Page 19 of Wonderland Asylum (Wonderland Killers #1)

EIGHTEEN

Kai, Please!

I thought that after our night together, my life would change for the better. That was a lie, because now I’m more miserable than ever.

-Presley Kate

I'm not exactly sure what I thought would happen after my night with Kai and Gunner, but I didn't think it would be my current situation. This week has been torture to say the least. I’m angry at myself for hoping for anything different.

Gunner has gone back to being Gunner. Present, yet elusive. The only notable change is the intensity of his stares. They’ve always been swoon worthy but now they are hotter than a South Georgia sunset.

They want me, I know they do, but they haven’t tried to touch me since. I haven’t had an orgasm yet either, it’s like I’ m

punishing myself because I’m miserable.

We’ve gone back to our weekly routine of classes, study sessions and easy lunches at Wonderland.

What I can’t figure out is why we’ve stopped eating in Gunner’s apartment.

He said that they were remodeling it, but they already did that last year.

Now we eat in the tea room when no one is in a therapy session.

I’ve been watching them closely, and they’ve disappeared down the hall that holds cell block unit 666, when they are supposed to be doing rounds more than once.

They’re hiding something from me, and I intend to find out what it is.

My gut tells me it’s bad, and one day I’ll gather enough courage to follow them.

The last thread of my hope was severed when I saw Kai and his ex-booty call, Amber in the science building yesterday. She had her hand on his chest, and while he wasn’t flirting with her, he didn’t move her hand either. I'm done with being the pawn in this game of chess I’ve found myself playing.

Gone is the timid fly caught in their web. No, this weekend, I plan on becoming the spider. Fuck them and their mixed messages.

It's not like I could ever be in a real relationship with them anyway, and it’s time that instead of just reminding myself of that fact, I start actually believing it.

I don’t regret our night together, but it can’t happen again. The lines are too blurred as it is, and my heart can’t take another rejection.

My purse vibrates from an incoming text message. I almost don’t check it in fear that it’s from my stepbrothers.

Leo:Hey gorgeous. Have you secured an invite yet for Friday?

Leo, has an apparent death wish, and has asked me out on a date to the most exclusive event of the year. All that's left for me to do is acquire an invite, which is why I hope Kai is in an extremely good mood today.

Leo’s a pledge at the fraternity hosting the party so he doesn’t get a plus one, but my lovely stepbrother will. While he's not in that particular frat, he's a rugby star, which automatically gives him anything he wants.

Once Kai starts drinking, he'll leave me alone with my friends, because he thinks no one is going to double cross him by flirting with me. That was pre-Leo.

Thankfully, Leo doesn't care about what Kai wants. He wants me and that's all that matters. I've got the perfect outfit already hanging in my closet. It shows more skin than I usually show, but I think my date will appreciate it.

Walking up to Kai's truck in the parking lot, I smile at Amber when he dismisses her because I'm there. That's right, bitch.

I may not have him, but she never will either. If he knew half the cruel things she's said to me these past two years he'd never talk to her again.

I'm only a snitch when it’s convenient for me, so I've kept my mouth shut, but every time he chooses me over her it's all the vindication I need.

Running a red nailed finger up his arm, she whines in his ear. "Why do I have to leave every time she comes around? It's not like you're fucking her."

My smile turns feral when he moves his arm in disgust. "I'm not fucking you either, and I’ve told you a million times to go somewhere else, it’s not happening.”

Her blonde ponytail swings from side to side in anger as she hangs her head in defeat. "Asshole!" She screams back.

I laugh when she walks away. "She's not wrong."

He rolls his eyes. "True. What's up? "

"I need a favor."

He raises an eyebrow. "You never ask for favors. I'm intrigued."

I smile nervously. "Please, take me with you to the Pi Kappa Alpha’s party Friday night. All my friends will be attending, and you've scared all the boys away, so no one is going to ask me. I need a way in, and you're that way in."

"No." He doesn't even think about his answer which pisses me off.

"Why, Kai?"

"Because, some fucked up shit is going down in Pixie Hollow, and I’m sorry but I can't tell you about it. It's just not safe right now."

He's not wrong, they still don’t know that I saw Sierra Rose and the other girls missing their hearts. He must be talking about that. I know from Wonderland gossip that they still don’t have a person of interest.

Placing my hands on my hips, I prepare for war."That's bullshit, Kai. Just say, I can't be a good guard dog if I’m fucking Amber."

"It's not, ask Gunner, he'll be pissed that I told you, but you're our first priority so I'm not going to lie to you. I'm not fucking her any more either, Pres. I shouldn't have done it to begin with." He admits.

No he shouldn't have. "Then take me, I'll be safer with you than with anyone else. If you're at the party, who's to stop me from wandering away again."

A look so lethal passes over his face, it should scare me, but it doesn't. I've got him cornered, and he knows it. "Please, Kai."

"Okay, fuck, as long as you come to my game beforehand." He grumbles.

Flinging myself in his arms, I smile up into his baby blues. "Thank you, and when have I ever missed a home game?"

Kissing my forehead, he smiles making me swoon. "You never do."

"And I never will, Kai Donovan." I admit, all because I'm a lovesick idiot.