Page 42 of The Fight For Survival
"If I do this, Cade, there's no going back for me," Braylon warns, pulling away from me to look into my eyes. "I love you, Mia," Braylon confesses, causing me to gasp. He loves me? My chest tightens as I look at him. Do I love him? I compare my feelings for him to my feelings for Cade. I get butterflies when I think about seeing Cade. My heart rate increases when we are together. Thinking about not having him in my life causes me tremendous pain. Those feelings apply to Braylon too.
Fuck I'm in love with Braylon.
I don't tell him that, though. I just stare dumbfounded athisconfession.
Braylon's attention goes to Cade. "I've fallen in love with her, Cade, and as much as I feel like a piece of shit for betraying you, I will continue loving her." Tears swim in my eyes as I turn to look at Cade. He assesses me, reading what I refuse to say out loud. This confession seems to have sobered us all up. Cade continues to read me, and when I see acceptance in his eyes, I want to cry at his feet.
"Okay," Cade says, a nod of his head.
"Okay?" Braylon says, apprehension in his tone.
"Yeah. I don't know how exactly this is going to work, but we'll figure it out." Cade says with a confidence I don't feel.
Suddenly a wave of anger overcomes me. Cade would freely hand me over to his best friend and not even fight for me. Does he not love me anymore? A deep pain hits me in the chest, causing me to clutch it. "Mia! what's wrong, baby?" Cade jumps up and grabs the tops of my arms. "You don't love me anymore," I cry, tears spilling freely down my face. Slightly dramatic, but hey, I'm sensitive today.
"What are you talking about?" Cade panics, stepping back with confusion. "You gave me to Braylon. You don't want me anymore. Is it Damon? Do you want him instead?"
I'm hysterical now. The beer in my system and the fact that it was Chase's birthday probably played a big part in my meltdown.
"Baby, of course, I fucking love you! Why the hell would you think otherwise?"
"Maybe because you just said Braylon can have her," Damon chimes in, sitting there watching us like he's sitting in the audience of a Jerry Springer special.
"Fuck, baby, that doesn't mean I don't still love you or want you! I see the way you look at him. You might not be ready to say it yet, but you love him just like you love Kane and just like you love me," he takes my face into his hands and crouches slightly to make sure we are eye to eye.
"It's because I love you that I am willing to try sharing you with him." My brows rise, and my mouth just about hits the floor. "Share me?" Cade winces, "it sounds terrible when you say it. You are not an object. I didn't mean it like that. Your heart is pure, baby. It's big, and I'm not surprised you can love more than one person. As long as there is still room in there for me, I'm okay with that."
Braylon steps up behind me, sandwiching me in between the both of them. Their scents mix, and it's a heady combination. "I won't push this on you, sweetheart. If it's something you are willing to try, I'm here. But you don't have to rush into anything." Braylon says with sincerity. It's those words that make the decision for me.
Turning in his arms, I stand on my tiptoes and kiss his full, lush lips. Braylon groans and then suddenly pushes me down onto the sofa, making me fall into Damon's lap. Damon wiggles his brows, a smirk on his alluring face. "Now, this is what I'm talking about," he purrs.
"Not so fast, Damon," Cade tsks, giving Damon a stern look. "You haven't earned the privilege of having her yet. You get me instead. Do you have a problem with that?" He asks, looking at Damon seductively and then at me to ensure I'm okay with it. I'm so wet I can feel the dampness in my panties.
"I definitely don't have a problem with it," I tell him, wiggling on Damon's lap, making him groan and squeeze my hips to still me.
"I think I'm okay with that," Damon says, his voice a sultry husk.
"Good. Mia, sit next to Damon. Braylon, why don't you have a taste of our woman? I can assure you it will be the best thing you've ever tasted." Cade commands the room, the dominant man I know and love coming to the surface and taking control of the situation.
My heart flutters at how easily he usedour woman,including Braylon in our relationship without an ounce of jealousy. I don't know if what we are doing is the right thing or how it would even work in the long run, but I know how I feel about Braylon, and I want to try.
Damon lifts me off his lap as if I weigh nothing at all and sits me next to him. He looks at me with longing, and if I'm honest with myself. I kind of want to kiss him.
Cade hovers over us both, sending me a knowing smirk. He mouthssoon.I'm getting the vibe that Cade doesn't want to share Damon with me, and I tell him that, causing him to laugh. His voice is rich, like chocolate.
"Baby, we've just added Braylon to this relationship. Do you really think you can handle another so soon?" He teases. I blush, not wanting to answer because fuck yes, I could handle more! I decide to keep that to myself. We are already treading through new territory. I don't want to push it.
Cade smirks my way, and then, in a move so fast his hand is a blur, he grips a handful of Damon's hair, tilting his head up.
Damon hisses, but the bulge in his pants and the lust clouding his eyes prove that he likes what Cade is doing to him. Cade leans down, his lips a hairsbreadth away from Damon's. He whispers, "now, what will I do with you?" I watch in fascination.
Cade can be rough with me, he knows I like it, and it's something he takes great pleasure in. The way Cade is with Damon is different. It's more primal, as if because Damon is a man, he feels he can really let his animal out. Watching this new side of Cade is hot. I love that he has found someone he doesn't feel like he has to hold back with.
Just as Cade pulls Damon into a kiss so hot, I think I might combust just watching, Braylon distracts me by kneeling at my feet. His height still makes him taller than me.
The man is so tall.
"Time to strip, sweetheart," he grunts, tugging on the leggings I am wearing. Oh my god, this is really happening!