Page 4 of We Could Be Better

Kyra

I made it back home a little after midnight to find the same usual thing I always find.

Keith was never home and it was starting to become a routine thing.

We hardly ever had sex because either he was too tired or had some dumb ass excuse as to why he wouldn’t touch me.

I hated going around others and they were happy, but I had to come back home to an empty bed and wondering what was it about me that couldn’t get a man to just love me.

I can hear my sister Dreka worlds replay in my head over and over about how I was far too young to marry one man when I wasn’t over the other man.

Being back in my old hood today brought back so many memories.

Seeing NIk and Cash had me missing them and regretting going so long without calling or checking on them.

I was starting to think that maybe this is the way my life was supposed to be.

Maybe it was meant for me to be unhappy and by myself; I mean that is what my mom told me and you know what they say mama is always right.

The man that I loved I couldn’t have and the man that I married no longer loved me.

I wanted to so badly run away again but I learned that I could no longer run from any of my problems I just had the be a woman and face them all.

The next morning I woke up to find Keith already gone.

I didn’t even trip or call him like I normally do and ask why he didn’t wake me I just got up and started getting dressed for my work day.

I had a bust schedule today and Dreka was coming into the shop for her weekly appointment and seeing my sister was always a joy especially since we had so much to talk about.

I also wanted to call Onika and meet her with her over the weekend and catch up.

I went to sleep a mess but woke up and realized I didn’t have time to dwell on the past. I was seriously thinking divorce my sister was right I hate to admit it, but she was.

“Good Morning Ladies.” I greeted everyone as I walked into my shop.

“Morning Love! We missed you yesterday” my cousin Mina said

“I missed yall too boo, but I enjoyed that off day.” I said through a slight chuckle

Mina and I were always close. My dad and her mom were sister and brother so every summer Drek and I would go stay with them.

I swear being there with them I would always feel like I had a real family.

Even when we would go back home Mina mom Trina would always call us just to make sure we were good.

She treated us more like her kids than our fucked up mom did.

I hate that I didn’t have a relationship with my mom and I also hated that she was drinking her life away.

But over the years I got over it just like I got over everything else.

All I ever wanted to do was help her out but whenever I would try putting her in a rehab she would just run away.

“Hey my baby.”

Hearing Dreka voice always made me feel like a little girl again.

I ran and hugged her just like I always did and its crazy because I saw my sister damn near every other day being that we literally stayed about 10 minutes away from each other.

My sister was more of the popular one I was laid back and didn’t like being around people not that I’ve always been like that.

Once I got with Keith all of that changed though.

“Hey sis!”

“I’m surprised you didn’t cancel on me this morning. Are we still on for lunch”

“Girl bye the was one damn time get over it and yes we are. I really need to talk with you about some things.” Truth be told I needed my big sister more than I’ve ever needed her.

“Do we need to leave now and go grab breakfast?”

“Well maybe we can since you were my first client and the rest is in the evening.” I replied

We left the shop and walked down the street to a little place that serve brunch.

I know when I tell my sister everything that has been going on that she would say “I told you so” and she was right she did warn me I was hardheaded though.

I guess I just wanted to prove to my mom that someone did love me only thing was I didn’t know if he really did love me.

If he did he had a real crazy way of showing it; I was starting to think he had another family somewhere.

We never communicated and most nights I was sitting at the table eating alone.

“Girl what is your problem?”

“I haven’t been honest with you sis.”

I saw the way her nose twitch which indicated that she was mad. We had never hid anything from each other and that’s the way it has always been since we were younger. We protected one another and told each other everything.

“What have you done Ky? What is going on?”

“It’s about Keith and me.”