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BENNIE

I wanted to tell him that I had fallen in love with him too, but his words had made me speechless, and I couldn’t utter how I felt for him.

I knew he understood though, even without me using my words.

I had fallen in love with him too, and while it scared me a little, I was convinced that Joska was the man for me. It all happened so fast, but I had a good feeling about us. It all felt right, and that pull between us only grew stronger the more time we spent together.

And if I was wrong about Joska, I had Dad and Sin, and all her men who would make sure he’d get what he deserved if he truly were to break my heart. I couldn’t imagine how he would be the one to break it though, since he had been the one making it feel so full.

I kissed him again while he moved one hand to my thigh. He lifted it, wrapping it around him as he pressed his hips against me. I felt his cock through his jeans, big and hard.

“Do you have a condom?” I asked in between the kisses. I had to ask, because I wasn’t on the pill, and having sex without protection wasn’t something I wanted to risk.

Joska broke the kiss and looked at me with a nod. “Of course.”

He didn’t question it. Didn’t try to force me into having sex without him wearing a condom. And he also wasn’t whining about not wanting to wear one because it would be too uncomfortable on his cock. Those were all things Shawn used to say to me. He rarely put a condom on, and whenever he did, he kept whining that it didn’t feel half as good.

He convinced me to let him take it off, and he promised me to always pull out when he came. He rarely did, not thinking about the consequences, and I often found myself driving to the pharmacy to get the morning after pill because I was so paranoid.

There was never an accidental pregnancy, but if there were, I was sure Shawn would’ve immediately blamed me.

An intense wave of emotions came over me as I watched Joska get off the bed and open the bedside table. He was treating me right. With respect. And he also managed to be the nicest guy. He was a man. Grown. An adult who knew how to treat people. How to treat women.

But he kind of had to know all that because he was a priest. He needed to be empathetic and kind.

He may was a priest who kept secrets and crossed some lines, but he didn’t hurt anyone in the process.

God…I truly loved that man.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” He had already taken off his sweater and jeans, and he now stood there wearing only his boxers, holding a condom in his right hand.

I sat up and pulled my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around my legs to keep my naked body warm. “Nothing’s wrong,” I assured him with a sniff and soft smile. “I’m just realizing that you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me.”

His worried expression eased as he heard my words. He watched me closely before getting on the bed. He sat on the side, his body turned to me, and his hand resting on my knee. “That’s nice to hear, Bennie. I want you to feel comfortable. I hope you know that too.”

“I do. And…” I took a deep breath and felt my cheeks turn bright red. “I think I’ve fallen in love with you too.”

His chuckled made me nervous. God, why did I say it like that? He probably thought I was unsure.

“You think?”

I shrugged. “I think that I definitely have fallen in love with you.”

That made it worse.

Jesus, you’re so weird!

“I mean, I know that I have definitely fallen in love with you too.”

He chuckled again, and the grin on his face turned into a proud smile. “You have?”

“Yes, and it feels amazing. It’s a big feeling and I don’t know how to deal with it exactly, but it’s a good feeling,” I told him with conviction in my voice.

Joska squeezed my hand before moving closer and making me lie down again. He leaned over me, with his elbow resting next to my head. “I’m glad I can make you feel so good. You make me feel the same.”

His kiss was passionate, and I let myself go again, needing to take the next step with him. While our tongues tangled, he skillfully managed to take off his boxers and put on the condom. He got comfortable between my legs and pressed his length against my pussy, making me feel just how hard he was for me.

I moaned when he rubbed against my clit, and as my kiss turned more eager, he finally reached down to guide his tip to my entrance. Before him, having sex had always made me nervous. I couldn’t remember a time where it had felt nice, without pain. But I knew with Joska, it would feel different.

He broke the kiss and looked into my eyes as he held still. “You okay?” he asked, his voice low.

“Yes,” I whispered back. “I’m ready.”

He pressed one more kiss to my lips before he looked down, slowly pushing into me. I wanted this, and my body let him in without resisting. His hips moved slowly back and forth until he thrusted into me, burying him inside of me fully.

I moaned and gripped his shoulder with one hand and placed my other on his chest.

“Does that feel good, baby?” he asked, his eyes meeting mine again.

I nodded, unable to speak.

I needed him to continue, and so I lifted my hips, urging him to move.

He didn’t hesitate, and with slow thrusts, he slid in and out of me. His mouth took mine again, and as our kiss deepened, so did his cock inside of me with every push.

“Feel so damn good, baby. So tight. So wet,” he muttered against my lips.

His words sent shivers down my spine, and they intensified what I was feeling. I wanted him to continue to speak, so I begged him to. “More.”

“More of that, Bennie? Tell me what you want.”

I swallowed and moaned again. “I like when you talk dirty.”

He let out a grunt and thrusted harder into me. “Yeah? Guess I’ll have to keep telling you how fucking tight this pussy is. So fucking hot, baby. You’re squeezing my dick just right.”

My body jolted as his words echoed around us, and I met his thrusts by lifting my hips, needing to feel even more of him. “Oh…yes.”

“Can’t get enough of you. This pussy is mine.”

He kissed me again, his tongue plunging into my mouth and curling around mine. He moved faster until I could feel his cock throb inside of me, and when that same familiar feeling started to creep up, I told myself to let go even if this would end so quickly. We had all night, and I wanted to do it all over again right after this. I knew he would be up for that too. He wouldn’t let himself come just yet. I could feel his body tense, trying to hold back an orgasm.

As I got closer, Joska started kissing my neck, muttering the sweetest, naughtiest things to me. His words pushed me closer to the edge until I had to hold my breath. My whole body tensed, and I gripped his shoulders as I reached the climax.

I cried out his name and dug my nails into his skin, letting it all wash over me.

“Goddamn,” he grunted, his mouth trailing kisses up my neck and along my jaw. “Breathe, baby. You need to breathe.”

Everything around me went dark for a moment, and when I opened my eyes, I took a deep breath and looked into his eyes with a content smile. “That was—” I took another breath, closing my eyes. “That was perfect.”

He smiled back and pressed a kiss to my lips. “Good.” There was silence for a while, and I felt his cock throb inside of me. “Think I can move again?” he asked, again wanting my permission.

I nodded and ran a hand through his hair. “Yes, you can.”

He could do anything at this point.

Anything, forever.

JOSKA

I wanted to hold her all day.

To be fair, we had all day for that, but we needed to get up eventually to eat.

I wasn’t going to let her go a day without food, especially after the night we had.

Tightening my arms around her body, I buried my face into the crook of her neck where I left small kisses. The little noises coming from her made my cock throb. I wanted to be inside of her again, but I bet she was sore, and I didn’t want to hurt her.

“I don’t want to get up,” she whispered. She pushed a hand into my hair and wrapped her leg around my hips, keeping me close so I couldn’t escape.

“You have to eat,” I told her, pressing another kiss to her neck before pulling back to look at her. She was tired, her eyes barely open, but she still looked insanely beautiful. I brushed back a strand of her hair and smiled before placing a kiss to the tip of her nose. “How are you feeling, sweetheart?”

She smiled the sweetest smile. “Good. Relaxed. Adored.”

I grinned at her words, my chest warming with satisfaction. “Good. That’s exactly how you should feel.”

Her hand trailed down my back, making it harder for me to follow through with my plan of getting out of bed. If I wasn’t careful, breakfast would be nothing more than an afterthought. Still, I couldn’t let her go hungry.

“As much as I’d love to stay like this, we need food. You need food,” I said softly, brushing my lips over hers. I kissed her again, making this extremely hard for myself. The kiss was sweet, and neither of us wanted to rush it.

I tried again to let go, but as I pulled back, she tightened her hold on me in protest. “No…”

I chuckled, this time going through with my plan. I pushed myself off the bed and got up, looking down at her as she turned onto her back. “Fine,” she huffed, then smiled. “What are we making?”

“Pancakes or waffles?” I let her choose.

She thought about it for a while, then said, “Waffles.”

“Good choice. Come on, now.” I reached out to her and waited for her to place her hand on mine. Once I grabbed it, I pulled her up and looked down at her, thinking it would be best if she would put on some clothes.

She only had her panties and top on which obviously didn’t bother me, but I didn’t want her to get a cold.

I cupped her jaw with my hand and kissed her hard, unable to stop myself from kissing her any possible moment. When I pulled back again, I grabbed her pajama pants off the floor and handed it to her. “Here, put this on.”

We both got dressed, then headed downstairs into the kitchen where I quickly started on making waffles, while Bennie insisted we needed to have fruit too. She cut it all up, and just as she wanted to come help me, I told her to sit down on one of the stools at the counter so I could continue making us breakfast alone.

“You sit and watch. Enjoy the view. I had intended for this weekend to be relaxing for you, so I don’t want you to help me here.”

She pursed her lips, looking amused. “Are you saying that you want me to sit and look good while you do everything I want for me?”

I nodded, looking at her over my shoulder with a grin. “Yes.”

“Fine. I can do that.”

***

After breakfast, I got up and held out my hand. “Come on, let’s go get cleaned up.”

She looked up at me with a raised brow, her eyes playful. “Together?”

“Yes, together.”

“But what about the dishes?”

“I’ll take care of that later.”

“Will I have to sit and watch again?”

I chuckled. “Yes. You don’t get to do anything other than relax and enjoy this weekend.”

She got up, standing right in front of me with her head tilted back, and a small grin on her lips. “We’ll see about that. I get bored easily when I don’t get to do anything.”

Fair enough.

I chuckled, and before starting to argue with her, I took her upstairs to my bathroom.

I stood by the shower and looked around, thinking about a nicer way to freshen up after the hot night we had. “How do you feel about taking a bath instead?” I asked, looking over at her.

“Sounds good to me.”

“Yeah? I don’t know many people who like to take baths. I usually don’t.”

“But with me you will?”

“Definitely.” I smirked at her. “I think I even bought bath foam a while ago, but I never used it.”

I headed over to the cabinet to look inside, and I found a bottle of bath foam that, in fact, I had yet to use. “Ah, here it is.”

“Awesome.” She smiled, and while I let the water run in the bathtub, we both undressed.

And as the tub was filling up, I helped her in before getting in behind her myself. The water was just the perfect temperature, and we both relaxed, letting the heat warm us.

We didn’t do much talking while our skin started to wrinkle, but the silence around us wasn’t awkward. We didn’t have to talk to feel comfortable around each other.