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Eliza

I am so goddamn confused right now. I read the messages, and I get it.

They all sound like me, but why would someone do that?

Why would someone set them up to rape me?

I am looking at Calder, and he is crying too, but more in control than Julian is right now.

Julian is sobbing in my lap, and we are still butt ass naked.

“I’m so confused,” I admit quietly.

“We did everything to make sure we were doing it the right way,” Calder says. “We really didn’t know, Liza. I swear. He never would have done that if he had known…”

“Who would do this?” I ask. “Why? What does anyone gain from pretending to be me?”

“What does Troy do for work?” Calder asks, sitting on the bed next to me. I am gently stroking Julian’s hair, trying to help him calm down. He is going to pass out if he doesn’t stop and breathe soon. It breaks my heart to hear him like this.

“He’s a computer engineer,” I say, and then it hits me.

“My goddamn phone… He used to have some app on there that told him my location… What if it did more? I tried to text and call you two the entire time you were gone. That’s why Ryan was the one calling you guys, because I couldn’t get anything out of you. ”

“We never got anything from you. In the chat we asked how the office was, and you relayed the same information that Ryan was.”

“I want to read through all of them,” I say firmly.

“Of course. I’ll give you the password, and you can log in,” he says tearfully. “Eliza, honey. I swear, this never would have happened if we thought for a second you weren’t consenting.”

“Juli, please breathe,” I say, grabbing his face and making him look at me. “Just breathe and calm down so we can talk, okay?”

“I’m so sorry, Liza. I’m sorry,” he whimpers. “Please believe me. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I promise I didn’t.”

“I know, Juli. I believe you,” I say gently. “You scared the fuck out of me, but I’m okay. You didn’t hurt me… Well… Hurt isn’t the right word, but I’m okay.”

“I’m sorry,” he repeats.

“I know, Juli. Just breathe and relax,” I say. “Come up here and sit.”

Julian sniffs and nods before moving to sit on the bed. I pull him closer so I can properly hug him, and he buries his face in my neck as his entire body shakes. This time, he calms down. When he pulls away, I smile.

“We will figure this out, Julian. Okay?” I ask.

“I’ll make it up to you. I promise,” he says matter-of-factly.

“What can we do right now?” Calder asks.

“Right now? I just want to lie down and read through the messages,” I say. “We have all weekend to sort this out.”

“What do you need from us?” Juli asks, wiping his face. “Anything. You name it.”

“Just lay with me,” I say. “I believe you, Juli. You aren’t a rapist. I’m sorry I called you one.”

“I did rape you, Liza,” he says. “That is what that was. I raped you.”

“Stop, Julian,” I say. “If someone was messaging you, pretending to be me, you both are just as much of a victim as I am.”

“I…”

“Shhh,” I say. “You want to make it up to me?”

“Yes,” he says.

“Then just lay with me and let me read through the messages. Okay?”

“Okay,” he says. “I’ll grab you some…”

“Julian, you’ve been inside me. You can lay under the covers with me,” I say. “Go lie down.”

“Okay,” he says with a heavy sigh. “You too, Calder. Get naked and come join us.”

“Are you…”

“Yes, I am sure. Humor me,” I say as I grab Julian’s phone and move to lie in the center of the bed. Julian eventually gets in bed with me, but Calder is slower to join us. I notice that his dick is just as huge as Julian’s. “Damn, son. Are both of you packing monster dicks?”

“I’m…” Julian starts to say.

“I’m going to tape your mouth shut if you apologize again,” I say. “I am running on adrenaline right now. I will inevitably crash, and I’ll need you two for that. I need to read these messages so I can give myself peace of mind for trusting you right now. Okay?”

“Okay,” Julian sighs.

Calder lies beside me. I am on my back with the blanket pulled up over my breasts as they lie on their sides to face me.

I start scrolling until I get to the top and then read each message.

I am dumbfounded by how believable this is.

The only thing that isn’t true is how confident the messages are.

I am shy when it comes to kinks, and even if this is something I’d let them do, I don’t know if I could ever communicate that this boldly.

I get to the part where they both admit they love me, and I can’t help but feel giddy reading their words.

“What are you thinking now that you know I wasn’t the one who said this stuff?” I ask, my eyes never leaving the screen.

“Violated,” Calder admits quietly.

“Yeah,” Julian agrees.

I sigh heavily and lay the phone on my belly when I get to the end of the messages.

“So, here’s the thing… I am incredibly shy about the shit I am into because Troy shamed me for anything I ever admitted to.

It was used against me, and I was mocked for it.

Nothing said in these messages is incorrect; just the wrong person was saying it.

I’m not nearly this brazen or straightforward, and I don’t know if I’d ever admit to another person that I am into CNC.

Troy always forgot the consensual part, and my safe word was never honored.

You two did nothing wrong and were pretty mild compared to what he was trying to get you to do. ”

“There was a lot we were afraid would trigger you,” Julian admits.

“I do not want to be degraded like that, I don’t think. I don’t want cruelty; I want desperation,” I say. “I fell for you two a long time ago, and if I’m being honest, I love both of you so fucking much. I just need time.”

“We will do anything to make this up to you,” Calder says.

“Just… be with me. If you want me, just be close and don’t let me push you away. If you let me, it will only convince me that you don’t want me.”

“We can do that,” Julian says.

“I’d like to figure out why you two didn’t get my messages.”

“Well, probably a good idea to trash your phone and start fresh,” Calder tells me.

“That makes me worry about my car, too. What if he is tracking it?” I ask.

“We will take care of your car,” Calder says.

“Can you guys stay with me?” I ask.

“If you want, we will stay,” Julian says.

“I do,” I sigh and roll to my side to face Julian. “Please don’t treat me differently, Juli.”

“I can’t get the way you begged out of my head,” he says softly. “At the time, I loved it. Knowing you didn’t want that…”

“Stop,” I say. “Don’t do that.”

“Liza,” Julian says as he rolls to face me more. “You begged me to stop. Begged . You cried as I fucked you, and now you are asking me to pretend I didn’t hurt you. Just because I didn’t cause you damage doesn’t mean I didn’t hurt you.”

“I was overwhelmed and angry because I thought you two were ignoring me. If you had done this the day before you left, I’d be full of your come right now. I just need time to process this, but I want that to be real,” I say.

“Eliza,” Julian starts to say.

“Not now. I don’t know when, but unless you have suddenly stopped loving me… I want a second chance to get things right.”

“I haven’t stopped loving you,” Julian sighs.

“Then just hold me,” I say. “Please.”

Julian sighs and pulls me to his chest, so he and Calder wrap their arms around me. “I’m so sorry, Liza,” Julian whispers. I bury my face and relax, despite how tense he is. I have an ache in my pussy from how hard he was fucking me, and it’s too delicious to ignore.

I know he didn’t mean to do any of that.

Maybe it’s just my unwillingness to think he’d hurt me intentionally, but I believe them.

I know in my heart that he didn’t mean any harm.

Troy did this, and I’m positive it was a way to try and get me away from them.

He can’t stand the idea of me being close to someone else.

If he wants to fight dirty, then let the games begin.

He hurt three people, and while I might be able to handle this, it’s breaking Julian.

If I never have to hear him sob like that again, it will be too soon.