Page 13 of Daddy to Go
The first time I walked up that sidewalk I had done it with clenched thighs and nightmares of wild speculums and crazy bright lights shining into my uterus. This time I walked with visions of Ryder, my thighs squeezing against him as my body quaked in his hands.
“Good morning, Abby,” the receptionist chirped as I walked in and up to the window. “See? I remembered your face. You’re the nine fifteen this morning, right?”
I nodded with a smile. “Yes, ma’am. With Dr. Rivington.”
“Very good,” she replied. “And actually, if you want to meet me at the other door, I can go ahead and take you back to the room. Our first appointment cancelled.”
“Oh sure, no problem,” I replied.
The same nurse I had last time walked behind us, following right in, gloves snapping on. The receptionist left and the nurse smiled at me happily. “Hello again! I hope everything is okay. What brings you back in so soon?”
Shit.I hadn’t even thought of some fake reason I wanted to see the doctor again. Whatever look was on my face had the nurse feeling sorry for me in two seconds flat.
She walked over and put her hand on mine. “I don’t know if you remember, but my name is Alex. Trust me, we have seen, heard, and witnessed it all. I can promise you that no matter what you have to tell us, we will never look down on you. Just take a deep breath and get dressed in your gown, and I’ll be back.”
Finally, I found my voice. “Wait. I came with some questions for the doctor. Last time was my first time and I was so stressed about things that I forgot to ask about some additional tests he suggested. And, I know I could have just called and talked to you guys, but I figured it was worth paying for the appointment to be able to talk to Dr. Rivington directly about it. Breast cancer has been a thing in my family. A big thing.”
Alex smiled kindly. “Well, don’t worry. You can have a seat on the exam table and the doctor will be in shortly. He shouldn’t be running late.”
I nodded my head, feeling the warmth growing in my cheeks. The excitement was actually kind of a terrible feeling in some respects, but exhilarating on some levels too. In fact, the excitement was surging right down between my thighs making me almost pop up out of my chair. I walked across the room and stared at the different posters and announcements pinned to the wall.
My eyes shifted over the information but none of it actually sunk in. I knew that at any moment Ryder was going to come in, and I had to keep my wits about me. I had to be confident, ask what I wanted to know, but not be standoffish. Hell, at that moment I didn’t even know what I came there to ask in the first place. I just didn’t want to leave things where they were. It would drive me crazy.
It was only about ten minutes before a knock on the door sounded, but it felt like a lifetime. As the door opened with a creak, I whirled around, watching Ryder stroll in, looking down at the file. As his eyes hit my info, he jerked to a stop, immediately putting his hand on the door and pushing it closed.
Those amazing eyes flickered up at me and my voice caught in my throat. It wasn’t as embarrassing as it could have been, seeing that he seemed to be utterly affected too. The physician’s eyes rolled over me and heat immediately ignited. If he had made a move, I would have bent over ready to serve, no questions asked.
But he didn’t.
“Abby,” he said in a professional voice. “You came back.”
I started to melt but quickly remembered my goal.
“I did. I hope you don’t mind. I guess it’s a little strange to be here again so soon, but I didn’t have another way contact you.”
He lifted a hand.
“No, it’s fine. It’s good. I’m glad that you came.”
I sat down in the chair and he pulled another one around, facing me. He tossed my file on the counter and leaned forward, his clean rugged scent delicious. Had I been standing my legs might just have gone out from under my body.
Trying to block the thoughts of his pulsing muscles out of my head, I crossed my legs and tried to look assertive.
“I won’t lie. The last time we met, I did something that was completely out of character and I haven’t been able to get it off my mind.”
He smirked a bit, and it made my heart flutter. His eyes shifted back up to mine. “It’s been on my mind too. A lot, actually.”
Hearing that sent mixed emotions to my brain. I didn’t know whether to take that as a good thing, or to prepare myself for the “but.” I kept trying to remember to keep my guard up and not jump to conclusions but he was so handsome and so sweet that it was nearly impossible. I wanted every barrier to break at that moment.
But before I could say anything, he spoke up again. His face made my stomach drop and I forced myself to keep calm.
“Abby, I don’t know what kind of emotions you’re having about what happened, but I do know that I owe you an apology. Not for the amazing sex, or for wanting you that badly, but for not being a professional. I feel as if I took advantage of your vulnerability and as your doctor, I’m supposed to shield that.”
I found my head shaking back and forth before my thoughts were completely organized.
“No. Don’t apologize. Please. You asked if I wanted you, and I told you that I did. I gave my consent. And no matter how fragile I may have seemed in that moment, I can promise you, I’m fine. I tend to be a bit snarky and sarcastic sometimes. But I definitely was not taken advantage of.”
I smiled, leaning forward, putting my hand on his knee. “It’s quite possible I oweyouan apology. After all, I may have taken advantage of you and used my superpower sexiness to blind you from using your best judgment.”