Wanting him could destroy me, but it could also save me.

Carson

I dreamed of being a Navy SEAL, but to achieve my goal, I had to choose. I could be gay or be a SEAL. Being a SEAL won out. You couldn’t miss what you had never experienced. I hoped being a team guy would fill the void left by denying who I was.

And it did, until terrorists took my teammate captive, and I watched two of my best friends find love. Now repressed thoughts and feelings plagued me, and I didn’t know if I’d be able to resist.

Especially not when...

Wanting him could destroy me, but it could also save me.

Carson

I dreamed of being a Navy SEAL, but to achieve my goal, I had to choose. I could be gay or be a SEAL. Being a SEAL won out. You couldn’t miss what you had never experienced. I hoped being a team guy would fill the void left by denying who I was.

And it did, until terrorists took my teammate captive, and I watched two of my best friends find love. Now repressed thoughts and feelings plagued me, and I didn’t know if I’d be able to resist.

Especially not when my first and only crush showed up.

Roman

Growing up in the bible belt was hard enough, especially when my dad, the town doctor, committed suicide. I hid in the closet until I left for college. There twosomes turned into moresomes, which somehow led to a drunken hook-up with a sorority girl. When she turned up pregnant, I married her, but she disappeared as soon as the baby was born, leaving me a single dad.

When Carson Wilcox returned to my life, he reawakened the want I’d always had for him. But the emotional wounds left by my father and wife still festered and I didn’t know if I could risk not only my heart but my daughter’s too.