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All this to say, it’s weird to think that I’m not going to grow old and die. Or, maybe, that I am dead, depending on how you look at it. And even then, maybe I do get to grow old, but slowly and miserably and utterly alone.

“It is June. I am tired of being brave.”

It is December. I miss you.

Brennan

A letter, Cole to Brennan

They Both Die at the Endby Adam Silvera

I think it’s normal to think about your legacy. What people think about you when you’re not around. How many versions of me are floating around in people’s heads right now? I guess I’ve always hoped that my legacy is being kind to people. That people remember me as a friendly face, someone who is good. There are more ways to make a difference than making history, or writing the next Great American Novel. Sometimes it’s enough to be a good friend. Or to hold the door open for a stranger. To make little differences.

You’re a nerd, so I won’t bother going into the butterfly effect. It would only be redundant for you. But things you do matter. At least, that’s what I believe, and I can only hope that karma or the Lord are looking out for me, too.

I get it though. The call to more. My dad’s mad I didn’t get an internship for next semester. He thinks he can pull some strings for me. I wish he wouldn’t. I can’t imagine spending my days working on spreadsheets and marketing plans and trying not to gouge my eyes out. I probably picked the wrong field, all things considered. Business doesn’t care much about people, does it? I wish I could bake things and read books and not worry about all this, about money, and making a difference. But maybe us two idiots are cursed to forever worry about things we can’t change.

Cole

BRENNAN’S PHONE

Brennan

What a depressing fucking book how DARE you???

Call Log 12/22

Cole > Brennan 2 hr 38 min

Brennan

I don’t know how to talk to my mom now that I’m a vampire.

Cole

She still doesn’t know?

Brennan

Nope. I don’t want her to.

Cole

I get it’s a scary thing to trust someone with.

Brennan

Yeah. And she worries about me a lot, it just seems like another Thing.

Call Log 12/24

Brennan > Cole 1 hr 12 min

Call Log 12/25

Cole > Brennan 12 min

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