Page 21 of Midnight Sun

Jamie feels inexplicably guilty, even though Finn is the one making more of a fuss than necessary. He gets up and trails after Finn, not quite sure what he should do. The physical attraction Jamie has been fighting for days is getting nearly unbearable. Screw it! His patience is worn paper thin and he just hasn’t any energy left to further restrain himself. He steps close to Finn, brushing gently against his shoulder.

“Apology accepted,” Finn says gruffly, but doesn’t turn around. It’s not like him to be so dismissive, Jamie muses, unless…

“Oh my god, that turned you on, didn’t it?”

“Jamie,” Finn says warningly.

But Jamie won’t have it. He turns Finn around and crowds into his personal space. A lovely flush accentuates Finn’s high cheekbones and his lips are slightly parted as he regards Jamie with an intense gaze that could mean anger or lust. Both, Jamie decides, and presses closer.

“Tell me you don’t want me and I’ll leave you be.”

Finn grits his teeth as if Jamie’s words cause him physical pain.

“I don’t do meaningless hook-ups.”

“It’s not meaningless.” Jamie leans in to press feather-light kisses to Finn’s jaw. “We both want it. Why can’t we just let it happen and see where it takes us?”

Finn groans and suddenly kisses him back, forcing his tongue into Jamie’s mouth demandingly. They both strive to dominate the kiss, their battle of teeth and tongues sending sharp jolts of pleasure down Jamie’s spine. But all too soon Finn retreats again, holding Jamie back with a long-fingered hand on his throat as Jamie moves to chase after him. He can’t suppress the needy whine that escapes him at the loss of contact.

“This won’t work. We both like to be dominant. We still have to work together afterwards, and as far as I know you aren’t even single.”

Jamie wants to scream in frustration. Why must Finn overthink everything?

“We were getting along just fine,” Jamie tries in a sultry tone, leaning against Finn again.

“That’s not enough for me.”

Jamie has no idea why Finn’s refusal to have some noncommittal fun makes him only more desirable, but right now he’s willing to do anything to change Finn’s mind.

“Okay.” Jamie takes a step back to give Finn some space. “I broke up with my girlfriend before I got on the plane here. To be honest, I’m going to have to talk to her again. I don’t think I made myself clear. But our relationship is over.”

Finn gives him an inscrutable look, so Jamie keeps talking.

“I–I’m not good at relationships. So I can’t promise you it will go smoothly. But I’d be willing to give it a try and see where it takes us?”

Wow, Jamie knows why he doesn’t usually do this shit. He’s feeling vulnerable as hell.

“Besides, if you want me to submit–” Jamie trails off, his cheeks starting to burn. Why is this so hard to say? “I’m willing to try,” he finally blurts out, feeling like he’s probably given the most embarrassing little speech Finn has ever heard. If only Finn would stop staring at him and say something for a change. Jamie lowers his eyes, panic spreading through his chest. What a spectacular fuck-up.

But then finally,finally, Finn takes a step closer and pulls him against his chest. Jamie almost sobs in relief as Finn’s hands start to stroke gentle patterns over his arms and back and tangle in his hair.

“You’re very brave,” Finn praises. “Relax now, I’ve got you.”

Jamie can’t help but snuggle closer. He presses his nose into Finn’s neck and inhales his scent greedily.

“Do you really want to try subbing? I don’t want you to feel pressured.”

Jamie chuckles. “You’re afraid to pressure me? I thought it was the other way around.”

“You’re under a lot of stress, you can’t deny that. I think it might do you good to allow me to take care of you, but I don’t want you to regret it.”

“We could take it slow,” Jamie suggests. He’s surprised at himself. Normally, he throws himself headlong into everything, and if a partner won’t play by his rules, he has no qualms about finding someone who will. But that’s not the case with Finn.

Finn’s hands caress down his spine until they move lower to cup Jamie’s arse. The sudden change of intent elicits a soft moan from Jamie.

“I’ll make sure we will,” Finn says like a promise. “Do you want me to take care of you?”

Jamie can only nod frantically.