Page 31 of Breaking Sanity (Hell’s Asylum #1)

I get that they couldn’t just let her leave but to slaughter her in such a way was uncalled for.

They could’ve just made it swift but no they had to make a fucking show of it.

Then to push it further the bastard blew me a kiss before he buried himself inside her.

My snapping point was him spitting on her body as if she was nothing.

She was someone with a beautiful soul and a fucked up home life.

She was sweet, caring, and friendly. She would tell me what her sessions were like with Baron and how he would use her trauma against her just to break her spirit until she gave into his every whim.

I am not sure if I will ever have a good dream again.

“How are you doing?” A familiar male’s voice softly echoes through my head.

My gaze goes from my hands to the mirror staring at the unmasked man. He is definitely not Shadow, as he has the white purge mask in his left hand.

This new guy has raven wavy hair that is perfectly tousled with one curl dangling right above his left eye.

If that isn’t distracting, the goddesses wanted us to drop all feminism at the door when they created those crystal clear baby blue irises entrapped in wide almond shaped eyes .

Then to tie this goddesses’ creation, he has a heart shaped baby face showcasing tan ivory skin with natural plush lips and a straight nose.

Above the dark five o’clock shadow, there is an adorable beauty mark above his lips but a little to the right.

I swear he could be related to Marilyn Monroe somewhere down the line.

“Do you even care or is this just a mind game thing? Act like you care to get my guard down so I cooperate,” I start to question.

“Play nice, Little Monster . He is genuinely asking,” Shadow comes in but is still wearing his mask.

“Fuck both of you cowards,” I say, drying my hands.

“Cowards,” Baby Face questions. His tone turned from caring to insulted.

“You know we can’t interfere, Little Monster .”

“Stop fucking calling me that,” I shout, spinning around. “And yes cowards! You just stood by as an innocent girl was raped and sodomized in one of the most horrifying ways possible!”

“Look, it goes against our orders. We have to do what we have to and there was no saving her,” Baby Face answers his alto voice going back to caring. He almost sounds remorseful.

“You could’ve tried,” I cry. “We all could’ve tried.”

My knees give out and I go to fall but Baby Face rushes to catch me before I can hit the ground. He embraces me. The soft smell of coconuts and oak invades my senses. As odd as a combination that is, it smells super good and is strangely comforting.

“Little Monster , you can’t blame yourself and break for them,” Shadow states.

I look at him and my heart starts to break more.

When he and I first met, he seemed so safe.

As everything progressed, I started to let myself fall for him.

He could make me laugh and we’d talked for hours.

After our sexcapades he would take care of me but either kept his mask on or blind folded me.

Afterwards, he always wrapped me in his arms and played with my hair until I passed out.

But now he seems cold hearted and distant, like a stranger.

“Like I said, stop calling me that. That nickname is only reserved for the man I started to fall in l-” I stop myself from finishing that sentence.

We were only together for a month but we spent every night together since that night at the club. On top of that, he was my rock when everything started to go south with the trial.

“Started to what,” He snaps, pushing himself off from leaning on the door frame.

“None of your business,” I snap back.

He and Baby Face, who grabs my arm to stop me from getting in Shadow’s face, are about the same height. I feel trapped between two walls. To make matters worse, it’s not that big of a bathroom.

Cheers to claustrophobia.

“Finish your fucking sentence.”

“Leave it alone man, this is not the time. We have other matters to deal with, than your lovers quarrel.”

“Later then,” Shadows grits.

“Never actually,” I smile.

I wiggle out of Baby Face’s grip and storm out of the bathroom. There is a door across the room, so I go up to it and open. It’s Baron’s closet.

“Whatever thoughts you have going through your mind, put them to a halt. You don’t want to antagonize them more, especially not Baron.” Baby face shuts the door before I can go in and rip his expensive suits to ribbons.

“Eagle, let her be. She wants to push her luck and end up in Baron’s playroom again then let her,” Shadow sighs and sits at the desk chair.

“Seriously man, we need her alive.” Baby Face gives Shadow an incredulous look.

“You need me alive? What the fuck is going on?”

“You never told her?”

“Drop it Eagle.”

“Damn you really are an asshole.”

“Enough fucking talking. Eagle put your mask back on. And you, Little Monster , sit your ass on that bed and get some rest,” Shadow orders.

I look at the lamp on the nightstand and impulsively chuck it at Shadow’s head. He dodges it and is in my face immediately. His hand wraps around my throat pushing me into the wall but I don’t try to fight him. Despite everything, I don’t think he’ll kill me. Well at least I hope not.

“Fuck you! You have no right to call me that. I am nothing to you.”

“Let’s get a few things straight,” He spits.

“One- You nearly killed Carson; they will not take that lightly. As of right now, Baron and Gunner have claimed you, and Nik on occasion. But you keep this up, Vaughn will surely try to stake his claim as well. If you think Vaughn repeatedly drowning you and Nikolas beating the shit out of you or Baron carving his god forsaken initials into your skin is their worst? I can tell you from my experience here, that is nothing compared to what they can do.”

He lets up on his hold as he continues, “Two, you have always been something to me, do not say that shit again. And three, I have the right to call you Little Monster , Alley. I don’t care what they say, you will always be mine.

I may not be killing them with my bare fucking hands for touching you, yet, but that doesn’t change the facts.

You fucking belong to me.” He releases me and backs away.

“I belong to no one, especially not you,” I say, rubbing my throat.

“She is going to be the death of you,” Baby Face, I mean Eagle, laughs going back to his post.

A terrible idea crosses my mind and I decide to act on it because I need the distraction.

“Scratch that, I pledge my loyalty to Baby Face over there,” I smile while eyeing Eagle.

“His name is Eagle not Baby Face,” Shadow grinds.

“I’ll just shorten it to Baby.” I blow a kiss to Eagle.

“You are going to get me killed, honey,” Eagle snickers, shaking his head.

“Her name is Alley to you,” Shadow snaps.

“Ignore him baby, you can call me whatever you want,” I wink. “That also includes calling me yours.”

“Alley, do not fucking push it.”

“Baby, I think Shadow is jealous. What do you think?”

“Jealousy is an understatement for what he is when it comes to you, Alley,” Eagle states with amusement in his voice. He is helping me rile up Shadow and I am all here for it.

“Enough, you,” Shadow points to Eagle. “Stay by that fucking door and text Wolf to let him know what’s going on. And you,” he’s pointing at me. “Get your ass on the bed and get some rest.”

“Make me dickhead,” I challenge.

“Oh shit,” Eagle whistles looking at his phone.

“You have till I get to one to get on that bed,” Shadow snaps.

“Five...”

“Four...” I say, keeping in place crossing my arms and popping my hip.

“Three...” He starts to stalk towards me.

“Two...” I giggle, getting in his face.

“One.”

Shadow grabs my waist and tosses me onto the bed. Shadow hops on as well pulling a chain with a padded cuff attached to one of the posts and grabs my ankle as I try to kick his face. He clasps it tight but not enough to cut off my circulation, then hovers above me.

“Asshole,” I mumble.

“You were given a fair warning. Now sleep,” he scowls.

“Good night, Baby.” I turn my head towards Eagle and his head lifts from his phone staring back. “Trust I’ll be having the naughtiest dreams about you.”

“Sleep Alley.” Eagle blows me a kiss.

There is a deep rumble coming from Shadow’s chest. I triumphantly smile to myself.

“Is there a problem?” I ask, cocking my eyebrow as I stare up at Shadow.

“Sleep,” he sounds like he is about to explode. “And I am the only one you will be dreaming of.”

“Hmm,” I tap my chin. “No, I am pretty sure it will be Baby Face over there or even… Gunner. No wait, Baron.” That strikes a nerve because he hops off the bed and stomps off to the bathroom.

“Hey Alley,” Eagle gets my attention while pocketing his phone.

“As much fun as it is pushing his buttons with you, I advise you to keep their names off your sweet lips. He is already about to strangle Baron for carving into your skin and Gunner for slashing you up. Let’s not push him over the edge, yeah? ”

“Are you advising that because of your boss,” I ask, scooting to the headboard.

“My boss?”

“Vaughn, you don’t want him to kill your fellow soldier because he tries to kill his satanic brothers?”

“Vaughn isn’t my boss. Quite frankly, I would love to put a bullet between his eyes but that doesn’t help our mission.”

“What mission? Who are you guys? Aren’t you with The Fallen?”

“No, we are not with them but that is a conversation for a later date. For now, get some rest and pick your battles especially with Gunner and mainly Baron. You belong to both of them, and they thrive on mind games. They will try to get in your head while they get in between your legs. They want to destroy you from the inside out. Plus, Gunner’s self-control only goes so far. He could snap if you aren’t careful.”

“What about Vaughn and Nik?”