Page 24 of Racing Dirty Trilogy Box Set

Nolan

I watch with rage flooding my veins, as the asshole from the track makes his way into the pits.

I follow him discreetly, staying in the shadows.

My demon wants to play, but I keep him caged up, as I approach where the fucker’s parked.

I can't afford to make a scene right now, I must stay in control.

He climbs out the window, ripping his helmet off.

“Mother fucking bitch!" He screams.

His brown hair’s messy from his helmet. His racing suit is huge on his skinny frame.

He throws his helmet against the side of his car still cursing.

I stay hidden in the shadows, watching and listening.

I’m so pissed, my hands are shaking. I’m ready to jump out of the shadows and beat the shit out of this asshole, but my training is taking over, and I stay where I am.

I watch as a woman walks up to him. She has shoulder-length brown hair, tight shorts, and a tight blue tank top. Her back is toward me and I can’t see her face. She runs her fingernails down his racing suit.

“Calm down, Craig,” she soothes him. Her voice sounds familiar but I can't place it. Craig stops beating his helmet against the side of his car and turns to her, a look of lust in his eyes.

“Marie, I won’t fucking calm down, I need these wins. That bitch shouldn’t be out there. I thought I made that clear the other night."

My blood is boiling now to the point where my ears are ringing, listening to their conversation. I’m still hiding behind Craig’s race car, the lights from the track casting shadows across their faces.

“Listen up, Craig,” Marie says. “You need to keep your cool, if you lose it now, you’ll ruin everything.

She’s got a cop friend, so we have to tread carefully.

You can’t afford to ruin this. I want Xavier and you want Izzy.

If we don’t do this the right way, you won’t get your debt wiped away with Daddy.

Now stop thinking about that bitch and think about me. ”

I shift slightly trying to get a better look at them when my foot steps on a twig.

The crack is loud in my ears and Marie's head whips in my direction.

Her eyes narrow. Putting a hand up to Craig's mouth she shushes him with her finger.

He is still raving mad and didn't hear me back here, but she sure in the fuck did.

I readjust my position, making sure to not catch her attention when the lights from the pits show me her face. I inhale a deep breath praying I’m not right. When her face comes into the light more, my stomach drops with the weight of this new information.

“Holy fucking shit,” I whisper.

Craig pulls Marie’s attention back to him and drags her against his body, harshly. “You’re right. Tempers flare out there and there are only two ways to deal with it.” Craig sucks on Marie’s neck.

Disgusted at the sight, I turn and quietly walk away. Blending back into the shadows where I know I can unleash my demon for a minute. He’s beating against my chest, begging to come out. Once I have it under control, my head clears. I need to let Xavier know about this, but not yet.

Izzy and Xavier just found each other again and with Marie back, the one woman who ruined it all for them five years ago, it’s not going to end up good for them. I’ll keep this revelation to myself for now.

I could tell Christian, but I don’t know if I can trust him yet. Xavier might not remember much about that night five years ago, but I sure in the fuck do, and her back here will not be good.

As I walk back to Xavier’s trailer, I pull out my phone and text him. I tell him I have this all under control and to stay with Izzy. He won’t let her out of his sight anyway.

Those two make me want a relationship like that, but I can’t seem to find anyone worth it yet. I’ll keep on my carefree facade, but deep down I know I want what they have. I've always wanted that, but my fucked-up childhood won't let me.

For now, I'll go through the motions of being single until the right woman can handle my demon battling inside of me.