Page 84 of Beg for It

“Would it have changed if you knew what we were to one another?” I ask, not believing it would have changed anything. They hated me for a reason, would me being their scent match have done anything to change that?

I know the scent match bond is a powerful thing, but it doesn’t erase the past. The fact is, my father killed their mothers. They had a reason to hate me.

“Yes!” Brooks shoots a wild look over to me. “Because we would have taken the fucking time to get to know you, to see what we’ve seen in you now, and have avoided it all!”

I shake my head, unable to believe him. He can say that, but we won’t ever know if that's true.

“You lied to me,” Lee whispers. My eyes shoot over to find him standing there, chest heaving, eyes narrowed, a face of utter betrayal.

“I’m sorry,” I say with every ounce of remorse in my body, taking a step towards him, pleading with him to believe me.

He takes a step back and a sob bubbles free.

He shakes his head. “No, you're not. You’re not fucking sorry. I lied to my pack for you!” He shouts. “I trusted and believed you. I put my relationship with my alphas on the line because I fucking care about you. Why the fuck wouldn’t you tell me something so big like this?”

“I didn’t know how to. I didn’t know how to tell you your alphas were my alphas. I didn’t want you to think I was taking your alphas from you.”

“Bullshit,” he snarls. “You damn well know I am more than happy to share them with you.”

“I didn’t know that then.” I run my hands up and down my arms, feeling myself spiral. My chest is tight, it’s hard to breathe. My head pounds like a drum someone is beating as quick breaths wrack my body. “I was fucked up. I didn’t even want to live anymore, Lee. My mind wasn’t there.”

“It’s not a fucking excuse,” Lee shakes his head.

“I can’t fucking deal with this right now.” River growls, storming off.

“River!” I shout after him, feeling like a piece of my heart goes with him.

“I can’t believe you,” Brooks shakes his head. “I need to get out of here before I do something we’ll all regret.” he spits, looking me up and down like I’m gum on his shoe.

“Brooks,” I sob as he leaves.

“What have you done, Little Omega?” Lee says, shaking his head. “Who even are you?”

He turns around and leaves me too. I stand in the bathroom, alone and broken.

Full body sobs take over me as I crumble to my knees.

I’m not even sure how long I lay there, unable to hold it together.

Eventually hands grab at me and I manage to open my eyes, my heart leaping that they came back for me. Only when they land on the person picking me up in their arms, it’s not my alphas or my beta.

“I got you, Camden,” Beckham says, cradling me to his chest. “Everything will be alright.”

I curl into his chest, more tears manage to work their way out of me.

Nothing is going to be okay. My pack hates me. I fucked up. The only reason I felt like I could keep going on, keep waking up every day, is gone.

Everything goes by in a blur. I don’t remember how I get back to my dorm, just Beckham placing me in my bed.

He stays with me as I lay there numb, drifting in and out of sleep.

Jamie comes by too. But I just lay there, staring at the wall. Broken. Defeated.

I want to die. If I can’t have them, then I don’t have any reason to live.

My dad will kill me when he finds out what I am. Why not just end it sooner and not give him the satisfaction of taking my life.

“We have to go,” I hear Jamie speak. “But we’re going to be back okay? We won’t be long.”