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I get up out of bed, grab some shorts, and head up to the rooftop terrace and suck in the night air, trying to still my panicked heart. Fuck.You knew this was going to happen.How could I not fall for her? I think she’s perfect.She may be, but Harper keeps reminding you it’s just for the summer.You don’t think she will change her mind?She could. September still seems far away.I’m just going to have to spend my timeshowing her I’m exactly what she needs.But are you?You don’t think I’m good enough for her.You’re a hockey player. You are on the road a lot. You are surrounded by temptation.I never cheated when I was with Cynthia and my feelings for her were not as strong as they are for Harper.You’re young.I’m twenty-seven, that’s not that young.Harper told you she wants to start a family soon.I want kids.But now?I don’t know.You’re going to have to know if you want something more from her.She’s not going to have a kid next week.She might. Don’t forget she was looking into sperm banks and things.Shit.Things are great right now. You’re in France. Soon to jet off to Italy. You’re in holiday mode.We’ve been living together.You are still on summer break.Maybe you’re right.I am.But I like her. A lot.And you can like her a lot but know that there is an expiration date on your relationship. Enjoy it for what it is.It’s going to suck when it ends.It is.But what happens if I can make her fall in love with me?Have you not listened to anything we’ve talked about?Yes, of course.But you’re going to ignore my good advice and do whatever the hell you want.Pretty much.She’s going to break your heart.Probably. I’m also willing to chance it that she might not.Paris has gone to your brain.
“Everything okay?” Harper’s voice startles me from my inner thoughts.
“Yeah.”
Those blue eyes narrow on me. “You’re standing on the rooftop in the middle of the night by yourself, that doesn’t scream fine.”
“Couldn’t sleep, my mind was being noisy,” I tell her.
“Can I help with it? I’m a great listener and advice giver,” she asks.
“Don’t think you can help with this.”
“Oh, it’s a hockey thing. You’re worried about starting at a new team,” she asks.
I smile. “Yeah, something like that.”
Harper’s face lights up, thinking she’s worked out my dilemma. “I may not know anything about hockey, but I’m a great sounding board,” she says, walking toward and wrapping her arms around my neck. I wrap my arms around her and pull her tightly to me as we stand under the moonlight on top of a roof in Paris, with a girl that’s stolen my heart, who has no idea that she has. “Oh, looks like someone needed a hug.” She giggles as I tighten myself around her.
“Guess I did. You make me happy, Harper,” I confess to her.
She looks up at me with those wide blue eyes. “You make me happy, too.” That surprises me that she said that.Do not get carried away.“You’ve been the strength I didn’t know I needed to deal with Josh.”
“I’ll do anything for you,” I tell her.
“I see that.” Wasn’t expecting her to be so open. “I know our time is short together, but I do want you to know that what’s happening between us is real.”
Told you, she sees an expiration date.“It doesn’t have to be short,” I tell her quietly.
“Felix,” she says my name in warning.
“I know, I know,” I say, trying to save face.
“I don’t think you do,” she says seriously. “It’s going to hurt having to let you go, but you and I know what we have can’t be any more than what it is. I’m hoping we can still be friends, but I’ll understand if you can’t be.”
Oh. Wow. She really is drawing a line in the sand.Told you so.I nod. “Friends. I can handle that.” Harper looks relieved.
“When you say friends though … are you saying with or without benefits?” I smile at her. She gives me a look that says most definitely without benefits. “You know, when we finish a game, it takes us a long time to come down from the adrenaline and sex helps us come down quicker.”
“Oh. Is that so?” She smirks.
“Just saying, you could help a friend out sometimes.”
“Sometimes?” she questions me. I nod. “Maybe,” she says, giving me a bashful smile.
“Maybe?”
“If it helps your recovery then really, I’d be doing the team a service.” She chuckles.
“You really would.” I pull her tightly against me, my dick already standing to attention.
“Then yes, I could put a caveat on our friendship, that I could help out if the situation needs it.” She chuckles.
“The situation needs it now,” I tell her, picking her up and depositing her on the table.
“So, it seems.” She grins, opening her legs for me and I notice she is not wearing any underwear underneath her slip. My hand slides up her thighs before spreading her wide for me. Guess she is as ready as I am, as I pull down my pants and replace my fingers with my cock. We both sigh as I slide home into her.
“You’re not giving this up,” I say as I thrust into her. “Your greedy cunt loves my cock too much.”