Page 20 of The Fight For Survival

He must sense me watching him because he looks up. His eyes darken as he gives my body a visual exploration. It makes me feel exposed and self-conscious, making me squirm from my spot at the bathroom door. "Come here, Mia. I need to feel you," he says with a husky voice I've never heard him use before. I slowly walk over to him, and he opens the blankets for me. Once I'm in, he lies down and pulls me into his chest. I go willingly.

He's still shaken up. I can tell by his heavy breathing.

"What happened, Kane? Did your father do this to you?" he stiffens, and I have my answer. I had my suspicions but didn't want to believe them. "Oh god, Kane," I cry, trying to sit up. His arms tighten, keeping me against his now warm body. "Why would he do this to you? Is this the first time?" I'm silenced by Kane's lips suddenly on mine.

I've always wanted my first kiss to be with him. Well, or Cade, but I never imagined it would happen. At first, I have no idea what the hell I'm doing until Kane's tongue enters my mouth, and then it's like our mouths were made for each other. They fit perfectly together, and the kiss ultimately sets me on fire. We continue kissing for what feels like hours instead of minutes, and when we need to break apart to breathe, we are both panting all bright-eyed and swollen lips.

"Wow," Is all I can get out because I'm speechless. Kane kissed me!

"Yeah. I know." Kane goes on to shock me further when he gently lifts my top over my head, leaving my top half bare for him to see.

Staring at me with a look of wonder on his bruised face, he says, "you're so beautiful, Mia. I want you so badly," He whispers, voice deep. "I have loved you and will love you forever," He tells me as he runs a hand up my rib cage, grazing my breast.

"Why didn't you say anything before now?" I question him.

I feel like this is a dream. I've loved my best friend for as long as I can remember. At first, it was just innocent love. I wanted to be around him all the time. I found him funny, and when we were little, I thought he was the closest thing to a brother I would ever have. When I was about twelve years old, those feelings changed. I got the biggest crush on him, and hiding my feelings from him was so hard. Cade knew, though. Cade always knows everything.

"Because I don't deserve you, baby, my soul is tainted. I will never deserve you," he tells me torturedly. How could I have missed this? He is so fucking broken I can hardly stand it. I know Kane has anger issues. Cade told me once that he beat the shit out of this boy that had been bullying me. I couldn't believe that my sweet boy would do anything like that. Maybe I've been too blinded by my love for him to see that there is something inside Kane that he's been hiding from me. It doesn't matter right now, he's still the same person to me, and we'll deal with it later. After I show him how much I feel for him.

"I want to give myself to you, Kane. Let me try to fix you." My heart shatters when he starts crying silent tears. I kiss him deeply while our tears fall, mixing our sadness together and washing it away with our mouths. He removes his boxers, never breaking eye contact with me, and slowly unzips my jeans, His hand hesitating. "Are you sure, Mia?" He asks, voice husky like it was earlier. I now realize it's from lust. I nod my head, and he kisses me again.

Pulling off my jeans, he finds me without underwear and groans, "So fucking sexy." I hold in a moan when he latches on to my nipple, sending tingles straight to my clit. His hand trails down my body, squeezing my slim hip as he moves toward my center. "Are you ready for me?" he whispers, looking me in the eyes.

You can hardly see his bright baby blues, so blown from being turned on. "Yes," I moan, trying to grind into his hand to seek relief. I don't think I've ever been so turned on. He chuckles lightly, then groans when he feels how wet for him I am. "Fuck baby, I don't think I can wait."

"Me either. I need you inside of me, Kane", I quietly beg.

He doesn't need telling twice. I feel the tip of his erection pushing at my entrance. I'm not going to lie. It hurts a lot. It feels so tight, and it burns. He feels me tense, my body's natural reaction to protect itself from pain.

"I'm sorry, baby. I don't want to hurt you." He says, stilling inside of me, but now that I've adjusted to accommodate his size, it doesn't feel so bad. I can't believe we're doing this. Kane never showed an inkling of liking me that way. Damn, I hope it's not a dream. That would really suck. "It's okay now," I tell him, running my shaky hands along his triceps, holding onto his shoulders. "Try moving," I say, smiling up at him.

"Thank god, you don't know how good it feels to be inside you, Mia. You are so warm and tight. There's no way I'm going to last." He starts moving until he is all the way inside and then pulls out slowly. The ache begins to fade, and I feel a warmth building deep inside me.

We both get into a faster rhythm. I can feel something happening to me, like a need to chase something, and I tighten around Kane's shaft even more, making him groan in pleasure, causing him to lose all rhythm and completely letting himself go, pounding inside me. I feel like I'm going to explode, and when Kane touches my clit it sends me over the edge, causing me to cry out.

I pull the pillow from under my head to cover the sound. "Fuck...Mia!" Kane shouts into my shoulder, not caring to mask his sounds. Stilling, I feel his warm seed shooting inside me. I am still pulsing around him, and it feels like forever before he rolls off me. As soon as he does, I feel cold and empty without him, and it doesn't feel long enough.

He doesn't go far, rolling me over, so my head is lying on his chest once again, and I instantly feel better. "I love you, Mia, so damn much," he says, breathing heavily. "I love you too, Kane," I smile, feeling so happy I can hardly take it. I hear him whisper, "I am so sorry," with a broken sigh.

I Look into Kane's watery eyes and smile contently. "I'm fine. That was perfect." He pulls me tighter into his chest.

That was the last time I saw Kane. My heart shattered, and my world fell apart.

Cade is looking at me with such betrayal in his eyes. "Cade," I whisper, taking a step toward him. I can't stand the way he is looking at me. He has only ever looked at me with love in his eyes, and now? Now he looks like he doesn't even know me. He shakes his head, taking a step away from me. "Why did you keep something like that to yourself, Mia? His father beat him up! No wonder he left. He was scared."

I don't have a reason for not telling him. I was just so hurt and angry that Kane had left me. I look at Kane and see he is torn between comforting me and running from me. "I don't have an explanation for you, Cade. I'm sorry." He laughs in disbelief, taking a threatening step towards me, making Kane tense, balling his fists at his sides. "You let me stand there, laying into him, making him feel like shit. You knew his truth and still let me go on, belittling him." Tears pool in his eyes, and my heart crushes.

Kane steps in front of me and grabs hold of Cade, resting his hands on his shoulders. "Cade, it's fine. It was a long time ago." Cade shakes his head, looking at Kane, a lost look on his face. He looks over Kane's shoulder at me, a hardness to his face I have never witnessed before. "It's not okay," he whispers. "It's unforgivable."

As I let out a broken sob, my legs threaten to give out from under me. "Please, Cade, don't do this!" Kane grabs my arm, obviously seeing my struggle to stay on my feet, but I shrug him off. Cade walks back to our front door and turns to look at me, his own tears falling. "Leave," he chokes, "please, just leave," then he turns and goes into our home, closing the door behind him and leaving me to fall apart in the pouring rain.

Braylon

Fuck,myfacehurts,and this party blows. I touch my closed, swollen eye and hiss through my teeth. Maybe it needs more ice, but that shit hurts. Hey, don't go thinking I'm a pussy. If you had an eye as beaten as mine was tonight, you'd know how I feel.

Where are Cade and Mia? Cade might still be with Kane, but that doesn't explain Mia's absence. As I'm thinking about finding and asking Zoe, Kane walks through the busy living room with an upset and soaked-looking Mia. I watch as Kane leans down, whispering something in her ear. Mia shakes her head in response as pain flashes across her face.

My heart rate goes into overdrive as I stand up from the couch and walk over to her. I bend down a little to gain eye contact. Her lip trembles when she sees me. At first, I thought it was because of my beat-up appearance. But the devastation in her eyes tells me it's something else. Ignoring Kane's existence, I pull her into my arms, and she instantly wraps her arms around my waist, crying into my chest. She's wet and cold, causing my shirt to dampen, but I don't care one bit.