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I hear Lexi start to cry and sigh. It’s going to be a long night.

7

Spencer

Thanks to exhaustion, it’s easy to waste my days off by sleeping through them. Every time I convince myself I’m going to use my four-day stretch wisely, but it never happens.

Saturday is no exception.

I roll out of bed mid-morning, grab some cereal, and sit on the sofa, watching mindless TV. Exhaustion clings to my bones, weighing me down. I’ve got to get out of my flat, get some sunshine on my skin, and some fresh air in my lungs. But sitting here and doing not much is appealing. My phone buzzes.

Em:Are you up yet?

Spence:Yes, why?

Em:Have you opened the curtains yet?

She knows me so well. She’s also never stopped wanting to take care of me, even though we haven’t lived together in years.

Spence:Not yet.

Em:Spence.

Spence:I will.

I close out of our conversation, my gaze snagging on Corey’s name. I press it and read over our very brief conversation again.

I shouldn’t have given him my number at all. It was completely unprofessional, and yet from the moment I set eyes on him in the hospital, I knew he needed someone to give him a hug. It’s not as if we didn’t know each other before then. Okay, so we don’tknoweach other, but I have been buried balls deep inside him, which is the next best thing, right?

I was surprised he texted me and even more surprised that he asked me to fuck him. Not that it went anywhere. Our conversation feels unfinished, my question remaining unanswered.

Spence:You never have to apologise for asking me to fuck you.

Worst case, he blocks my number.

Corey:You must think I’m a weirdo.

He didn’t block my number. I’ll chalk that one up as a win.

Spence:I don’t. But even if I did, I’d keep it to myself while I fuck you.

Corey:Are you horny or something?

Spence:Aren’t you?

Corey:Honestly? I’ve only just woken up. My brother took Lexi to the cinema this morning, so I could have a lie-in.

Spence:I’ve only just woken up too. It’s my first of four days off, and I’m making the most of it by lazing around. How’s Lexi?

Corey:She’s okay. She’s finding the cast a little strange.

Spence:She’ll get used to it.

Corey:In time to have it taken off?

Spence:Basically, yes.

I have no idea what my agenda is with this conversation. Yes, I’d like to wrap him in my arms, hold him, and take care of him, but I’m also enjoying this brief chat, just like I enjoyed talking to him on Friday night before we ended up having sex. More sex would also be a nice outcome. It’s been over a week, and I definitely have an itch that needs scratching. I have a couple of hook-up apps which I’m not afraid to use in order to score a hook-up for tonight. But truthfully, I’d rather hold someone who needs it than screw someone just for release.