Page 39 of Breaking Sanity (Hell’s Asylum #1)

After what she just admitted, I will not be able to watch him snap if she fights.

Instead, she leans in and whispers in his ear so we cannot hear.

It pisses me off, because I need to fucking know.

When she leans back to look at his face, he pulls her onto his lap.

Her back faces us and blocks his view. Eagle goes to lunge, and I grab him before he can compromise this.

We just stand there and watch them make out.

His hand is wrapped in her hair, and he is using it to direct the kiss.

His other hand starts to lift a corner of her hoodie exposing her bare flesh and the scars he put on her body.

He starts to caress his fucking initials.

I have to turn away when she moans before I break his hand myself and drag her ass out of here.

Eagle isn’t watching them, but instead he is staring at me with his head tilted.

I glare back at him. Even though we can’t see each other, he and I have been friends since we were in diapers, so we know one another pretty well.

Wolf and Killer didn’t come along until we were kids.

We became an inseparable unit within days.

Our stare off is broken by a loud grunt and maniacal laughter.

Alley is on the ground laughing and Baron is wiping blood from his lip with a handkerchief.

He steps over her and goes back to his desk.

His green eyes are bright almost like they are on fire.

If they were a fireball cannon Alley would be ash right now.

“How much of that story was actually real?”

“All of it was Baron,” she answers, picking herself off the floor. She stares at him with a victorious smile on her face.

“Very well then; I will tell you this, both of those men probably didn’t put a contract on you.

That would require them to actually care and not just want what is between your legs.

How pathetic are you to not realize that they used your miserable state to take advantage of you?

I mean, how desperate are you to have that cunt touched? ”

This is the first time ever I have seen Baron lash out especially in anger. He is the most levelheaded and doesn’t even lash out at his brothers. I am not sure what it is about Alley that has his full attention, but she does.

“Not as desperate as you are to touch it,” she laughs.

He abandons his desk and practically pounces on her. He grabs her neck, but not in the sexual way. No, he looks like he is about to strangle her.

“You push too much, Alley,” He growls.

Baron starts to squeeze to the point that she starts to turn blue and her lips slightly part.

He eases up and bites her bottom lip until blood is trickling down her chin.

He unlatches from the swollen lip and uses his grip on her neck to shove her into the wall hard.

She lets out an audible oomf, causing him to release her, letting her crash to the floor.

“You will never have me Baron,” she chuckles, getting to her feet.

God dammit Alley. Stay down!

“Now our session is over,” Baron starts to storm back to his desk. “Take her back to my room and watch her. She’ll remain there for the rest of the day.”

“Back to isolation? Ha, you really are a one trick pony aren’t you,” she taunts.

It makes me want to gag her! She’s hurting and the more she is, the more she fucking lashes out.

I know last week broke something in her, to the point I think by next year she’ll push enough of their buttons that they’ll kill her or she’ll take her own life.

I have seen her try before, I wouldn’t put it past her to do it again.

“I will send food up in an hour for all of you.” Baron goes back to his computer ignoring her.

Eagle opens the door and points aggressively for Alley to leave. She bites her lip and gives Baron one last look before she lifts her head and exits. I go to follow and Baron stops me.

“Give us a minute,” Baron says to Eagle. “Wait in the hall with her.” Eagle nods and closes the door.

“What’s up,” I ask, taking off my mask.

“I need a favor.”

“Name it.”

“I know you and Eagle are supposed to go for your break but I would like you to stay at least.”

“Okay?”

“The Reaping is coming up and I don’t want her to interfere. If she gets in the way, Vaughn just might kill her. Also Carson will be out and about here soon. Best to keep those two separated from her. I don’t want to lose her.”

He isn’t looking at me, he’s staring at the door. I don’t think he meant to say that last part but he doesn’t take it back.

“I’ll stay, Doc. Whatever you need,” I respond and put my mask back on.

I need to mend whatever is breaking in her because I don’t want to lose her either.

Also, if something happens to her, Eagle will burn this place to the ground, zero fucks given.

He has only given his heart to one person and that is when we were teens.

Let’s just say, it didn’t end well. For him to ask Alley to be his too, is a big fucking deal.

“Thank you, Shadow.”

I exit and nod to Eagle to start heading up stairs.

Alley has her arms wrapped around herself and her shoulders start to shake a little.

She is silently crying and fuck if I don’t want to hold her.

Eagle walks ahead of us and she follows him on auto pilot.

No one speaks on the way to his room. There were some sniffling sounds and ragged breaths from Alley but nothing more.

I close his door and Eagle pulls his phone out to check the hidden cameras we have in the halls.

He nods at me giving the green light to talk.

“Alley,” I speak.

“Don’t Shadow. Just don’t.” She lifts her hand to tell me not to come closer.

Alley turns on her heel and goes into the bathroom locking the door behind her. Eagle stands by the door at attention. He is staring dead ahead and doesn’t acknowledge me. I guess they are both pissed at me.

Her muffled sobbing starts to filter through the door.

I can tell she is trying to stay quiet but she is failing.

I feel my own heart breaking for her. She thought we would send her here, and then to be ripped into by Baron hit another level of pain.

I am no stranger to breaking a girl emotionally but I never wanted to do that to her.

She was already so broken with everything going on.

Yes, she was vulnerable when I finally got the balls to make my move into her life, but that doesn’t mean I used it to get in her pants.

I gave her an option each time to decide if she wanted this.

I knew she probably wouldn’t say no, but I wanted her to know she had the power to stop it.

Every man in her life has tried to rob her of that.

I think that is why she fights so much. Plus decades of trauma that she keeps inside.

Baron was wrong when he said that we didn’t care about her.

The truth is that we care too much for her that it is actually starting to fuck up our mission.

I have barely reported to Wolf and I know Eagle is starting to detach every day.

Both of us want to help her and kill them for even touching her but there is a bigger picture that needs to be looked at for now.

She also isn’t desperate or pathetic. If anything that could be said about me.

I followed her for months and learned what I could about her.

I even would find ways to bring her up with Declan and Titus just to get more information about her, but nothing compared to actually being with her.

Then I dragged poor Eagle into it, because if anyone else got to touch her, it was him.

I just didn’t expect him to fall so quickly for her.

He is usually so allergic to commitment.

She respected my need to stay anonymous and never tried to take my mask off.

Hell, some of the nights we didn’t even have sex, she would make me dinner and we would talk or just watch stupid true crime documentaries.

She would babble during the whole thing and go through a million and one different theories on who did it, why they did it, what was going through their heads, and so on.

It was cute. I don’t think she even realized she was doing it either or even thought I was still in the room.

Sometimes she would mumble to herself having a conversation with the voices in her head.

After the night I stopped her from killing herself, she had a few minor episodes which led me to finally look into her mental background.

It was extensive and she had been trying to end her own life since the age of twelve.

There is a blood curdling scream followed by sobs and all I can do is stare at the fucking locked door.

I want to break it down and grab her. I want to tell her to hold it together and she’ll be okay but even I know that is not true.

Saving her or protecting her is not part of why we are here.

We need her alive for now because she makes them careless.

I noticed her link to them early on. First it started with the night at the diner, seeing Gunner plant a tracker on her car.

Then, I saw him follow her home after the club and then every night after that.

I found his cameras in her apartment and even followed him while he stalked her during the day.

I didn’t know what type of relationship they had until I heard Baron talk to him here and there about her.