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“Are you human?” she asked.
“I am. Why?”
“Sex shouldn’t feel that good.”
It only did with her. I’d known that for years.
“It can when you find the right person.”
She leaned down, crossing her arms over my chestwith a smirk on her face. “So I was right about the whole feelings thing.”
“That isnotwhat you should get from that.”
“Definitely not, but you can’t say I’m wrong when you’re still inside of me.”
I huffed out a laugh and leaned my head back. “Fine. I’ll keep my mouth shut for once.”
She rolled her eyes and pressed one kiss to my lips before slowly getting off of me and heading for the bathroom.
I waited for the familiar anxiety to seep in. I knew I was wrong. I knew I was going to be in so much trouble for this.
But when Stella came back out dressed in nothing, all thoughts vanished in a puff of smoke.
“Thanks to you, I feel like I can sleep for a week.”
I laughed. “I could too.”
She bit her lip. “Want to share heat again? I think I’ll need it.”
“And clothing?”
“Optional.”
She was going to kill me. I knew she was.
“Then the answer is very much yes.”
FIFTEEN
Consciousness came back slowly.My body carried the memories of what Alden and I had done last night, and I felt satiated in a way I never had before.
For a second, I basked in the feeling of it. He was lying behind me, a thick arm slung over my waist. It was perfect.
But then the thoughts snuck in.
The last time we’d had sex didn’t end well. Would he change his mind again, or would I be enough this time?
As much as I liked to think I could banish all of my self-doubt into the pits of hell, I couldn’t. They stuck around, fed by every single person who’d hurt me.
Alden always held a piece of me, whether it be a childhood crush or this dangerous feeling that could turn all-encompassing at any time. I was careening toward a train wreck of my own making. And I couldn’t even tell Winnie what I was doing.
I missed the world, yet the quiet of the storm, with no one else talking in my ear and telling me who or what I should be, also led to all of my worries creeping in.
“Are you awake this time?” he asked me, pulling me out of my thoughts.
“Learned your lesson, huh?”
“Not spilling any more secrets.”