Page 61 of Conquered (Highgate Preparatory Academ:y Compendium)

“Jax…” I murmur when he reaches me. “Please, Jax.” I'm panting, my body shaking with the pleasure that Loki's tongue is giving me.

His hands grip my face gently as he leans in.

“I'll always take care of you, Baby Girl,” he whispers, taking my mouth in a hot kiss, showing me that I've not lost him either.

A sob sounds in my throat, a mixture of relief and terror at what could have been, what could have happened tonight. What life would have been like if I’d lost them for good. I revel in the scratch of his short beard on my chin, showing me that he’s really here. I've missed him so fucking much.

He breaks our kiss, looking deep into my eyes once more before he too drops down onto his knees. He spreads my legs wider, throwing one over his left shoulder. Loki copies him, throwing my other leg over his right shoulder until I'm stretched open completely to them.

Jax starts to kiss up my inner thigh, nipping and sucking along the way. Seconds later, Loki does the same with the other thigh, and I begin to shake with breathless anticipation, my head thrown back, eyes closed.

When they reach the apex of my thighs, one of them blows on my bare dripping pussy. The cool air feels incredible against my inner heat, and I sigh, only to moan seconds later as a tongue licks up my open slit. A second tongue is quick to follow until I can't tell them apart.

I look down to see blond and red hair mixing, both their tongues working me into a frenzy. I moan at the sight of these guys on their knees for me, my hands reaching down to grasp their hair in tight fists.

One tongue enters me, curling upwards and licking my inner wall, whilst the other begins slow teasing circles around my clit. They switch over, meeting in the middle, and the idea of their tongues touching has me screaming my release as I tug at blond and auburn locks.

They don't relent, prolonging my orgasm until I'm a fucking twitching, whimpering mess. I can feel my whole body tingling, and all painful terror filled thoughts from earlier have fled my mind, leaving me languid and sated.

Loki's the first to sit back on his heels, a satisfied look on his face. His lips and chin are glistening with my juices. He gets up, leaning over to give me a kiss on the lips, and I moan at the taste of myself in his mouth.

“Get your dick out of my face,” Jax grumbles, and I giggle.

“I've missed your laugh so much, Pretty Girl,” Loki whispers seriously against my lips. “So fucking much.”

We stay together, lips and foreheads pressed until I hear the shower turn on. I look up and see a gloriously, now naked Jax holding his hand out to me. I swallow at the sight of him.

How could I have forgotten how beautiful he is?

Loki helps me climb down, my legs still shaking from that orgasm.

Jax grabs my hand when I reach him, pulling me into his embrace and holding me tight. I nuzzle into the crook of his neck, breathing him in. I'm instantly calmer, my body and mind knowing that I'm safe, that nothing can hurt me whilst I'm in his arms.

“I'm so sorry, Jax,” I say softly into his neck. “I'm so sorry for running away. For judging you.”

Fresh tears sting my eyes, tears that have nothing to do with what happened in the library, and everything to do with almost losing these guys.

“I was wrong, Jax. So wrong, and I shouldn't have run. When I came through the door tonight,” his arms tighten around me, “and I saw you standing there, I knew instinctively that you would keep me safe. That nothing could hurt me, as long as I was with you. All of you,” I add, opening my eyes and looking into Loki's emerald ones as he makes his way over to us, stepping into the shower.

Leaning back, I look up into Jax’s face. My arms are still wrapped around him, and I meet those piercing eyes of his. The blue is swirling and churning with a myriad of intense emotions. I reach out to cup his bearded cheek.

“Jax, you are my home, where I belong and where I'm safe. The thought of losing you, any of you...I'm not sure I would survive it.”

His hands tighten where they're now resting on my hips. I can see him swallowing, and when he talks, his voice is thick with emotion.

“You're ours, Lilly,” he says simply. I feel a warmth at my back when Loki steps up to me, his hands coming to my waist.

“We're right here, and we're not going anywhere. None of us,” Loki says into my ear, his voice serious. “Lilly, we need you. We need your light to temper our darkness and make us believe we're worthy. That we're not completely bad. That we're not just monsters.”

“Loki…” I reach a hand back around his neck and pull him closer. “You've done bad things, do bad things because you have to. And I don't care if you're monsters, as long as you're my monsters.”

“We're yours,” Jax rumbles out, fingers pressing hard into my soft flesh.

“You're ours,” Loki purrs behind me. I can feel them both hard again, pressed into my stomach and lower back. “Let's clean you up,” he says softly, placing a gentle kiss on my shoulder.

I need these guys, and no matter what they've done or what they’ll do, they're good guys.

Who of us isn't a little bit of a monster too?

We gently untangle ourselves, then Loki and Jax wash me so tenderly, so reverently, that fresh tears spring to my eyes. They wrap me up in a huge, fluffy towel, shepherding me out of the bathroom, where we see Ash and Kai sitting on the sofa, who look up as we exit.

Ash gets up and walks towards us, then stops short in front of me. He looks torn, torment churning in his grey eyes. Before he can say a word, I step forward and wrap my arms around his waist, nuzzling my nose into his neck and taking a deep breath in.

His spicy ginger scent floods my senses as he hesitates for a beat, then wraps his own arms tightly around me. I can hear his heart pounding in his chest, and his body is shaking all over.

“I'm so sorry, Ash,” I whisper, feeling him stiffen in my arms. “I was wrong that night, and I just got scared and ran. But I shouldn't have.” I can feel more tears stinging my eyes again. Crying is all I seem to do tonight.

He pulls back to look into my eyes, his own full of a thousand emotions.

“This life is so fucked up, Lilly, it's not safe, and now we've dragged you into it too,” he replies. He looks desolate and full of guilt, his jaw tight. “We should have stayed away from you. We shouldn't have gotten involved in the first place.” He hangs his head, and my heart stutters.

Does he regret being with me?

Taking a deep breath, he looks back up at me. One hand cups the side of my face, his thumb gently caressing my cheek.

“I'm sorry, Princess,” he murmurs, leaning down and pressing his lips to mine in a bittersweet kiss before stepping out of my arms, turning his back on me, and walking away.

I feel sick and numb, my heart so sore I'm surprised it's still beating. I hear Loki, Jax, and Kai in the background arguing, but all I can do is watch as Ash walks out the door.

A sob escapes me, my hand covering my lips when Kai steps in front of me, his hands capturing my face.

“Hey, Lilly, he just needs time,” he says gently, and I look into his eyes. “He's hurting and feels like he's failed you tonight.”

“Kai, I've lost him.” My voice is small and lost. Fresh tears track down my cheeks, which Kai brushes away with his thumbs.

“Not forever,” he says back, pulling me into his embrace, holding me whilst I gently cry into his chest, my tears wetting his t-shirt. His hands are soothing down my back, and his lips place gentle kisses on my head until a wave of exhaustion washes over me.

The events of tonight have wrung me out until I feel like a damp rag. Boneless, and like there's no more tears left.

He must feel my body droop because he scoops me up and carries me upstairs, taking me to Loki's room. I hear the others come in as Kai carefully sets me on my feet, removing my towel and picking me up again, then lying me down in Loki's bed.

He tenderly kisses my forehead before straightening up. I crack my eyes open a slit to see Loki and Jax climb in naked on either side of me, the bed dipping with their weight.

“Sleep now, Pretty Girl,” Loki mumbles, pulling me close to him, my back to his chest. “It'll all be okay.”

Before I can utter a word of protest, darkness overtakes me, and I fall into a blissful, dreamless sleep.