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“Do you want my advice or not?”

I flopped my head against the back of the couch. “Of course I want your advice. I called you.”

Erika clucked her tongue. “Watch the way they move and then ask. No generic questions like you know nothing. Yes or no questions where you’re somewhat confident of the answer. In my experience, people will tell you the important stuff without prompting, but they need to feel seen first.”

I closed my eyes. That made sense. It would’ve been more helpful if she’d given me a script, but that wasn’t her style.

“Thanks.”

Erika chuckled. I heard that sound more often from her as she settled in her M/s dynamic with Eli. “For what it’s worth, I can see you and Jaime.”

“Fuck off.”

The last thing I needed was more people getting involved—subtly or not.

“See you at the club next week?” Erika asked.

Could she feel I’d been about to end the call?

I wouldn’t put it past her. Spidey senses had nothing on her.

“Yeah. Of course.”

I’d signed up to run a workshop on bare-handed spankings. Erika was going to loan me Eli to demonstrate, but maybe…

I’d noticed the way Jaime had reacted whenever I’d spanked Marga or Jen at the club. He pretended to keep a distance, but his eyes never left my hand.

Before I could fantasize about asking him anything, I remembered I had to survive this exchange with him. Erika’s words made sense, but my gut told me it wouldn’t quite work with Jaime. Not entirely.

OldSchoolDS

Please keep in mind that I’m trying to write this with as much sensitivity as I can, and if I get anything wrong, it’s not out of malice.

I know you’re nonbinary, and transmasc, and you use he/they pronouns. I admit I mostly use he/him in my head when I think about you. I don’t have anything against they/them pronouns, but I’ve always seen you and the way you hold yourself as very masculine. I don’t know if this is offensive.

I also know you didn’t like me calling you boy the other day, but is there any other way I can call you, other than pup? I read somewhere that some transmasc and nonbinary people use boi instead.

And what about the way you refer to your body? You use packers, and you don’t want me to touch anything you haven’t okayed explicitly, but I don’t know what vocabulary you feel comfortable with, and I would like to know.

Fucking hell. It read like I was a duckling just learning to tread water.

I started drumming my feet against the hardwood floor. I should add something else, something that would balance it all out.

Jaime texted back before I could figure out what.

The fucker typed fast.

PupJ

It’s not necessarily offensive so long as you understand that I am masc, but I am not a Man TM. And as long as you understand there are days I feel less masculine, and they/them pronouns make more sense then

I don’t personally like boi for myself, but I know others who do, so we’re not shaming here. Domms just call me pup or puppy or anything like that. I’ve never been with them out of pup gear or as a sub, so I can’t help. I mean, I don’t have a big reaction to boy, at least not from a gender perspective. It’s about the role more than the gender

As for body parts…

Chest (obviously). My packer and my dildos are my cocks. Or dicks. Or whatever you prefer calling them. There was a poll in the app a couple of weeks ago that was super weird, but whatever. I don’t have a preference for a specific word. Some trans people refer to their clits as t-dicks, or just dicks/cocks. I know León does. I don’t feel super comfortable with that (again, for myself)?

So I guess clit, front hole, asshole. That said, I avoid the actual words as much as possible. Especially the first one. So, instead of saying “rub my clit,” I’d go for “rub one off,” or anything like that. Does that make sense?