Page 5 of We Could Be Better

dreka

See when I walked in that shop this morning I saw the pain written all over my sister face and it was plenty things I let slide, but Ky was my heart I would literally kill a nigga or bitch.

Don’t let these red bottoms fool you I would get down with the quickness behind that one.

I know she been hurting Ky was big on family and lately when I was around she was depressed but when I asked her was she fine she would just say yes and change the conversation.

Well, not today I was about to get it out of her.

“What’s the problem with you and Keith?” I asked her and watched as the tears started to flow.

“You know you have my blessings because I told you from jump you were making a mistake. For starters you dint know him that long and I don’t want to hear that bullshit about there’s no time on love.

There is sweetie especially when you were only doing it to get over Cash.

Not only were you doing that you wanted to feel like you were somebody and wanted to feel wanted.

Dad and I love you very much you didn’t need a man to love you especially his ass, Ky.

You were never in love with him you just used him as a rebound now look at you. I didn’t raise you to be weak girl.”

I had never cared for Ky being in that poisonous relationship there’s no way a man should come around and change everything about you.

Kyra was so much fun at one time, but it was like over the months he had started controlling her and she could no longer go out with us.

Plenty nights she would sit in the house while he was out with his friends or working.

It was always something about his snake ass and my sister leaving his ass probably was the best news ever.

It was time for Kyra to get her shit together and start focusing on herself and not anybody else.

She had been through so much in her life that all she really wanted was love and a good friend, but she had me for both.

I loved her and I was her best damn friend I hadn’t raised her to kiss ass.

Kyra was going to do what she had to and be better than I ever was; it was so much in life I had done just to make sure she was a better person.

If God come for me today or tomorrow there I nothing I can say that i didn’t do because I had done it all.

When she was younger and would get laughed at for not having the newest gear and shoes I would sell my body to make sure she had.

It was sad that I had to do all of that at a young age but my dad was always finding work out of town and the money that he did send my mom would used it to find her next fix.

That didn’t matter thought because all I wanted in return from Kyra was for her to become a better person than I ever was.

I didn’t need money from her that’s why I never told her how she got everything.

I didn’t want her to go through life trying to prove to our drunken ass mother that she was somebody, because not matter how hard you tried.

You just can’t prove something to someone who doesn’t have a heart.

“I went to see mom the other day. I didn’t know dad left.”

I looked up at her just shook my head. I know she didn’t think dad would stay around after we left. He couldn’t stand our mom he only stayed to make sure she didn’t harm us in any kind of way.

“Why did you go back there, Ky? I told you to stay away from her”

“Hey, do you want to come with me to meet my lawyer in the morning” she asked avoiding the question

“Sure now let’s go so you can do my hair. I have a date tonight girl.” I said and we both laughed.

No man has ever kept my attention longer than a day.

Only one man did that and he was in jail doing 5 years for a lil drug charge.

He should be home soon and I couldn’t wait to see him I just didn’t know how he would feel about my new line of work.

Shit I hadn’t had sex since he left I just went on random dates to make time go by, but these niggas aint have shit on my Keem.

Keem was Cash older brother and just like Ky and Cash.

I had known Keem damn near my whole life and though he knew what I was doing when I was younger he never judged me.

Matter fact he was the one that started giving me money at first we were just cool, but I wanted more and so did he.

I was his rider in the streets until I got pregnant with our son Ryder and he made me promise to chill out.

I did until he got locked but I couldn’t be a stay at home mom; I was a hustler at heart so I went to Cash and he hooked me up.

I was good at what I did and couldn’t anybody take that from me I had been in the streets my whole damn life.

But let’s just say things may or may not be peaches and cream once he get home.

Kyra 6 months later

Here I was in a club celebrating my divorce I didn’t want to but Nik and my sister thought it would be a good idea and it may help clear my mind.

Once Keith was served his papers I was beyond hurt when I saw he actually decided to sign them.

On top of that when were in court he told me I can take everything and he didn’t want anything from me.

After that it was like he just vanished from the earth I hadn’t seen him since that day in court.

My sister and mother was right the whole time but like the big girl I was I shrugged his off and kept pushing.

I packed up my bags and moved to Atlanta along with my sister, Mina, and Onika.

I even opened up a new shop up here and it was doing great to say I was new to town, but all it took was one person to trust me and business started booming.

My sister called me and told me about this new club opening tonight.

I wasn’t up for partying at first but then I said what the hell and deiced it was time I got fucked up and forgot about my miserable life for once.

I hadn’t seen Cash since that day I went back to our old neighborhood which was fine by me.

I’ve seen pictures of him and his girlfriend that people would share on my newsfeed and they looked like such a happy couple.

I figured that I would stop waiting around for him and let go just as he did me.

“Girl, how did you hear about this club?” I asked Dreka

“Some women were in grocery store earlier talking about the grand opening.”

“It’s nice and they playing all the music I like.” I said singing along to Bryson Tiller song exchange

This what happen when I think about you I get in my feelings, yeah I start reminiscing, yeah Next time around, fuck, I want it to be different, yeah waiting on a sign guess it’s time for a different prayer Lord, please save her for me, do this one favor for me I had to change my player ways, got way too complicated for me

I couldn’t even front I was in there feeling myself.

I decided to wear an all white bandage dress with some nude red bottoms and messy bun and some red lipstick to top it off.

Thanks to my sister my face was beat for the Gawds hunty and I was in here felling like the old Ky.

Feeling good, smelling good, I had my girls with me and we were all shutting the club down.

New to the city and was getting mugs from each direction, but I wasn’t tripping thanks to those shots of Hennessey ya girl was on cloud nine.

“Damn, I thought you decided to run away from me again.” someone whispered in my ear.

I knew that voice and Versace cologne from anywhere.

I was in the middle of the club tipsy and my pussy was dripping wet just from the sight of Cash.

Here he was standing here matching my fly with some all white Levi pants an all white polo button up and a pair of nude high top red bottoms his iced out grill topped his whole outfit off.

I looked him up and down and was stuck; I was going to the fuck the shit out of his ass tonight.

“Don’t let me find out you went through my closet and saw what I was wearing.” He smirked

“Fool I didn’t even know you were going to be here.

Now excuse me let me go find my girls.” I said and turned to walk away I don’t know what made me catch an attitude but that’s just how much I hated him and loved him at the same time.

I couldn’t give him the satisfaction he wanted.

I walked up to the VIP to see Keem staying onside my sister.

I was shocked because I thought drek said they pushed his sentence back and he was getting out In another year.

From the look on my sister face she thought so too.

“What’s up lil sis? You don’t look too happy to see me” keem said as he leaned in to hug and kiss me on the cheek.

“I thought you had another year, I’m just shocked that’s it.” I said

I looked pass him to see Cash and his girlfriend Bella reach our VIP section.

I rolled my eyes and continued talking to Keem and Dreka I wanted to cry so bad, but this was something that I was use to.

No matter how much I liked or loved him he didn’t feel that same way about me and I don’t know why I just couldn’t get that through my head.

My sister looked to see what was bothering me and whispered in my ear for me not to let him ruin my night and she was absolutely right. I was single and ready to mingle.

“Hey fam this my girl Bella.” Cash introduced us all one by one but when he got to me for some reason his girl wasn’t having that.

I held my hand out for her to shake and let me tell you this bitch decided to slap my hand and just like that on que Dreka ran to see what was going on.

I had to look at my hand for a minute as I continued to hold it out.

“You know me ma?” I asked as I continued staring at my hand

“Bitch I don’t have to know you but from what Cash say you are stuck on stupid behind him. When are you going to get it through your pretty little head that my nigga don’t want you?”