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I fight the urge to laugh out loud. That’s completely impossible.

Besides, she’d never love me back.

She can’t.

Love is a weakness. It gets people hurt and killed.

I don’t want to feel like I felt on the day I lost my family ever again. They’re the only ones I could’ve ever loved, and now there’s nothing left in me.

Nothing left to give.

Sienna is only a distraction.

A means to an end.

She may like it when I fuck her, but she’ll never like me.

It’s for the best.

Once I’m done with her, I’ll send her away, no matter how hard that will be.

Chapter 35

ILIKE BEING IN ALESSANDRO’Sarms. It feels warm and safe, which is weird, considering who he is.

I may be imagining things, but ever since I got to see a different side of him, I can’t stop thinking about getting to know him more. Maybe he’s not as bad as everyone believes.

I know it’s crazy to think about it, but he’s my husband, and I’m going to be stuck with him forever. Why shouldn’t we get to know each other better?

Maybe, just maybe, something grows out of it.

Something bigger.

Stronger.

When he holds me like this, I want more. I’m not even sure what that would mean. Could we be friends and lovers?