Page 28 of We Could Be Better

Onika

I sat on the toilet looking at positive pregnancy test crying.

Dreka was never really my friends so I had no feelings about what I was doing.

I mean to keep it real Keem was mines first, so she shouldn’t even be mad.

Kyra was a real loyal ass friend, and I knew if anything was to ever hit the fan that she would chose her sister side over mine.

That probably was the only part I regretted.

When Keem dropped me I didn’t even stop to ask me how I was feeling; I know I was young.

But the feelings I had for him was real I hated Dreka for so long it wasn’t funny.

I was happy when Keem went to jail because I figure Dreka would move on and find her someone else.

She stayed by his side, but so did I once I found out they shipped him off.

I was at damn near every visit sending him letters.

I took that ride with him, and he going out and didn’t even acknowledge me.

I never meant for any of this to happen but my emotions took over, and every time I would see them together I would think about how he ditched me for her.

He would always tell me that I wasn’t his type, I was too loud, and hood.

I grew up and turned myself around after he told me my mouth turned him off.

Those damn Payne brothers cared about no one but themselves.

That’s my reason for never judging Ky because I knew exactly what she was going through.

Getting in the bed and balling with my knees to my chest I continued to cry.

I was never suppose to let Keem fuck with my feelings again.

When he said fuck me years ago; I promised myself I wouldn’t let me hurt me again.

I didn’t know the first thing about being a mother, the streets raised me.

I didn’t know my parents; they left me with my grandparents when I was younger.

But it was so many of us under one roof they never even noticed me.

I woke up to text messages and missed calls from Kyra saying we needed to talk ASAP.

I already knew what it was about, and I knew most likely she would tell me that we could be friends again.

Honestly, I don’t expect us to continue talking being that Dreka is her sister and her loyalty is to her.

Getting up I threw on a cute romper and threw my hair in a high pony tail; I didn’t feel like putting any make up on.

The baby had me so damn sick I wasn’t sure about going meet Ky, because I couldn’t keep anything down.

‘Gotta find out someday,’ I thought.

Once I made it to pluckers; I went in to find Kyra. She was sitting in the back in a booth with Mina; I was about to turn around because I wasn’t in the mood to fight both of them cocky bitches. I don’t even know why Kyra pregnant ass needed to bring her here.

“What’s up?” I asked just sitting down.

I had a bad attitude for starters I didn’t know what was going on, and being pregnant wasn’t helping at all.

“I see you woke up on the wrong side of the bed so let me just get to the point. You know me better than anybody; my sister is my heart and behind her I’ll lay a bitch out. I know you were doing more than just brining Keem food. But why would you do my sister like that, NIk?”

I was about to reply to Kyra, because she didn’t know a damn thing.

She walked in after we were finished and I was fully clothed, but when they brought those hot wings out the smell mad me sick.

I took off to the restroom and was puking my guts out.

When I walked out the stall both Kyra and Mine were standing against the wall looking at me like they were crazy.

“Please don’t tell me you went and got yourself pregnant by Keem.”

“So what if I did, Kyra? Instead of worrying about me you need to be looking for you sister.”

Walking out the restroom before they could respond, they couldn’t stand there and judge me.

Mina think I didn’t know but she been getting her ass beat day and night.

The streets talk, and Kyra ass couldn’t keep Cash to herself if it saved her life.

She hid a whole fucking from him and then walking around pregnant right fucking now by a nigga that cheated on with every bitch that walk past.

They wouldn’t want to fuck with me Keem and I had been fucking around long before he and Dreka got together. She took him from me but now it was my turn to take him back, because we going to raise this baby together whether he liked it or not.