Page 38 of Breaking Sanity (Hell’s Asylum #1)

Shadow

One Week Later

I was going to try and stay away after I was forced to watch Gunner and Baron make her cum. I had to keep myself planted in place. She did start enjoying it, but she did have a relationship with Gunner prior. So, I will give her that.

Unlike myself, Eagle nearly blew our cover on more than one occasion.

It took everything in Eagle not to throttle her when she spit on the floor.

He hates spit, but we both know we can’t argue with what she said.

We aren’t worse than them, but we aren’t better.

Then, she lost her fucking shit when Baron touched her wrist and Eagle almost jumped in to whisk her away.

I had to keep him at bay which worked out well since they were distracted by her.

I think what made him break was when she said she hated him.

He hasn’t talked much since then. I was the one who caught her in the woods and yes, she tried to stab me with a damn broken tree branch.

The look in her eyes of betrayal and pain stopped me from retaliating.

I let Reggie and Logan take her, while Eagle and I trailed them.

Now here we are in Baron’s office for her therapy session. Every day this week, she has come twice a day and they sit there in silence for the full hour. Most of the time she is sleeping and on rare occasions she is pacing and mumbling to herself. Baron just watches her but doesn’t push.

Right now, though, she is on the couch with her feet curled under, biting her thumb nail, and staring at the wall. Since we stand behind Baron, I try to get Eagle to look at me, but he is staring straight ahead. When she lets out a dramatic sigh both our heads snap to her and Baron looks up.

“Do you know every man in my life has fucked me over in one way or another,” she says, but I can’t tell if she is talking to herself or not. “I tried to hook up with girls instead but that didn’t work.” She huffs a laugh.

“But I fell in love with Theo and that only brought me misery. I thought I was bound to just be alone.”

“Who are you talking to,” Baron pries.

I mean if I am being honest, I am wondering the same thing. I don’t think any of us have heard her really speak at all this past week.

“Did you know I had a threesome before,” she turns her head at Baron.

“Sure, there was one with myself, my boyfriend and this girl, but I don’t consider that really one.

He got pissed after 30 minutes. So the girl, her name was Giavanna I believe, spent the next several hours together.

She taught me a lot. The next morning, I made her breakfast, we talked and she left.

My boyfriend at the time came back from his run and we got into a fight.

He said that I never moaned like that with him. You know what my dumbass response was?”

“What,” Baron asks. Which I am glad he did, because I was about to.

Yes, the month we were together she did tell me bits about her life. Especially about her ex-husband and his family, but nothing before that except for a little about her deadbeat father.

“If you actually knew what you were doing, that wouldn’t be a problem.” She starts to laugh. “He got so pissed, he beat the living shit out of me, but I got my licks in.”

Her laugh turns manic.

“But that isn’t the one you were referring to,” Baron states.

His shoulders are tense, and he gives us a side eye. Not sure what that is about though and you never know with Baron.

“No,” she sighs, pushing further into the couch. “I went to a sex club and met someone.”

Alley, what the fuck are you doing?

“Oh,” he sounds annoyed.

Finally, Eagle acknowledges me, and I know he is giving me a questioning look without seeing his face.

“Yeah. Fuck this guy was amazing,” she continues.

“The man knew his way around a woman’s body.

He knew exactly how to set my blood on fire, but he was a little dorky.

He always had to have music to really set the mood.

A perfect playlist for every occasion. But I’m not complaining. Just enhanced the experience.”

A tear slips from her eye, and I can feel my chest breaking open.

“I was only his for a month though, and he offered to make all my fantasies come to life, so I jumped at the opportunity. This is when the trial was coming to a head and I was preparing for his funeral. I just didn’t want to be me for a while.”

“And,” he prods.

“And he kept to that word at least. The only other person to indulge my sexual preferences was Gunner, and he always executed those perfectly. That’s beside the point though.

We were together every single night for a month.

Well, it was about a week or so in, and I just got done reading one of my spicy books- I asked him for a threesome.

I knew he was probably going to say no. Hell, I even told him I was going to go to the club and find two randos.

He threatened to have me blacklisted. Can you fucking believe that?

So, then I said I would look on Craigslist and he caved. ”

“Why did you want to do a threesome with him? Did you choose the other person? Male or female?”

“I trusted him, and he made me feel safe, which as you can imagine, doesn’t happen much.

I wanted a devil’s three way, and I knew if it was with him nothing bad would happen.

I let him decide. Well actually, he sent me a pin drop and told me to be there.

I didn’t even know if he was going to give in to that fantasy or punish me for even considering forcing him to share,” she giggles.

“Either way I would’ve been happy. He did bring a friend.

Let’s call his friend Devil and him Mystery. ”

“Continue,” Baron is writing on his notepad and the recording app on his phone is on.

She genuinely smiles to herself before she goes into the events of that night.

It didn’t go as I planned but it was one of the best nights of my life.

Actually, that whole month was the best time.

Being around Alley, regardless of what mood she was in made me feel alive and whole.

I’ve never wanted to truly care for a woman, but she demolished that.

That’s why when our last night came around, I made her promise me she’d be mine forever. She agreed.

Little Monster , why are you telling him this? Look at me!

“Anyways, it was exhilarating with both of them. Devil’s mischievous presence and playful personality made the experience even more enjoyable. That is not what got me about the devil mask guy though.”

She pauses and wipes away some stray tears before continuing.

“When he had me straddle him, I got so nervous and blurted out that I had never rode a cock before. He didn’t judge me or laugh, instead he comforted me.

But after we were all spent and cleaned up, Mystery had passed out.

Devil stayed up and danced with me. It went from rave music to country and everything in between.

When the song “Road to Nowhere” by Bullet For My Valentine played, that is when he kissed me so passionately while we slowed danced.

He asked if he could keep me too. I never answered him.

I just let my body do the talking and we had sex right there on the cold kitchen floor. ”

She ghosts her fingers over her lips, while my attention goes to him. Eagle never told me about that. I should’ve known because he wasn’t the same after that night. He started to protest going to this hell hole but in the end he came with me.

“As stupid as it sounds, I think I fell for Devil that night. I was already heels over head for Mystery anyway. I wanted to be both of theirs but that’s not realistic.” She wipes away the tears that have started to coat her cheeks. Out of my peripheral, Eagle finally hangs his head.

“Why are you telling me something so intimate, Alley?” Baron’s brows furrow. He doesn’t wear his mask around her anymore so reading him has been a little easier, but he can fake emotion so well too, so you honestly never know.

“Gunner told me that there were four contracts out on me. One is obviously Theo, but were two of the contracts from them?”

She makes it look as if she is staring at Baron but the slight twitch in her eyes says she is looking at us to gauge our reaction.

“Did you ever learn their names,” Baron counters instead of answering.

We both stare at her, our bodies turn to stone. I know she is hurting but would she really throw us under the bus? If she gave us away, they would for sure kill us, especially Gunner.

“No, I didn’t,” she says, shaking her head. We both relax.

“Well, if you don’t know their names I can neither confirm nor deny that the other contracts were from them.”

He is a fucking asshole for leaving that door open and making her think that is possible we would even consider sentencing her to this prison.

He knows damn well that it wasn’t us. Baron has met with all her payors.

They’ve known her way longer than we ever did.

One of them being her fucking father. Also, I am pretty sure the other was the piece of shit ex-boyfriend she mentioned.

I am just not sure who the girl was, but I will find out soon enough.

“Was that the only reason?” He tries to pry but I am not sure what he is getting at by it.

“No, Baron, it wasn’t the only reason,” she snaps. Eagle starts to clench his fists behind his back. Him and I are going to have to have a little talk after this.

“Then what are the others?” Baron gets up from his desk and sits next to her on the couch.

Baron drags one of her legs across his lap pulling it hard enough it causes her to slip down the couch onto her back. This is the most he has touched her in a week and every nerve in my body is pulsing with the need to kill him.

She sits up and puts one arm on his shoulder and her hand rests on the back of his head. She uses it to pull his face close to hers. Eagle and I exchange glances before watching the potential car accident.