Page 24 of Falling Together

Chapter 24

Erin

When Erin woke up the next day, her mind was racing. After the conversation with Blair about Bianca, things had been weird the rest of the day. Not bad, per se, but definitely different in a way she couldn’t put her finger on. And she hated it. She was supposed to be taking care of Blair, not making her feel worse. Blair hadn’t gone home at the end of the night, so that had to be a good sign, right? In fact, she was still lying next to Erin right now, looking completely content while Erin contemplated all of her life choices.

She didn’t want to wake Blair, but she also knew Nolan would likely come barging into the room any minute, so a wake up by her would be much less abrupt. She wasn’t sure how to go about waking up Blair, but she felt like she had a lot of making up to do after yesterday, so she decided to give her a kiss on the forehead. After the first kiss, Blair didn’t even stir, so Erin gently kissed her once again. This kiss caused the cutest little smile to spread across her face, but she still didn’t open her eyes.

Time to pull out the big guns.

Erin leaned forward and brought her lips to Blair’s and kissed her softly.

Blair’s smile grew even bigger, and this time, she did start to blink open her eyes. “I could definitely get used to this alarm clock,” she said sleepily.

God, Erin loved Blair’s sleepy voice so much. She wanted to hear it every day for the rest of her life, which also made her want to jump out of bed and never hear it again.

Screw you, fucked up mental health.

“Oh yeah?” Erin tried her best to make her voice sound flirtatious. “What’s your favorite part of it?” she asked before placing another kiss on Blair’s lips.

Blair opened her eyes fully and stared at Erin as if she were the only person in the whole world. “Definitely the woman those lips are attached to.”

“So, you’re not mad at me anymore?” Erin figured she might as well put it out there now, so she knew just how much kissing up she needed to do today.

Blair sighed, but she never removed her gaze from Erin, those eyes full of just as much love

(Love? Really? Maybe infatuation?)

as before. “I was never mad at you. I told you that. I just hate when it feels like you’re not opening up to me. I want to see every part of you, Erin. Even the bad parts.”

“But what if the bad parts are too bad and they end up scaring you away?”

“I’m still here, aren’t I?”

Erin nodded. She very much was, and Erin was so thankful for that. “Yes. Speaking of which, how are you feeling?”

Blair took a deep breath through her nose, which surprisingly didn’t sound clogged, and blew it out through her mouth, which also surprisingly, did not end in a coughing fit. “I think I’m actually feeling a lot better.” She pointed toward her forehead. “Do I feel hot?”

Erin put her hand on Blair’s forehead, and even though that contact made her warm up, it had nothing to do with Blair’s temperature. “No. Not really.”

“Wow. I must’ve gotten some twenty-four-hour version of the bug. Lucky me.” Blair’s words didn’t match the way her smile dropped into a slight frown. “I think I should still stay home today, though. Just to be safe. I don’t want to infect any of my kids.”

“That’s a good idea.” An even better idea popped into Erin’s head at that very moment. It wasn’t like her, but Blair was more than worth it. “If you want me to, I can call off today too. Like, completely off. That way, we can hang out. Relax together a little.”

“You’d do that for me?”

Why was Blair so surprised by that? Did she not expect Erin to do nice things for her?

Maybe I need to try a little harder.

“Of course I will. I just need to get Nolan to school and then we can do whatever you want.”

“How would you feel about going to my parents’ house to swim? They have a heater, so we keep it open until mid-October. Plus, we don’t even really need the heater, since it’s still so unseasonably warm outside. I should probably show my face at home eventually, so they know you didn’t murder me or something. Not that they’ll be there most of the time. My brother is at school, so we’ll have the place to ourselves essentially.” She put up her hand as if she was stopping Erin from saying something. “Not that I’m expecting anything to happen. I’m just letting you know that you don’t have to spend the whole day surrounded by my family.”

A whole day with Blair’s family actually didn’t sound too bad to Erin. “I wouldn’t mind. I really like your family.”

“I tend to enjoy them too, but I’m selfish when it comes to you. I want you all to myself.” Blair wrapped her arms around Erin and pulled her tight up against her, and it made Erin want to forget everything and spend the day lost in that sexy body.

“That does sound pretty wonderful. You could head home now so you see your parents before they leave for work. Plus, if you’re not here, Nolan might give me fewer issues about going to school. I can meet you at your house after I drop him off and come back for my suit.”

And figure out how I’m going to make today a better day than yesterday.

***

After fighting with Nolan to get ready and go to daycare, then running a few errands and going back home to get her suit and anything else she needed for her day at Blair’s, Erin finally arrived in her neighborhood. It was still so strange to her that she had to put in a code to even enter. Blair lived a much different life than she ever had. Yet, she didn’t act like it at all. That was another thing Erin appreciated about her. She never saw Erin as less than her, even if Erin saw herself that way at times. After parking in the driveway, Erin walked around the side of the house and entered through the fence surrounding the pool, just like Blair had told her to.

As soon as she walked through the gate, she found Blair laying in the pool in a

very

skimpy bikini, looking much too sexy.

Shit.

Erin was going to have to jump into the pool just to cool herself off. When Blair noticed her, she got off of the raft she was lying on and walked out of the pool.

She’s a literal wet dream. What the hell?

Blair’s eyes ran up and down Erin’s body, but moved back to her hands after they had burned their path. “That’s a lot of bags. Are you moving in?”

Erin looked down at the bags in her hands. She had been so distracted by Blair, she almost forgot about everything she brought with her. “No. These are just a few things I picked up to try to make today special.”

Blair wiggled her eyebrows. “Special, huh?”

God, I wish. Must…. Keep… Self… Control.

“Not like that.” Erin held up the bags from the grocery store. “I bought the ingredients for my macaroni and cheese. I know we just had it a few days ago, but—”

“But mine wasn’t as good as yours,” Blair said before Erin could finish.

Erin shook her head. “I thought it was just as good, but since both you and Nolan seemed to disagree, I thought the original chef should make the recipe for you.”

“Well, you know I’ll never turn down your mac and cheese.” Blair studied the bags as if she was counting them or something. “Is that all that’s in there? It still seems like too many bags for the mac and cheese ingredients.”

Erin wasn’t sure if she should share what else she got since she was now somewhat regretting it. It seemed like a good idea at the time, but now felt kind of lame. “There is, but I don’t know. It’s pretty cheesy.”

“Cheesier than your mac and cheese?”

“I’d say yes. But definitely not as tasty.”

Not tasty at all. Just childish. What the hell was I thinking? Oh yeah. I wasn’t.

“Can you at least show me?” Blair came up to Erin and moved her eyes around as if she was trying to sneak a peek at what was hidden in the bags. “I’m super curious now.”

“Promise you won’t make fun of me?”

Blair smirked and rested her hands on Erin’s hips. “I promise I won’t make fun of you…

too

much.” She winked and it was so sexy that Erin didn’t even care that she was teasing her. Actually, she kind of really liked it.

“Fine.” Erin handed Blair the bag that held the gifts she picked up for her. “I sort of figured we might end up watching a movie today, and since I know you love giraffes—”

Blair laughed as she pulled out the stuffed giraffe and giraffe blanket that Erin had bought for her. “Seriously? This is fucking amazing. I love it so much. I want to hug you, but I’m really wet right now.” Blair’s smirk became almost devilish. “But then again, I guess it wouldn’t be the first time I got you wet, huh?”

Shit. Fuck.

Erin really needed to control herself while she tried to figure out exactly what she wanted with Blair (and what her heart could handle), but Blair was making it very hard. Standing in front of her soaking wet, looking like a sexy sculpture, while talking about how turned on she makes Erin was completely unfair.

And

it had Erin ridiculously turned on. How was she supposed to resist her? “You…” She cleared her throat because her mouth was dry and she couldn’t get the words out. “You can hug me. That’s okay. I don’t mind being wet.”

The way Blair’s smirk grew told Erin she had another witty comment to make. “Oh trust me, I know you don’t.”

Yep. Walked right into that one.

As Blair took Erin into her arms, Erin brought her lips to Blair’s ear and whispered, “You make it very hard to be good.”

Now it was Blair’s mouth that came close to Erin’s ear, her breath hitting Erin’s skin in a way that made it impossible to remember why she was fighting this so hard. “Then maybe you shouldn’t be.”

Fuuuuck.

Erin couldn’t take it anymore. She pulled away from Blair just enough to place a hard kiss on her lips. Blair immediately opened her mouth to Erin’s and their tongues met for the first time in what felt like way too many days.

After a few minutes of making out, Blair pulled away, both of their chests heaving up and down as they struggled to catch their breath. Blair licked her lips and again ran her eyes up and down Erin’s body. “Just fun until you tell me it’s something else.”

Part of Erin wanted to argue with Blair that they shouldn’t do anything else until she knew if she could give her heart away. Part of her wanted to tell Blair it wasn’t

just

fun anymore. It hadn’t been for a long time. It was so much more than that. Unfortunately, all rational thought was drowned out by her need to have Blair again. “Okay.”

Blair’s eyes lit up. “Really? You’re sure?”

With the way Blair was looking at her, Erin couldn’t even remember how to form words, so all she did was nod. That was clearly good enough for Blair, because her smile grew even bigger, and she lifted Erin in her arms the same way she had that day in the hotel room. Erin’s whole outfit was wet, but she didn’t care. There was another part of her that was also wet, and it was in desperate need of attention.

Thank god Blair’s family wasn’t home since Blair was carrying her through the whole house, the two of them stumbling around and sloppily making out like teenagers as they went. After they made it upstairs and down the hallway toward Blair’s bedroom, Blair held onto Erin with one arm as she reached around Erin with her other arm to open the door. Erin was pretty sure she kicked it open which was honestly hot as hell.

“Moon! Out!” Blair demanded.

Erin watched the dog slink across the room, moving like he thought he might be in trouble, and Blair must’ve noticed too because she sighed and sat Erin down on her bed, then walked over to Moon. She bent down and petted him behind his ear. “I’m sorry, buddy. You know I love you. I just have something very important to do right now that you can’t be part of. I promise to take you in the pool as soon as I’m done.”

Erin found it amazing that Blair could be so sexy and also so sweet, all at the same time. She really was the whole package. Why she saw something in Erin was beyond her.

Blair shut the door behind Moon, then spun on her heels to face Erin. She lifted an eyebrow as she strutted toward her, and that move alone was almost enough to make Erin come.

Almost.

Blair didn’t hesitate to straddle Erin right where she was sitting on the bed.

Fuck… Again.

“So, where were we?” Blair asked flirtatiously, gently rolling her hips against Erin and causing enough friction to make Erin moan.

Erin got enough control of herself to put a finger under Blair’s chin and pull her face closer to hers. “I believe we were right here,” she said softly, before taking Blair’s bottom lip between her teeth, then pushing her tongue into Blair’s mouth once again.

Now it was Blair who moaned, her hips grinding harder against Erin’s lap the longer they kissed. After another minute, Erin forced herself to pull back. “Don’t get me wrong, I’m

really

enjoying this, but I’d also like to come when I’m not wearing all of my clothes.”

“Say no more. I’d love to take care of

both

of those things for you.”

Erin was so happy she had chosen to wear a button-up over her bathing suit, because watching Blair slowly unbutton it one button at a time might have been the sexiest thing in the world. Once all of the buttons were popped open, Blair seductively pushed the shirt off of Erin’s shoulders, moving her hands down Erin’s arms as she did it. With her shirt now off, Blair’s hands moved to Erin’s stomach. Chills ran down Erin’s spine from the lightness of Blair’s touch.

“Fuck,” Blair said in a breathy whisper as she moved her fingers across Erin’s bikini top. “It should be illegal to be this hot. Truly.”

It still blew Erin’s mind that someone who looked like

Blair

found

her

good looking. “Look who’s talking.”

Erin grabbed Blair’s bikini top and brought it over her head. The sight of Blair’s naked chest had Erin’s heart pounding in her own chest. She brought her hands up to touch Blair, because she couldn’t resist.

Blair groaned as Erin kneaded her breasts with her hands. Erin replaced one of her hands with her mouth and sucked Blair’s nipple into her mouth. She moved that hand down Blair’s stomach and into her bikini bottoms. She lightly bit down on Blair’s nipple as she ran a finger through Blair’s very wet folds.

“Wait.” Much to Erin’s surprise, Blair reached down and grabbed her hand to stop her from what she was doing. “Can I fuck you?”

Erin laughed at the question, while at the same time practically choking on that laugh because of the effect Blair’s words had on her. “I kind of thought that’s the direction this was heading in already.”

“I meant, can I fuck you with a strap? Is that something you’re into?”

Erin didn’t know that was something she could be into until she heard the words leave Blair’s mouth, and nothing in the world sounded better. “I’ve actually never done that.”

“You’ve never been the one getting fucked by a strap or you’ve never done it at all?”

Erin’s face turned red with embarrassment. She couldn’t believe she was over thirty and had never done something so many people considered very vanilla. “Never at all. Bianca always said she wasn’t into it, so we just didn’t do it.”

“Is it something

you

want to do?”

“With you?” Erin pictured Blair getting on top of her and pushing inside of her, and it took everything inside of her not to moan just from the thought. “More than anything.”

Blair’s face lit up once again and she licked her lips as she stood from Erin’s lap. Erin watched her movements as Blair walked across the room, opened up her bottom drawer, and moved a bunch of underwear around before pulling out a purple dildo and a black harness.

Erin swallowed hard. After having a whole child come out of her, nothing should have any trouble going into her, but the object was still intimidating.

Of course, Blair chose that exact moment to look over at her and must have caught the look on Erin’s face because she walked over to her, knelt down in front of her, and put her hands on her knees. “We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to. I’m more than happy to use my hands or mouth.” Blair’s serious face turned into a smirk. “Or both.”

Erin shook her head. “I

want

to do it. I’m not going to lie. I’m a little nervous, but it’s not bad nerves. I’m also excited.”

“Good. Because I’m excited too.” Blair patted Erin’s knee, then stood up.

Erin couldn’t take her eyes off of her as she swiftly put the strap-on together and maneuvered it onto herself. She swallowed hard once again when she took in the sight in front of her—Blair, completely naked, aside from the object between her legs. It was almost too much for Erin to handle and she had to squeeze her own legs shut due to the pressure building

down there.

As if that weren’t enough to make her a complete goner, Blair then lifted an eyebrow and sashayed over to her. She bent down, bringing her mouth close to Erin’s ear. Instead of saying any words at first, she lightly bit Erin’s ear before licking it. Next, she blew on it, and goosebumps didn’t only pop up on Erin’s neck, but also on her arms and legs.

After all of that, when Erin could barely process what was happening anymore, Blair finally whispered in her ear. “Lay down, baby. It’s time to let me pleasure you.”

Erin followed her directions and scooted back on the bed, laying her head on the pillows and staring at the ceiling as Blair lowered her body on top of Erin’s. When the object attached to Blair rubbed against Erin’s leg, it caused a shiver to shoot down her spine.

Blair sat up slightly, stuck two fingers in her mouth, then brought them down to Erin’s center and ran them through her folds. “Just wanted to make sure you’re ready for me,” Blair said with a smirk.

She then removed her fingers from Erin and put them back into her mouth, moaning as she slowly pulled them back out. She winked.

That goddamn wink. Those fingers. Fuck.

“You taste just as good as I remember.” She continued to smirk at Erin, clearly completely aware of what she was doing to her. “And I’d say you’re definitely ready. But just in case…” She leaned over to the side, opened the drawer of her nightstand, and pulled out a bottle of lube. She leaned back and shook the bottle. “Do you want to do the honors or should I?”

Erin swallowed hard as she looked from the bottle in Blair’s hand to the object between her legs. Why did she want to do it so badly? It’s not like she would

actually

be touching Blair.

As if she could tell Erin was having an internal battle, Blair grabbed her hand and kissed her knuckles. “Some people like to do it as a kind of foreplay, but others don’t find that to be sexy, so either way is fine.”

“What… what do you prefer?”

“Honestly, I think it’s fucking hot when the other woman does it when I’m wearing this, but I’m just as happy doing it myself. My priority is making you feel good.”

“I want to do it.”

Blair tilted her head at Erin and licked her lips. “You're sure? I don’t want you to do it just because you think it’s what I want.”

“First of all…” Erin sat up slightly so she could run her hand down Blair’s stomach, stopping just before she reached the dildo. “

You’re

my priority. You deserve to be taken care of just as much as I do. Probably more, honestly. But also,” Erin took the girthy object in her hand and began to stroke it. “I actually

really

want to do this.”

Blair’s eyes went wide and now she was the one to swallow hard. Without saying a word, she passed the bottle of lube to Erin. Erin squirted some in her hand then started rubbing it over the length of the dildo. As she used one hand on the dildo, she brought the other hand up to Blair’s nipple and began to play with it.

“Fuck,” Blair moaned as she watched Erin.

When she closed her eyes and bit her lip, Erin sat up and brought Blair's other nipple into her mouth.

“Are you trying to kill me?” Blair asked with a strained laugh.

“I’m not sure,” Erin said as seductively as possible. “Is it working?”

“Fuck yeah.” Blair laughed once again. When she opened her eyes and stared directly into Erin’s, the laughter stopped and the air became thick between them. “I wanna be inside of you… now.”

Erin struggled to get her words to come out, but once she did, she was glad her voice didn’t crack. “Then do it.”

Blair slipped the dildo,

which Erin hadn’t realized she was still stroking

, out of her hand. She brought it to her opening and moved it around, most likely to pick up more moisture, but it also made Erin crave it even more.

She placed her hand on top of Blair’s to show her what she wanted. Correction—

Needed

. “Blair, please fuck me.”

Blair smirked once again. “Your wish is my command, my lady.”

Blair slowly pushed the dildo inside of her, the pain Erin felt at first ultimately becoming intense pleasure. She moved her hips up and the toy slipped even deeper inside of her. Erin wasn’t sure

why

she had never done this before because…

shit.

Once Erin was pretty sure Blair couldn’t get any deeper inside of her, Blair lifted her hips and pulled out of her slightly, before slowly pushing in once again. “How does that feel?” she asked hesitantly.

“So good,” Erin forced out just above a whisper. “So fucking good.”

“Are you ready for me to go harder?”

Ready? If Blair didn’t start pounding her, Erin might literally die. Erin grasped on to Blair’s arms and squeezed them hard, then looked into her eyes with all of the fervor currently pulsing through her body. “Blair, I need you to fuck me.

Now.

”

Her normal cocky grin was wiped from Blair’s face as she stared at Erin with wide eyes, then slowly nodded her head.

She pushed the dildo in harder this time, and Erin couldn’t stop herself from screaming out in pleasure. Each thrust that followed was harder and faster until both of their bodies were thrashing together, and Erin couldn’t even remember what day it was.

She felt her orgasm building, and with one especially good thrust from Blair, it shot through her. Erin had always thought “toe-curling” was just a figure of speech, but her toes literally curled as her whole body reacted to the sensations pulsing through her.

Blair rolled off of her as Erin struggled to catch her breath. When she was finally able to function, she looked over at Blair, who looked just as spent as Erin felt. “Did you finish?” She didn’t see how Blair could’ve possibly gotten the same enjoyment as she had out of that, and Erin didn’t want to leave her unsatisfied.

Blair laughed at her question. “Fuck yeah. I think I came before you even did. That was so fucking sexy.”

Blair reached over and took Erin’s hand in hers, and the sensation of their fingers intertwining had Erin feeling even more than the sex had. It was no longer the feeling of being completely satisfied or on the edge of a climax. This was different. Erin knew exactly what this feeling was even after not experiencing it for so long. This was the feeling of falling in love.

There was no denying it and no stopping it. Erin was falling head over heels for the woman lying beside her, and she’d never been more terrified of anything in her entire life. She needed to share all this with Blair, but was struggling to put her feelings into words. How did she explain that she wanted Blair more than anything in the world, but didn’t know if she could take the leap yet? How did she tell her that she had dreams of what their life together would be like but wasn’t ready to make those dreams a reality? Even as Erin said it in her head, it sounded completely crazy. But if anyone would understand, it was Blair. Not because she had experienced any of the same things Erin had, but because she was the most understanding person Erin knew. One more reason to take this leap (but also another factor that would make the potential fallout that much worse).

Erin took a deep breath and then blew it out. She just needed to say all of this out loud and get Blair’s input on it. “No matter how hard I try, I can’t stop myself from falling for you more and more.”

A wide, almost childlike smile spread across Blair’s face as she squeezed Erin’s hand and rolled onto her side to stare into her eyes. “Maybe you should stop trying. Maybe it’s time you finally let yourself fall.”

“I… I want to. I really do. I’m not trying to lead you on. I promise. My feelings are

very

real. I just—”

Before Erin could finish her sentence, her phone started to ring. As much as she didn’t want to, she stood from the bed to find it, because it could be about Nolan. “Sorry.”

“Don’t worry about it. I know you have to make sure Nolan is okay.”

Erin fished her phone out of her discarded shorts and found it was the number for the indoor playground facility where Nolan was having his birthday party. As much as she didn’t feel like talking to them right now, she also didn’t have a choice since the party was a week-and-a-half away.

“Hello?”

“Hi, is this Erin Corcoran?” the person on the other end of the phone asked, their voice sounding weirdly nervous.

“This is her.”

“Hi. Yes. I’m calling about your son, Nolan’s, birthday party. It appears we somehow double-booked that day.”

Erin scoffed. “You double-booked and didn’t realize it until a

week-and-a-half

before?” She didn’t like getting an attitude with people just trying to do their job, but she was so frustrated right now, she didn’t know how to hold it in.

“Yes. I’m very sorry. We have multiple party planners, and it seems they didn’t communicate. There are a few options.”

Erin couldn’t even focus on what the woman on the phone was saying, because she was so overwhelmed. “It’s okay,” she said, trying to make it sound like she actually meant it. “We will figure something else out. I just need my deposit back.”

“Absolutely. I will make sure that gets put back on your credit card as soon as possible. Thank you so much for understanding. I hope you consider us for a party in the future.”

“Of course.”

Fat chance.

Erin sighed as she hung up the call.

“Everything okay?” Blair asked from where she sat on the bed in all of her naked glory.

“Yeah, it’s fine.” Erin immediately shook her head, because she knew it was no use lying to Blair. She’d see right through her. “No. Not at all, actually. You know Nolan’s birthday party that was supposed to be happening in a week-and-a-half? Well, that’s ruined now. The venue was double-booked. I can’t do it at my house. There’s no way. I invited his whole class. Why the hell did I do that?”

Blair shrugged nonchalantly, as if this wasn’t a huge catastrophe. “We’ll do it here.”

“What?” Erin had to have heard that wrong.

“Seriously. It’s perfect. The pool will still be open. There’s a lot of space. Plus, Nolan loves it here. I’m sure he’ll be pumped.”

“Absolutely not. This is my responsibility. I’m not putting that on you and your family.” Blair got out of the bed, dildo still hanging between her legs, and walked over to Erin. She rubbed her hands up and down Erin’s arms, immediately making her feel more relaxed. “You don’t have to do everything on your own, you know. Let me do this for you.”

“Are you sure?” Erin really wasn’t used to someone taking care of her like this.

“Positive. We will have to put our talk on hold for a bit, though. We have a party to plan.”

We.

Erin was really starting to love the sound of that.