Page 124 of Conquered

“Okay,” I murmur back.

His eyes flood with something like relief, then go hard a second before he thrusts inside me. I cry out with the pleasure-pain it causes, my back arching and it takes every ounce of strength I possess to keep my arms above my head. My legs wrap tightly around his waist, pulling him closer to me.

“Such a good fucking girl,” he rasps and he grabs my jaw in one hand, slamming his lips onto mine in a messy kiss that drags my soul from the depths of my being.

His hips move in a punishing gyration, hitting my g-spot and clit simultaneously and sending waves of burning electricity running through my entire body. Breaking our kiss and releasing my jaw, his hands move up my arms to clasp mine, keeping them above my head. It’s like he can’t help himself, he needs to be touching me everywhere, inside and out.

“Look at me, Lilly” he orders roughly, not breaking his rhythm. I open my eyes, gazing into his and gasping when I see the grey swirl and flicker with luminescent fire. “When I think about you, I burn inside, Princess. My entire being, everythingI am and ever could be is yours.” I gasp, my eyes filling with moisture, but before I can say anything he continues. “I love you, Lilly Darling, and I will love you until I draw my last breath and my soul descends into the depths below. And when the stars fall from the sky, and the earth shatters into a million pieces my love for you will be in every fucking atom of the galaxy.”

“Ash…” I gasp, my hands gripping his so tightly, I can feel the crests that my nails are leaving. A tear escapes the corner of my eye, and he leans down and kisses it, pausing his movements, waiting.

“You’re the piece of me that was missing, Ash,” I whisper into his ear, and his body sags into mine, his hips moving again and making it difficult to focus on what I want to say. “Even if they were to cut me open, they would find you there. All of you are fused to my very cells, and nothing can ever truly separate us.”

He pushes up again, transferring his grip to holding my wrists in one of his hands but keeping them above my head. His weight bearing down on my wrist bones causes a pain that only drives my release closer, and I moan his name loudly.

“Jesus fucking Christ, Lilly,” he gasps. His thrusts get harder, the sound of our hips slapping filling the room alongside my gasping breaths and his deep groans.

“Come for me now, Princess. Come all over my dick,” he orders, and I’m helpless to resist as his other hand comes between us, pinching my clit so hard, my hips buckle and my inner walls clamp down around him as I scream my climax, coating us both in my juices.

His pace becomes frenzied, then he curses as he reaches his own pinnacle, stilling above me as every muscle goes rigid. Moments later, he releases his grip, my hands tingle slightly with the return of blood flow as he collapses down on top of me, our sweaty bodies sticking together.

We lie like that, putting our fucking souls back together, hearts pounding in perfect synchronicity, our breathing matched.

“Ash,” I mumble, and he turns his head to look at me. “I love you.”

The smile he gives me is so beautiful, so rare, and precious to me, it’s like finding treasure at the end of the rainbow.

“I love you too, Lilly,” he replies, leaning close and placing a trembling kiss on my lips.

Deciding that I really do need to wash up, I get out of bed, leaving Ash all rumpled and decadent looking, already half asleep with a soft smile on his face. Padding across the room on bare feet and completely naked, I open the door, heading out into the hall and down the stairs.

I pop to the toilet, and after cleaning myself up, I come out of the bathroom and walk over to the kitchen, finding a glass and starting to run the tap.

There’s a change in the air, then a warmth at my back as huge, strong arms come around my waist.

“Are you scared of me now, Baby Girl?” Jax's gruff voice sounds in my ear. There’s a note of worry in his tone. “After seeing what I’m capable of?”

Leaning back into him, I can't help it, I seek comfort in his powerful embrace. It feels so good to be here in his arms.

“No,” I whisper. “I'm not scared of you, Jax. I could never be scared of you,” His arms tighten around me, pulling me even closer. “You keep me safe,” I add on a breath.

“But?” he asks, his deep voice rumbling across my skin, my nipples instinctively pebbling to hard aching points.

Sighing, I try to gather my thoughts. I bring my hands along his muscular forearms and down to the backs of his own hands, tangling our fingers together.

“But, how can these hands,” I bring them up in front of us, “that bring me so much pleasure, that make me feel so safe, be capable of such...” I trail off, unable to bring myself to say the word.

Pain,my mind taunts, and for a moment, Jax's hands are dripping red with the blood of his victims. I blink, and they're back to being clean again.

“My mind can't unknow the fact that you've hurt someone with these hands. That you have all hurt people. Badly. Hell, I saw just what you can do last night, and with what happened to my mum...” I sigh, feeling tears prick my eyes. I close them and bring our hands back down, wrapping myself up in his safe arms again. “But, Jax, I'm...I'm in love with you, all of you, and my heart hurts so badly thinking about everything that you’ve had to do to survive.”

Tears are tracking down my cheeks, I just can't stop them. It's true.

“Baby Girl, please don't cry,” he says, his own voice made even rougher than usual with emotion.

He turns me around in his arms, wiping my tears away. Ducking his head, he raises my chin, looking into my eyes with his.

“Lilly, baby, I can't speak for Ash and Kai, but, well...ah, fuck!” He takes a deep breath, rubbing the back of his neck with a huge palm and glancing away. “I feel the same. That is…” He looks back to me, meeting my eyes with his beautiful, piercing blue ones. “I'm in love with you, too. And I don’t mind that you love them as well.”