Page 28 of Darkest Sin

I shiver. My face is on fire and nothing feels like it will burn it out.

Robert grabs Cecillia’s hips and thrusts himself forward. They both moan as he enters her.

I gasp and look away again. It just feels so wrong to be watching but once more, Mikhail gently turns my face back to look.

“You’re shy, baby,” he comments, running his hands over my thighs. I lean even further back into him.

“I’ve never seen this before.”

“Have you watched porn?”

“No. It always seemed tacky and wrong.”

“Sex isn’t wrong.” He grips my thighs tighter, sending a heat wave through me. I have the urge to open my legs but I keep them clamped shut. The flutter growing in my stomach is moving down to the space between my legs. For some reason, I don’t want Mikhail to know.

“I know. I’m sure it can be beautiful. But watching other people… it’s always felt wrong. But…” I bite my lip.

I can feel Mikhail watching me so I catch his eye. “What, baby?”

“I have read it. Sex scenes in books.”

His smirk only makes me blush harder. “And?”

“And… I did like it.”

“What did you like about it?”

I can hear Cecillia and Robert moaning as their bodies move together. The sound of their flesh touching is loud in the quiet room. But I don’t notice any of that as I keep my eyes trained with Mikhail’s.

“I liked how powerful the men were. How they made the women feel good. They just knew what to do. The women didn’t have to say anything.”

“You like a dominant man then?”

I look away, unable to take his intense gaze a moment longer. My eyes land back on the couple. The pleasure on their faces is obvious. They’re enjoying this. They like being watched.

I look to the ground. “I’m not sure,” I tell him. “I just know I liked what I read.”

“And for dance? Did you like being touched there?”

“It was never sexual. Like I said, Jake, my partner, is gay. We’ve been dancing together for years. It never felt inappropriate.”

“I like that I don’t have to kill Jake for touching you.”

I shiver. “Would you? Kill someone for touching me?”

“If he meant to take you for himself, then yes. But since Jake has no interest in you, then I won’t hurt him.”

“I don’t want you to hurt anyone for me.”

“Except Antoni.”

Right. I did ask Mikahil to kill a man for me. I can never forget that.

His hands squeeze my thighs, making me sharply inhale. “Are you afraid of touch? Sexual touch? I saw you as the black swan. I saw the way you oozed sexuality on stage. You have it in you, Natalya.”

“It was just a performance. I was acting. I’m not like the black swan. I’m much more like the white swan.”

“And I like that you’re innocent. I want to take it from you. I want to be the only man to ever touch you again.”