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The little moan that chirps from his throat makes my dick twitch. When he tells me he wants us to eat each other together, I swear my cock salivates in my shorts. I’m up and shedding clothes while Tommy lies sideways along the mattress.

He reaches out and grabs my cock, rolling down my foreskin and thumbing my slit. I crawl my knees onto the bed and let Tommy guide my dick to his mouth. Propped on an elbow, he slurps me in and takes me deep.

“Deeper,” I groan, watching him through a haze of pleasure. “Deeper, baby. That’s it.” I glide my palm down Tommy’s side and around his hip, feeling for his cock. It’s solid as stone, hot as a compress, and I stroke his length in the same rhythm Tommy bobs on my cock.

Tommy holds his throat around me as I swing a leg over his head and roll him onto his back so I can cage myself on top of him. Holding my hips high enough that Tommy doesn’t suffocate, I lower to my elbows and wash my tongue all over the pulsing tool hovering an inch above his pelvis.

The way his lips suction my shaft while his togue sweeps across my glands has my hips begging to roll, but I keep them steady and focus on kissing a trail up and down Tommy’s length. He was my first kiss, and he was the first person I ever went down on. After years of denying myself the fantasy of burying my face in a man’s crotch and taking him down my throat, I finally found someone I’m not afraid to devour.

I mean… I was afraid the first time. Terrified. But, I couldn’t stop myself. I was feeding an overwhelming hunger that wouldn’t heel. I needed Tommy then, and ever since, I haven’t been able to stop having him. I trace the tip of my tongue around the rim of his cockhead before slurping him into my mouth and sucking the precious pearls of pre-cum from his slit.

I take him halfway, then inch myself farther until my throat fills with his girth, stretching my jaw and tickling my gag reflex. Drool spills through my lips as I swallow around him. My eyes water and my lips pinch, but I take all of him in until my nose tickles his scrotum again. His thighs quiver against my palms, and he moans around my cock.

Caught up, I give in and rock my hips little by little. I hear Tommy gag, and I feel his hands grip my ass, but he doesn’t still me. He slaps my ass before tugging my hips down and enveloping me in his hot, wet mouth.

My balls tease up tight, and I jolt up quickly, replacing my mouth on Tommy with my hand. Stroking him firm and quick, I pant, “Baby, baby, I’m gonna come. I’m gonna—”

Words fall away as my body racks with shocks of pleasure. I feel the rush of my balls emptying down Tommy’s contracting throat, and I’m so delirious I don’t even register Tommy is coming, too, until I feel warm globs of it hitting my face. I shut my eyes as one strikes my eyebrow, and I keep pumping him until his hips go jerky and he rolls us both on our sides.

Letting my softening dick out of his mouth, he fills the room with a sated moan.

I find a corner of my bed sheet and haphazardly wipe the jizz off my face, then we cuddle like this, for no other reason but we’re too lazy to move. With our cheeks on each other’s thighs and our arms slung around each other’s hips, I hold him and he holds me. His cock really is adorable when it’s soft and slightly wrinkled. I press little kisses to it while it shrinks up.

“Fuck, Rowan,” he huffs. “I came so hard I thought I was going blind. Then I realized it was just your balls mashed over my eyes.”

I snort, laughing hard enough to bring me back to reality. A reality where I can’t be spending every second of the daytangled in bed with Tommy, milking orgasms out of each other like it’s our job. I pull my leg from over Tommy’s shoulder and sit up. Licking the taste of cum off my lips, I ask, “What time do you need to be at work?”

Tommy groans like that’s the last thing he wants to talk about. “Ten.”

“We can shower, and I’ll drive you.”

“If you drive me to work, someone will have to pick me up.” He smirks. “Maybe that someone can take me back to his place so we can rub our boners together all night long.”

I laugh some more. My boy is bold, and I can’t say I dislike it. He can play shy boy around everyone else, but when I’ve got him alone, I want to see fire behind his blue eyes.

“I can pick you up and take you home, but we’ve got classes tomorrow. No sleepovers on a school night.”

As sucky as it is to be the rational one, it’s worth it the way Tommy pouts and says, “Okay, Dad.”

Aroused all over again, I slip a hand behind Tommy’s neck and bring his mouth to mine for a series of kisses that are so tender I nearly melt.

“I just love being with you,” Tommy murmurs, his hand rubbing my thigh.

Even though he probably means he loves having sex with me, his words cause a flurry in my chest, and I feel the gears in my head churning. Overthinking is inevitable now, but I try to stay in the moment. I try not to freak out. I try not to say any of the bullshit things my mind comes up with on the spot, likedon’t get used to it.

Staying stolid, I squeeze the back of Tommy’s neck and say, “C’mon, baby boy. It’s bathtime.”

20

Tommy

Imiss the fourth match of the season because Erica guilts me into thinking it’s more important that I drive her and Mav to Monterey for the weekend. In the grand scheme of things, it is more important. We’re halfway through September, and this will probably be the last Summer Erica ever spends on Earth with us. I take a ton of pictures of us at the beach, at the little café Erica loves, and at the seaside motel where we all stay up late on a king bed watching Pixar movies.

The whole thing does us all some good. I’m working on letting go of the resentment and cherishing the moment. The only thing that still doesn’t sit right with me is that Mav doesn’t know. Then again, I’m not sure telling him is the best thing either. Maybe it’ll feel wrong no matter what. Maybe telling the truth can be just as bad as lying.

“You thought more on when you’re gonna tell him?” I ask on the drive back home, somewhere around Gilroy.

Mav’s got his big headphones on, tapping away at my old Switch that’s basically his now.