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kennedy

I trudge into the warm, festive living room, the smell of pine and cinnamon greeting me, almost like nothing’s changed. I grew up in a house where my parents took the holidays very seriously, wanting to make it magical for me, their golden child. My parents were always the older couple at back-to-school nights, a result of my mother having three miscarriages and a battle with infertility before giving birth to me.

It hadn’t even been six weeks after high school graduation when they both sat me down to a dinner of my mom’s homemade soup dumplings to have a “talk”. I immediately started crying, believing they were about to tell me that one of them had cancer. Their mortality had always been a worry of mine since I was a little girl.

It wasn’t cancer.

It was worse.

It was divorce.

After that every thing happened so quickly. My dad bought out my mom for her half of the house, and she moved to a condo forty minutes away. It’s weird coming home now. Nothing is the way it was. Nothing makes sense. Especially when I walk inside and see a stranger taking up space where my mother used to stand.

“There’s my baby girl,” my father spreads his arms, waiting for me to run into his embrace like I did when I was a little girl. But I won’t, because standing next to him is Shane’s mother, her boney hand entwined with his.

“Hi, Kennedy, it’s great to see you,” she says in an annoying wispy voice that is the complete opposite of my mother’s strong one.

In fact, Shane’s mom is the complete opposite of mine in every way and I wonder what the hell my father sees in her. My mother has a slight figure, creamy tan complexion, and beautiful onyx colored hair compliments of her Japanese heritage. She is gorgeous and I count myself blessed that I share half of her genetic code.

Shane’s mother is just okay looking. She’s a pear-shaped, pale redhead, the same height as my father at five foot nine. She’s polite and soft-spoken and gets on every last one of my nerves simply because she exists.

But here’s the kicker…

The two of them met at accepted students’ day at VCU and simply because of our ill-fated connection, I haven’t been able to shake her cocky son Shane ever since.

“Hi,” is my simply return greeting.

My dad beams at me, unaware of the storm brewing inside my chest since Shane already told me what I’m walking into.

“Are you hungry, Kee-Kee?” he asks, using my childhood nickname that Shane has now weaponized against me.

“I ate on the plane,” I tell him.

“You want to go put your bags upstairs, then come back down?”

“Down for what?”

His expression flattens. “To spend some time with me. I haven’t seen you in months.”

“Uh, sure.”

“Shane is coming by too,” Shane’s mother says, as if I don’t already know that. “He just wanted to drop his things at our house first.”

“We were on the same flight,” I deadpan.

“Right, of course.” Her cheeks redden.

When Shane told me at the kickback that our parents were planning on celebrating Christmas together at my house, I knew that meant things had suddenly turned serious. When a couple decides to spend the holiday together, that is pretty significant.

I’m not exactly sure how much time flies by as I sit in my room staring at a pair of old, white ice skates which hang on a hat rack stand in the corner of my room. I used to love ice skating as a kid and would skate regularly at my neighborhood rink until the city shut it down due to budget cuts. I would fantasize that one day I’d be the first biracial girl to skate professionally in the US and in the olympics for Japan, but of course that was just a pipe dream. For one, I’m not a dual citizen of both countries and second, truth-be-told, I was never that great of a skater.

“Hey.”

I didn’t even hear Shane come in the house, much less upstairs, but he’s standing in my doorway looking like he actually feels sorry for me.

“Don’t give me that pity stare.”

“One thing I’d never feel is pity for you,” he replies, and the cool gaze in his eyes confirms that. Okay, he’s still the same ass I’ve grown to detest.

“Good, then why are you standing in my doorway?”

“I’m here to escort you downstairs. Dinner’s ready.”

“I already told them I wasn’t hungry. I ate on the plane and now that I think about it, so did you.”

“I’m a growing boy. I need more than one meal and you could stand to eat something else, too.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” I cock my head to the side. “Are you calling me skinny?”

In a world full of Instagram bodies with tiny waists and huge asses, my slender, teacup-boobed body doesn’t fit in with today’s standards of “hot”.

It used to bother me a lot when I was just starting high school but with maturity I learned to accept the fact that no matter what I eat, I’m just not going to gain as much weight as another person who eats the same thing and that’s okay. I’m beautiful, just as I am. But something about Shane’s comment, or maybe the fact that he’s the one saying it, irks me tremendously.

“I’m just saying that snack on the plane they served was only about three hundred calories. What else have you eaten today?”

“What are you, my personal trainer?”

“Just come,” he commands, finally annoyed with my resistance.

Shane is typically an easy-going, even-tempered guy, but I love it when I can get to him. His nice guy routine doesn’t fool me. I know him in a way others don’t. Behind the wholesome guy next door act is a cocky, arrogant jerk who takes great delight in pissing me off.

“Why should I?”

“Just because you want to continue living in some sort of immature delusion that your parents are going to get back together doesn’t mean I’m going to allow you to disrespect my mother. She cooked a meal for us and you’re going to eat it.”

I stand and get right up in his face.

Who the hell does he think he’s talking to?

“And who’s going to make me?”

He steps even closer, his large body almost engulfing my small one. He smells like a mixture of spring fresh body wash and mint, and I wonder if he found the time to shower when he dropped his bags off at his house.

I still smell like airport.

“Kee-Kee, I will take every single green been that my mom prepared with her sweet bare hands and shove them down your throat one by one if I have to, but you will eat.”

“Is that a threat?”

“I don’t threaten women.”

“It sounded like a threat.”

“It’s simply a promise you know I’ll make good on.”

Our sudden stare off is silent and feels deadly.

Like, I could literally kill this kid.

He’s clearly getting some sick enjoyment out of this whole cluster fuck going on between our parents, and it baffles me why. He doesn’t even know my father. Why would he blindly trust that my dad will be good to his mother? Hell, he basically blindsided my own mom with the divorce. Doesn’t he get that the same thing will happen to his mother? That she’ll get hurt?

“I so wish your teammates could see this side of you,” I practically hiss. “Do they even know how cruel you are behind closed doors?”

“Oh, they know, Kee-Kee,” he responds, while a wicked grin spreads across his face.

“Whatever,” I mutter and I forcibly push him out of my way and head to whatever fresh hell I’m in store for downstairs.