Page 26 of His Flawed Ride (Sons of Lost Souls MC #16)

Chapter Twenty-Four

Lily

Dear Harper, my beautiful daughter,

You’ve said that you don’t want any more apologies from me, but I can’t seem to stop myself.

A hundred years of apologising still wouldn’t be enough for the years of uncertainty and upheaval you went through because of me.

Out of everyone, it’s you that knows me the most. You’ve seen all my ugly, and even now, you’ve still welcomed me into your home so I can heal from yet another bad choice I made.

I used to believe I could change. That one day I’d turn my life around and I’d find the happiness I’ve been chasing since I was girl.

Change always seemed possible, but it was always unachievable.

Please don’t see this as anything you’ve done or said or didn’t say.

For the first time, I am in full control of my own life.

I seek peace, and not just for a few days before I mess up again. I want it to last. I don’t know what waits for me now, but I believe that it’s going to be better than this.

I’m tired of everything. I want you to go on having the best life, giving your son everything I never gave you.

I love you so much and have only wanted the best for you.

I now realise I was never the one who could give you that.

I should have told you who your father was years before I did.

I should have stayed in town and raised you with him.

It pains me to say but Cas has been a good father to his boys, you should have had the experience of a father like they did.

Too many should haves to write but I should have done them all.

Live your life for yourself. You have the perfect family you’ve created regardless of me not having shown what that was like.

Cherish it, Harper, and never let it go.

Tell Slade I could never repay him for being an amazing brother in life, he has done so much more than a brother should and I love him so much.

Goodbye.

I love you.

Mom.