remind me why I have to leave. Why I have to do what I said I would do- for them.

Seeing the questions in his eyes, I decide to move swiftly and redirect his attention by sitting up on my knees, pulling my lace panties down, sliding them off over my legs. His heat-filled eyes watching me so closely it feels like fire licking over my skin. Not wanting him to change his mind, I return to his desired position and get on all fours.

He pulls his t-shirt over my head with one hand revealing a hard-earned sculpted torso. He smiles when he sees me staring at him, licking my lips. I watch quietly as he removes his belt, momentarily wondering if he’d ever spank my ass with the leather strap.

You should ask him.

Not tonight. Tonight, I want him to do what he wants to my body. I want to experience what everyone else has … Hawk in all his glory.

Not Hawk. Nathaniel. He’s only ever Nathaniel with you.

My Nathaniel.

With a flick of his wrist, the buttons of his fly open. He pushes his jeans down over his hips dropping them to the floor, revealing his long, hard cock.

“Commando, huh?” Somehow, I always suspected he preferred commando to briefs.

Nathaniel doesn’t answer, climbing up behind me, grasping my hips. He moves my body, placing me right where he wants me. Leaning forward with a growl, he says, “Hold on to the headboard, baby. I’m going to take you hard and fast and make you forget everything except how good you feel when I’m inside you.”

Hell yes!

He grabs my hair, tugging my head back just enough to take my mouth in a dominating kiss. It’s sloppy, and wet, and leaves us both panting when he pulls back. Releasing my hair, Nathaniel smacks my ass once more, smiling at the red palm print that I’m sure will be there in the morning.

“Hold on and don’t let go.”

I have to let go.

My mind chooses this moment to sprinkle reality in and cause my heart to ache.

The thought is quickly wiped clear when Nathaniel lines up his cock to my entrance and slams all the way home. The feel of his cock stretching my walls burns but in such a deliciously good way. He pauses, holding his position, giving us both a minute. We’ve waited too goddamn long to let this end too soon. I want to savor every inch of him, every second of pleasure he can wring from my body. Tonight, I’m all his to do with as he pleases.

He begins moving, pumping slowly at first, bottoming out with each thrust. My chest falls to the bed, my face turned sideways as Hawk picks up speed. My eyes close tightly, my teeth biting into my lip. I grip the slats of the headboard tightly. He doesn’t let up his pace. I know he can feel my walls tightening again as my thighs begin to quiver. I push back, thrusts my ass up, arching into him, grinding my ass against his body, taking him even deeper.

“ Oh god. So good.” I scream Hawk’s name as my release crashes over me wave after wave of a pleasure I never knew existed. Seconds later, Hawk follows closely behind, grunting, “Mine”, and damn near collapsing on top of me before catching himself on his elbows.

“So, all I have to do is fuck you senseless to get you to call me Hawk? I’ll have to keep that in mind.” He says, laughing as I flip him off.

We lay there a moment, both covered in sweat and smelling of sex. Using his nose, he moves my hair off my neck, licking a trail to my ear.

“You know what this means, don’t you? You’re mine now, Sapphire. There’s no going back. You hear what I’m sayin’, baby?”

I don’t reply. I can’t. Tears fill my eyes, and I fight like hell not to let him see them. Turning my head away, I close my eyes pretending to fall asleep. I hear him chuckle to himself as he pulls out. He rolls over, pulling my body into his, oblivious to the fact my heart is shattering into thousands of shards while sleep takes him under.

I knew tonight would change things. Change me. But why did he have to choose tonight to decide he wanted me for his own? Why couldn’t it just be sex like every other woman in his life? He has no idea he’s just given me the one thing I’ve always dreamed of, only to let it be ripped away in the morning.

I don’t’ regret what we did tonight, but he will.