Page 24 of No Right To Love You (Winter of Love #6)

Last Chapter: January

After our session, Ocean cleaned me up with such tenderness that I cried again. It wasn’t the first time he’s ever done it, but I missed this. I missed our bond. He didn’t say much else because he was busy dressing me and taking me back out to the hotel he booked for the night.

When we arrived, I didn’t think or talk. Instead, I cuddled into my husband’s arms and knocked out.

Now, I am awakened by kisses on my back.

“Mmmm morning, Ocean.” I softly say.

There is something about this man that makes me nervous even knowing when I shouldn’t be because we’ve been together for 13 years.

“Good morning, my love.”

Ocean lifts one of my legs up as he plays with me. Stimulating me to take him again and it doesn’t take long for me to get where he needs me. He hooks his arm under my leg hiking it up further then slipping into what he calls his home.

I arch my back giving him even more access to me as he moves slowly because he likes to have what we both deem lazy sex in the mornings.

His arm goes higher as he cups my breast in his hand, holding on to it as he gives me more of him. My eyes flutter and my head falls back against his chest as I try my best not to lose my mind over him.

“You’re spoiling me.” I moan trying to remain in this moment instead of losing myself.

Ocean chuckles as he slowly slips out then fills me up again.

“Don’t I always?” He bites my neck as he continues to give me more than I was expecting this morning. “Cum with me, January. I love you, Ashley.”

He calls my middle name that I hate, and I shudder as he speeds up, not letting me go.

“I hate that name.”

“Yeah, but I love it. I should start calling you that instead; January Ashley Māhoe. So, fucking cute.” He says as I glare at him.

Ocean turns me to face him and lifts my leg up again, slipping in and not letting me go until we finally reach that hill and climax together.

“Ashley is a name I swear my parents never once used.” I say to him as I calm down some more, coming down from Ocean’s loving.

“Maybe when you’re ready, we can have a mini-Ashley walking around.”

“What if it’s not a girl?” I ask him.

“Never said it had to be a girl. Don’t worry, I’ll concentrate hard enough and make sure I fuck you just as good, so it’ll be a boy. Ashley Kai Māhoe.” He offers.

A smile brightens my face as I reach out, touching and caressing my husband’s face. I trace over his scar for a moment and let the quiet fill in for us. I love this man.

“How long have you wanted another baby, honey?”

Ocean shrugs.

“I don’t know.” He says and looks away.

“Be honest with me, honey. Please.” I trace over his lips.

Ocean kisses my thumb and looks at me.

“Maybe a year or almost two now.”

“Why didn’t you say anything?”

“Because it wasn’t the right time, and I wasn’t going to make you feel like you had to stop doing what you were doing. Having another baby will set you back and you are trying to get what you were owed.”

“But I would have listened, Ocean. I wouldn’t have dismissed your feelings on that. I love you. You know that right?”

“Yeah,” he gives me a small smile, one that shows his vulnerability.

One thing we decided early on in our marriage was how much trust and respect we would give each other especially when it comes to being honest about our feelings.

“What is it? Please tell me.” I ask.

“For a moment there… for just one single moment, I felt as if I had no right to love you anymore. No right to be who you need in your life. Obviously, I woke the hell up but for a second there, I felt it.”

My eyes get teary, and I try not to think about how my husband felt.

“I,” I cleared my throat. “Full transparency, right?”

“Always.”

“I felt like you didn’t want me anymore,” Ocean opens his mouth to rebuttal it, but I stop him.

“No, let me just get this out. I know that now when I think about it, it’s a dumb thing.

You would have never ever left me but at the time I was feeling like that.

It was my own insecurity and working with dad pushing me because I missed the opportunity to be made partner but right now, being here with you.

Being with our kids and getting to fix that, I don’t care about being made partner. ”

“No.” Ocean stops me. “You want to be made partner so you will be partner. It will be Evans, Evans & Māhoe. No one, not even your father is stupid enough to think you don’t deserve it.

Whatever he was punishing you for, I doubt he will continue after he realized what he has done with making that idiot Bernard anything.

Hell, he doesn’t even have Bernard’s name on the building. ”

“I love you.” I wrap my arms around Ocean’s neck, and he turns, lifting me up with him as he stands.

“Time to get wet so I can slip into that wetsuit again, it’s snug and I’d love to live in it.” Ocean kisses me on the way to the shower and all I can do is giggle.

“You spoil me.” I say in between kisses.

“And you love it.”

“I do.”