Page 23 of We Could Be Better

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I wasn’t mad at Kyra for shooting me because I know her hurt.

I knew about the pain someone you were supposed to love can bring.

For years I had gave myself to one man; he was my first everything.

I swear I loved my nigga with everything in me that’s why I don’t think it was something a person can tell me about him.

Sometimes I think he got in my mind still being with him is not the way my life was supposed to be, but I knew no one would love me.

Being around Kyra and everyone was always my way out, they never even noticed how sometime I would go by one of their houses super early and leave super.

Then there were times I would cancel all of my appointments at the shop and disappear for weeks.

This man I was supposed to be loving and someday having kids with no longer loved me the same as he did when we were younger.

The pain he brought to me by using his fist was becoming so bad lately that I couldn’t even hide it anymore.

I had been through so much doing my twenty-nine years here on earth that someday I prayed God would just come and take me away.

That’s why I didn’t get why Dreka and Kyra loved coming by our house so much when we were younger.

Life for me as a child wasn’t peaches and cream; I had to fight my dad off me every other night.

At one ten years old he came in my room drunk as always and took my most prized possession from me.

I didn’t want Paisley to go stay there but by that time he perverted ass had died and still this day my mom doesn’t know what went down.

“Mina, what the fuck going on bruh?”

The doctor had just left out the room from checking on my wound.

Kyra shot me in my arm, but it was more that that doctor detected like my bruised ribs and fractured eye socked.

I didn’t want anyone to find out this way, because I knew hands on how crazy Dreka ass was.

I was going to protect Chaz if it was the last thing I did; I knew deep down he loved me.

He just had a crazy way of showing how much he loved me.

“Girl it’s nothing I just have to stop making Chaz mad.” Just as I spoke those words he walked in

“Bae, I wish I could’ve gotten here sooner, but traffic a bitch.”

“Don’t fucking bae her! The fuck is wrong with you Mina? Why are you letting him hit you?”

“Dreka, calm down I told you already it’s not his fault he really love me.”

I know Chaz was mad because of the look he had given me once I said that. He told me before that if I had told anyone about him laying hands on me he would kill me and then kill himself. But I knew Dreka wouldn’t tell anyone she respected me too much to open her mouth and saying anything.

“Bitch you really fucking crazy!”

“Dreka exactly how am I crazy and I saw for myself how you let Keem choke your ass up?”

“Excuse me ladies but if you guys keep up the noise I will have to ask someone to leave.”

“She was just leaving ma’am”

“What’s going on Bae?” Keem said as him and Cash walked in the room.

I looked at Dreka with pleading eyes begging her not to say anything. But I knew she wouldn’t be able to hold it in especially after how I had just handled her in front of Chaz.

“Come on yall lets go Mina put me out of her room because I found out that her punk ass boyfriend been beating on her ass. But if she likes that shit then I fucking love. Don’t call me when shit go bad.”

“Bitch who the fuck you calling a punk?”

“Never address my lady!”

Before I knew it Keem flew off the handle and started beating the fuck out of Chaz.

I tried to get out the bed and stop them but the pain from my side was too bad.

It felt like my whole damn body was numb; I looked at Cash with pleading eyes but he just turned his head away and continued to let them fight.

“Finally!” I screamed as the hospital security rolled in

“See this is why I didn’t want you hanging with them hoes and their thug ass boyfriends.”

Dreka looked back at me as if she felt sorry for me and then left out of the room.

I couldn’t believe her though how couldn’t she judge my relationship when hers wasn’t perfect.

I have been there on many occasions when keem flew the coop on her ass.

If she was going to act sour towards me behind me only protecting my man then fuck her ass.

“Bitch soon as they discharge you I’m going on beat the fuck out of you. I told you to not run you fucking mouth. I fucking hate you dumb ass i’m only still with you because I feel sorry for you, it’s about time I leave you and move with my lady and kids.”

When he said his lady and kids I felt like my heart was ripped from my body.

Here I was protecting him thinking he loved me and he was only trying to get rid of me.

I wanted to speak but my tongue was caught in my throat; I felt like I had nothing to live for.

I had wanted kids for so love but every time I had gotten pregnant he would beat the baby out of me claiming he didn’t want any kids right now.

Even through all of that I still loved him.

I was out the hospital and at home but I was still feeling bad about what happened.

Pushed Dreka away and Chaz hadn’t been by since he what went down at the hospital.

I guess he was with his other family; I just couldn’t sit around while he was laid up with another woman and her kids I had to find him and find out what was going on.

I gave this man every part of me; I tried giving me kids.

I couldn’t understand why he would want kids with someone else and not me.

I got up and put on some seats Kyra shot me in my arm so I wasn’t bad off but I was going to make her pay for what she had done by driving me around.

She needed to get out of the house anyways I hated to see her so down.

Cash had no right treating her that way, but who am I to speak when I had gone trough to fucking fire and still hadn’t found love.

My nigga didn’t love me even with my face down and ass up; I just figured maybe I was ugly.

“Girl, where are you trying to go when you should be resting?”

“I’m fine it was nothing but an arm shot.” I said giving Kyra the address to take me

I turned the music up and leaned back in my seat I really didn’t want to talk much.

I had a lot of my mind and I was trying to brace myself for what I was going to see once I pulled up to the address I had given Kyra.

I didn’t know what I would or what I would say once I got there, but I needed to know why.

Why did you beat me every night and pick a fuss instead of just leaving.

I started to wonder if the girl knew about me or not.

When we pulled up to the house it was simply beautiful; I just lowered my head.

I did hair so I had more than enough money to get whatever I wanted but every time I tried to move he would come up with an excuse.

He had me tucked away in a little one bedroom apartment while he and his family were living like royalty. They alone made me cry.

“What’s wrong and who house we at?”

“This is where Chaz and his family lives.”

“What you mean when you say family?”

“His fiancé and his kids.”

“How is it possible all this happened when yall have been together since yall were kids?”

I know she hadn’t talked to Dreka about my situation because she was acting brand new, but it was so much I wanted to just sit down and say. I wanted to know everything she was asking too that’s why we were here. I had plans to ask him and his girl all of the questions Kyra was asking me.

“Stay here I’m going knock on the door.”

I got out and walked to the door in search for Chaz, but once I reached the door a woman came.

I had to admit she was very beautiful she resembled Amber Rose but she had hair.

No wonder Chaz was here; I didn’t look half as beautiful as her.

It crazy how a man can bring down your self esteem; I thought I knew my worth until I was standing here looking in the face of the woman that took my man and had kids with him.

“Hi, I know you don’t know me but my name is Mina.”

“I know exactly who you are and Chaz is not here.”

See I had already put in my mind that I wasn’t going to come here and start drama because it wasn’t the woman fault.

But when she said she knew me It sent me over the edge, so that meant while you were laying up with my man you knew I was home waiting.

Now I really felt stupid coming here and the bitch knew everything about me.

I was far from scary but I wasn’t stupid; I had one damn arm and Kyra was pregnant.

I wasn’t going to put her in a fucked up situation so I just left.

This will not be the last time they hear from me.

Chaz had been blowing up my phone which only meant his bitch had told him that I been by.

But every call went unanswered and every text was ignored.

If Chaz wanted to holla at me he was just going to have to be a man and come say what’s on his mind.

I knew he would be coming any moment now from the text he had sent.

He walked in the door on que and took a seat in front me.

“Mina, why the fuck did you show up and my house today?”

“I just wanted to see that woman that you left me for. She’s very pretty.” Hating on another woman wasn’t going to change the situation, so I just gave her props.

“Look Mina you have to move on we are getting married soon and I don’t want you just popping up at me house.”

“I understand I wish you nothing but the best. Lock the door behind you.”

He got up and did as I said; I know everyone like I know she just not gon let him walk out that door.

Well, yes I am I told yall I only had one arm so it’s not much I can do right now, but it wasn’t over.

I had put too much into my relationship with Chaz, it was nights he was damn near kill me and leave me on the floor hanging on to my life.

I had gave this man my all I wasn’t about to let him just leave out that door and life happily ever after.

That’s only on Disney movies because in reality this nigga was about to die at the hands of me.

His girl was about to be a single mother in the words of Plies “aint no wedding bihh”