Page 27 of Only Fans

@ M rs. Tanya Nelson

“Nelson Family!”

A deep baritone voice boomed right as Tatiana’s friend Trista walked into the emergency room waiting area.

Turning in the direction of the voice that called out our last name, I saw that it was a male doctor.

Tatiana exchanged a quick hello to her friend who also greeted me as the three of us immediately rushed up to the doctor that was waiting to give me an update on my husband Terrance.

“Is my husband okay?” I asked, my tone full of anxiety and panic.

“Hello, Mrs. Nelson, I’m Dr. Downs, one of the trauma surgeons that will be assisting in the care of Dr. Nelson who is being prepped for surgery as we speak. Follow me so that I can take you to a more private waiting area.”

We followed Dr. Downs out of the emergency room waiting areas, down a hallway then around the corner to a small waiting room that was closer to the ambulatory surgery department.

I figured he took us to this area not only for us to be able to talk in private but also because my husband was having surgery.

Making it to the ambulatory surgery waiting area, we then went into a small room.

My heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to pound and jump from my chest. The only thing keeping me from completely breaking down was the small glimmer of hope that Terrance had a chance to pull through whatever was going on with him.

From the way he was looking at the house, I thought he was going to pass away on the ride to the hospital.

Plus, Dr. Downs assured me that my husband was in good hands.

He kept reassuring me and Tatiana both who was putting on a full show of dramatics in front of Trista which was another reason why I had to keep my emotions in check.

Terrance was the head of the surgery department at the hospital and with me being the prosecutor for the county, the last thing we needed was to be acting crazy having folks all up in our business.

I didn’t have to worry about the level of care he was receiving, I knew he was in the best of hands.

What I was most afraid of was losing him especially being that the last words we spoke to each other were mean and cruel.

Once inside the small waiting area, Dr. Downs proceeded to tell us what he could on the status of my husband.

“Being in here beats sitting in the emergency waiting area, and I wanted to respect your family’s privacy by giving you your own private waiting room. I hope I didn’t alarm you.”

“Is my daddy going to be okay?” Tatiana asked as I tried to remain calm yet wished she would be quiet. “Is he going to live?”

“Tati, really!” I fussed, my way of hushing her up. “What can you tell me about my husband’s condition?” I asked as calmly as I could to Dr. Downs.

“Honestly, not very much. But what I can tell you is Dr. Nelson suffered a massive heart attack and stroke,” he began, causing me, Tatiana, and her friend Trista to gasp loudly.

“Oh, dear Lord!” I gasped.

“Oh, Daddy!” Tatiana broke down as Trista consoled her.

“Both are very serious and potentially life-threatening conditions,” Dr, Downs continued, “just know, Dr. Nelson is in very good hands. Dr. Maxwell who works very closely with your husband and our head cardiologist is performing his surgery, and I’ll be assisting.

From the tests that were ran, it appears he has a blockage in the large coronary artery.

Our priority is to repair the blockage then we can do a reassessment of his status then update you.

I know it’s not much, but I knew you were concerned and anxiously waiting to hear something.

I need to head back so that we can get started.

Time is of the essence at this point. As soon as there is something to report, you’ll get an update. ”

“Thanks so much!” I cried as I thought about the condition of Terrance’s health.

Once Dr. Downs left the room, I turned to Tatiana who was crying and shaking uncontrollably while Trista did her best to calm her down.

The more she tried to calm her down the more of a show Tatiana put on her.

It was slowly taking me mentally over the edge.

I had truly had enough of her antics. I was not good at dealing with her emotional outbursts.

I get that she was upset about her dad, hell I was upset also.

I just didn’t see the need or point in all of the dramatics she was doing.

I was typically not a very emotional person.

I didn’t cry much, and when I did it was never good.

Being a lawyer, I used my words to express my emotion versus crying and whining.

“Can you please calm all that down a bit? I been stressin’ to you for the longest that stress kills, and now here we are! You better hope nothing happens to your father on the account of you and all your mess.”

“You’re no walk in the park either! I’m sure you’ve stressed him a time or two…or God only knows how many times because you can be a handful also!” Tatiana shot back, and before I knew it, I hauled back and slapped her across the mouth.

“Oh my God! Nooooo!” Trista shouted as she jumped between me and my daughter.

“Who do you think you talkin’ to?” I snapped, ready to tag Tatiana again, but Trista’s hand was in the way.

“You guys, please don’t do this here,” Trista pleaded as Tatiana and I stared each other down. “Let’s go for a walk so things can cool down.”

“She always thinks she can say whatever she wants to me and I’m not supposed to say shit back to her! She stay tryna put hands on somebody, but if I hit her back then what?” Tatiana cried.

“I wish you would! Try me!” I dared.

Trista forced Tatiana out of the room leaving me to myself and my thoughts.

I had to pace back and forth a few times to calm my nerves before sitting in one of the chairs in the corner of the room.

The chair was near a large window, turning around to face the window, I stared down at the small garden area.

It was quiet and very serene with beautiful flower beds scattered throughout.

Leaning my head against the window, I broke down crying.

I hated to cry, but I had reached my boiling point.

Terrance having a heart blockage rocked my core.

I had no clue his health was this jacked up.

The thought of him possibly no longer being here was making me feel sick to my stomach amongst everything else that was going on.

Taking a deep breath then closing my eyes, I remembered the day I found out I was pregnant with Tatiana.

When I told Terrance the news his face lit up with so much love and admiration that it left me in a state of bliss.

No one could have told me that I wasn’t the luckiest girl in the world during my pregnancy.

I didn’t have to want for anything, and he even took off extra time from work to be at all of my doctor appointments.

He showered me with love every chance he got.

In total, he and I had been married for twenty-one long years, and although we both had a lot of love for each other, we had grown out of love just the same.

In the beginning, with him being a very busy surgeon, and me being a very busy prosecutor, we both had busy lives, yet our careers somehow seemed to work well for each other.

We both were guilty of spending more time working than being home so neither one of us felt lonely in our marriage.

We also made it a point to do our best to schedule our down time around each other’s schedule but over time, and after Tatiana was born all of that changed.

Terrance made head of his department, and we began to spend more and more time apart leaving the bulk of running the home and raising Tatiana on me.

It also left me no choice but to be Tati’s disciplinary which always made me out to be the bad parent and Terrance the good one.

He was never home or around long enough to tend to the day-to-day nuisances Tatiana would get wrapped into.

He had no idea how serious of a task it was because he was only around to play the good parent role.

He’d wipe her tears and kiss her boo boo’s then all would be better.

He was her hero, and I was her enemy. It made me feel a certain type of way because I felt like a third wheel.

He and Tati never had any issues with each other, but when it came to me, I just couldn’t seem to get it right.

As the years progressed, things didn’t get any better causing a big disconnect between me and Terrance.

It was like we grew apart but had become comfortable with going through the motions of being together.

It felt like we were ships passing in the night, but we still held strong and kept our family unit together.

We didn’t show any signs of unhappiness or disdain between us to others because it was important to us both to be looked at as having it all together.

We prided ourselves on the fact that we were both successful and highly educated people, who worked hard enough to afford a nice lifestyle that most people dreamed of having.

It was also important to us, for us to stay together so that Tatiana would have a solid foundation and become just as successful as me and Terrance since she was our legacy.

From the moment Terrance held Tati, for the first time, I could see they were soulmates, and, in a way, it made me jealous.

I felt like the bond that he and I once shared was now different because of her, and the bond that she and I should’ve had as mother and daughter was nonexistent.

Tati had Terrance wrapped around her little finger, and it would always be that way.

The little bit of time he took away from his job went to her, leaving me with nothing and having to entertain myself.

Which was exactly what I wound up doing.