Page 59 of Beg for It

My heart tightens, eyes flicking down to where they’re joined. Warmth spreads through me. I tighten my hold. He looks at me through the corner of his eye and I can see a small smirk on his lips that does something to my heart.

“Sit,” he barks, pointing to a chair outside the little cafe.

I do as I’m told, watching him disappear into the building. My leg bounces as I chew on my lip. What is going on right now?

River comes back out a few minutes later, a coffee in one hand and a muffin in the other. “Here,” he places them down on the table. “Eat.”

Is it fucked up that a part of me wants to cry right now? My alpha… is feeding me.

Using my nails, I dig them into my thigh to keep myself from breaking apart. It might seem stupid and silly, but this means the world to me.

If they keep doing small things like this for me, I don’t think I’ll be able to walk away.

It might not seem like a big deal, but for a man like River? It is. There’s a sweetness there not many get to see, maybe no one other than his pack. Actually, I’m willing to bet there’s no one on the outside who does.

Trying not to show how much my hands want to tremble, I do as I’m told and start eating.

I might not have been hungry before, but because he told me to, I find myself with just enough to get this muffin down.

He watches me intently the whole time.

“Why are you staring at me?” I ask, taking a sip of my coffee.

He cocks his head to the side, giving me a grin that both thrills and terrifies me. “I’m trying to figure out if you're a screamer.”

My eyes widen and I choke on my coffee. “I’m sorry. What?”

“You know. During sex? Do you moan, cry, scream?” He licks his lips. “All three?”

A flush breaks out over my whole body. He’s so crass. “I wouldn’t know,” I murmur, looking down.

River groans, making my eyes snap back up to him. “You're telling me you're a virgin, Baby Boy?”

The nickname has me clenching my ass. “Y-yes. I’m not ashamed of it. There’s nothing wrong with waiting to have sex until it’s with someone you really care about.”

“I didn’t say there was, did I?” he cocks a brow, leaning forward.

“N-no,” I look down again.

He grips my chin, forcing me to look up. “You don’t need to be afraid of us, Camden,” he murmurs, bringing his lips so close to mine. I want him to kiss me. “We won’t hurt you. Unless you want us to.”

Fuck, fuck, fuck. Closing my eyes, I squeeze them shut, willing myself not to perfume and give myself away right now.

With these suppressants not as strong as the ones I had before, I don’t trust the scent blocking spray to keep my secret.

River chuckles, sitting back in his seat. “Watching you squirm just became my new favorite hobby, Little Beta.” He moves to stand. “Come on, you have a class to get to.”

The whole walk there, I’m a fucking mess. Part of me wants to blurt out what we are to one another in hopes he takes me with open arms right now.

But I know that won’t be reality. So I keep my mouth shut.

As we pass some students, a few people look our way. River growls at them, baring his teeth.

“Would you stop that?” I grumble, my whole body blushing in embarrassment.

River swings his gaze my way as we stop in front of the building. “No,” he cocks his head to the side with a laugh. “I don’t think I will.”

Before I know what he’s doing, he’s in my personal space, grabbing a handful of my hair and yanking my head to the side. “W-what are you doing?” My heart hammers in my chest.