Page 17 of Your Love (Merrimack Mavericks Hockey #3)
Chapter 17
“Sex And Candy”
Landry - Age 18, 1988
I sit on the edge of Kerri’s bed, watching her pack a suitcase for her trip to Texas. She folds clothes meticulously, placing them in the bag with care. My chest feels tight at the thought of her leaving, but I try my best not to let my disappointment show. We’ve been stealing moments together all week, and it’s been everything I dreamed of. Her fingers brush against her lips as she contemplates what else to bring. I will never grow tired of looking at her.
As she zips up her suitcase, I can’t help but feel like she’s carrying my heart with her. The thought of her being far away settles in my chest like tiny needles. But I have to be strong for her. Taz would say I’m acting like a “giant wussy,” so I do my level best to reign it in.
I’ll see her again during spring break in April, but it’s going to be four long months. She’s going to try to find work as a veterinary technician someplace around school, so only her weekends will be free, while my weekends will be busy with Mavs practices and games. Every moment we have together only reminds me how much I want this woman in my life. And if waiting is what it takes, then I’ll wait.
Besides, I would never do anything to dampen her excitement about seeing her family in Texas. She’s talked about them almost nonstop for weeks and misses them desperately. She deserves every minute of happiness with them.
But at the same time, my heart clenches with fear and worry. Kerri’s douchebag- ex-boyfriend still lives somewhere in the area, and I can’t shake off the feeling of unease. As we sit on the bed together, I fidget with the edge of the blankets, struggling to find the right words that won’t reveal just how much I am going to miss her. “Um, what’s the forecast for when you get back home?”
Kerri sits down next to me on the bed, her eyes searching mine. “Is that really all you want to talk about? The weather?”
I let out a sigh and shrug, unable to hide my true feelings. “I guess it’s safer than admitting how much I’m going to miss you and how nervous I am for you to go back.”
Being vulnerable isn’t easy for either of us, but if we’re going to make this long-distance relationship work, we need honesty. Kerri nods understandingly, knowing that we don’t have the luxury of holding back our thoughts and feelings anymore.
Her hand rests on top of mine, providing a comforting warmth as she speaks. “Iunderstand you’re worried,” she says softly, “but Beau isn’t a concern anymore. He hasn’t tried to contact me, and my parents say they rarely see him around town. I’m not on his radar anymore.”
I let out a sigh of relief but find it impossible to relax. “I hope you’re right,” I reply, “because fixations like that are difficult for people to get over. And I’m telling you this now— if he ever comes near you again, I’ll fly there and break every bone in his body.”
Kerri chuckles at my words, but her gaze meets mine, and she knows how serious I am. “You’d have to get in line behind Daddy. He’ll be waiting with a Louisville Slugger.”
“Then I’ll be behind him with my stick,” I say honestly.
Kerri sighs and drops down to sit on my lap. “I appreciate you so much,” she says sincerely, placing her hand on my heart.
I inhale deeply, taking in the sweet scent of Kerri’s perfume and feeling her warm body pressed against mine. Her bright blue eyes shine with emotion as I speak the words that come straight from my heart. “Kerri, I am so in love with you.”
Tears glisten in her eyes before she throws her arms around my neck, holding me tightly. “I love you, too,” she whispers before pressing her lips against mine in a tender kiss. She pulls back and raises her eyebrows expectantly. “We still have a few hours until you take me to the airport.”
As she straddles my lap, her breath catches in anticipation. Our eyes lock, and I feel a surge of desire course through me. “I can’t wait to be inside you,” I whisper.
She bites her lip and shifts her hips, her fingers tracing the outline of my collarbone. “I know,” she purrs. “And we’re taking things slow, and that’s a good thing.”
I chuckle, knowing what’s coming next. “But?” I prompt.
Her gaze turns mischievous as she leans in close. “Well, we haven’t exactly gone past second base yet,” she teases, her lips grazing against mine before pulling back with a smirk.
I chuckle at her sweet innocence. “You’re right.”
A mischievous sparkle flickers in her eyes as she continues, “Maybe I can show you how much I want you before I have to leave.”
My eyebrow quirks in intrigue, and I feel my body respond. “What do you have in mind?”
With a sly smile, she climbs off my lap and kneels on the floor in front of me. Her gaze locks onto mine, full of desire, and she bites her bottom lip. My pulse quickens as I anticipate what she’s about to do.
With her eyes locked on mine, Kerri reaches out to undo the belt of my jeans. I gently place my hand over hers, pausing to make sure she truly wants this. She’s been through so much, and I never want to pressure her into anything she doesn’t want. I’ll do anything to protect her heart.
“Are you sure?” I ask.
Kerri looks at me with unwavering determination. “Landry, I trust you with my heart and know how careful you are with it. But I need you to trust me too. I want this. I want you.”
Her strength and vulnerability only make me want her more. As she kneels before me, I’m overcome with desire for this incredible woman who has captured my heart.
I place my hand on her cheek, feeling the softness of her skin against my palm. I run my thumb across her lips in a lazy pattern, and she parts them slightly, inviting me in. I slide my thumb into her warm, wet mouth, and she sucks on it eagerly, swirling her tongue around it. My jeans feel uncomfortably tight as her talented mouth works its magic.
She allows me to remove my hand from her mouth, and I rub the saliva onto her cheek, feeling a surge of desire as she continues to work on unbuttoning and unzipping my jeans. With shaky hands, I stand and kick off my Adidas sneakers and socks before letting my jeans drop to the floor. Her eyes never leave mine as she watches every move I make. I reach behind my neck, grab my T-shirt, and pull it over my head.
As she pulls down my boxers, I moan at her sudden contact with my hard length. She grips it firmly and rubs her hand up and down, making me catch my breath and lean back against the wall. But Kerri is determined to please me, and she doesn’t stop there.
She looks me up and down, from my eyes down to my feet, and then stops at my hard cock, pointed toward the sky. I don’t think I’ve ever been this turned on in my life, but I steady my breath and focus on how this is also giving her pleasure so that I can hold off my release as long as possible.
Kerri’s small hand glides effortlessly over my shaft, her fingers teasing and caressing as they make their way up to the tip. She pauses to apply pressure with her thumb, swirling it around the head before slowly pulling away. I watch in anticipation as she spits into her palm and resumes her slow, sensual movements. My head falls back as she leans in closer, her lips finally touching the tip of my cock. Every nerve in my body feels electrified as she teases me with kisses and flicks of her tongue along the sensitive underside of my shaft. I can’t help but moan and lose myself in the pleasure she’s giving me.
I moan. My voice is husky and unrecognizable as Kerri’s skilled mouth and hand work in tandem. Her lips wrap tightly around me, sending shivers down my spine, while her hand pumps up and down my length with precision. I can feel the pressure building in my abdomen, my abs tightening with each thrust of her mouth. Sweat forms on my forehead and chest as I cling to the edge of ecstasy.
With a final, powerful thrust, I release into her mouth with a guttural groan. My entire body trembles and spasms as she swallows every drop. As she pulls away, a satisfied smile graces her lips as she wipes a trail of saliva from the corner of her mouth. It’s the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen.
I collapse onto the plush comforter, pulling her down with me. My heart thumps against my ribs as I struggle to catch my breath, and she rests her head on my chest. The scent of her hair tickles and warms my senses.
Finally, I am able to form coherent thoughts, and I manage to speak. “You’re incredible. You know that?”
“Did I do...did we do okay?” she asks, propping herself up on one arm and meeting my gaze.
I run my fingers through her tousled hair and smile. “Are you kidding? That was beyond perfect.”
A look of relief washes over her face, and she nestles back into place on my chest. “I just wanted to show you how much you mean to me. I was worried I might not get it right.”
“Wildflower,” I say, lifting her chin to meet my eyes. She raises her head to meet my eyes again. “Everything you do is perfect because it’s you.”
She smiles, and the light in her eyes lets me know she believes my words.
“But what about you?” I ask. “It’s time to make you feel good.”
“Can I be honest?” she asks.
“Always,” I reply.
“I don’t think I’m quite ready for that yet. I need to maintain control for a bit, I think. My experience with intimacy has only been when someone was taking, and it certainly wasn’t about love.”
I kiss the top of her head while I fight the anger rising within me. “I understand,” I tell her. “But just know, when you’re ready, I am more than up to the task.”
Kerri giggles. “I believe it.” She pauses. “Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for everything.”
“You never have to thank me,” I remind her. “Loving you is the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”