Page 4 of Beg for It

Alphas, betas, and omegas. “Lucky you.” Jamie tells me as we enter into the beta housing area.

“How so?” I ask him as we walk side by side. I’ve come to find out Jamie is a talker. He’s pretty funny and nice. I thought I’d feel a little intimidated around him because he’s an alpha, but I’ve been pretty at ease. I like the guy. And also surprisingly, I have no desire for him in that way at all.

“Betas have a free pass in any dorm. Well, if they’re with a friend who lives there. Alphas and omegas aren't allowed to enter each other's spaces, for safety reasons. But, we are allowed here, in the beta housing. It’s like neutral ground.”

I nod my head, a feeling of guilt hitting me. I shouldn’t be here. I shouldn’t be walking into the dorm building. This isn’t my space.

I’m an omega. I should be in one of their dorms.

But they can’t know that. No one can. And no one will.

I need to relax and stop overthinking. If this is how it’s going to be, me freaking out over every little thing, I don't know how the next four years are going to go.

“Here we are.” Jamie says as we stand in the lobby of the Harvest dorm building. “You should already know your room numbers. If you don’t, please come ask me. I can find out for you. I’ll leave you all to get moved in and settled. There’s a big cookout tonight where we all met up this morning. There will be free food and a chance to mingle with other students.”

The girls all thank Jamie and head in different directions. I stand there and think. Do I check out my room first, or do I go grab my things?

“Hey. What's your name again?” Jamie intercepts my thoughts.

“Camden.” I reply.

“Well, Camden. Got any plans tonight?” he asks, giving me a playful smile. I don’t think he’s hitting on me. Is he? I wouldn’t fucking know. I have no experience to go by.

“Not really. As fun as that cookout sounds, it’s not really my thing.”

He snorts a laugh. “Not mine either. I hate them. Too formal and shit. If you want a more low key, relaxed way to meet some people, there's a party tonight.”

Part of me wants to say no thank you. I could say I’m not a party person, but I haven’t really been to one. Not a real one anyways. Not one that doesn’t consist of drunk men fucking omegas out in the open like a damn whore house.

Jamie seems nice enough. And if I stay in tonight, I’m only going to spend it overthinking my life.

Maybe a few drinks to forget might be good. It’s not like it’s going to take me long to set up my room. I only came with about five boxes and a few suitcases.

“Sure.” I smile. “That sounds nice.”

“Awesome.” he grins. “Here’s my phone, put your number in. I’ll text you the address.”

I take his phone and put in my details then hand it back. He quickly sends me a text with the address and I add him to my phone.

“Thanks for the tour.” I tell him.

“Not usually my thing, but I was helping out a friend. Wasn’t so bad.” he chuckles. “See you later, Camden.”

After Jamie leaves, I choose to head up to my floor. There's a mix of male only, female only and coed dorms. When filling out the housing paperwork I picked that I didn’t have a preference. Honestly, I was hoping to be in coed. With the way these meds affect me, being around less men is for the better.

I’m on the second floor, so I don’t bother with the elevator right now and take the stairs. When I get to my room, I throw it open and almost let out a cry of relief when I see there’s only one bed. I don’t have to share. I don’t have a roommate.

A part of me settles, like it knows I’ll have my own space to just be me. To just relax and not worry if someone is going to see my pills. I won’t have to sneak away to take care of myself in fear that someone might smell my slick. It’s perfect and all mine.

The room is tiny too and that's another relief. I can make a nest. A fucking nest. God, I could cry right now.

I’ve never been able to have a nest before. No one understands how hard it is to be an omega and not have that safe place. The meds might make the world think I’m a beta, but it doesn’t change who I am or how I feel inside.

Closing my eyes, I squeeze them shut, forcing the tears back. Taking in a shuddering breath, I smile at the room. For the first time, I feel like maybe everything will be okay.

* * *

Parking my car, I start to feel a little anxious over the amount of cars around me. Jamie made it seem like it was going to be some little party, but it looks like half the school could be here.