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Lincoln

It is a little after midnight when I excuse myself from my own party and head to bed. It has been a long day and I want nothing more than to curl up in the bed and rest my eyes.

I am tired, and the back and forth with Colson is exhausting. One second he is all over me and the next he is so distant it feels just like it did before. I don’t like that feeling, not after having it the other way around.

I can still hear the sound of the party downstairs, but I am so tired it doesn’t matter.

Yawning, I brush the tangles out of my hair, lay my clothes out on the bed, and step into the shower to rinse the day off of me.

The scalding hot water feels nice against my sore muscles, and the entire time I am in the shower, I think about Colson.

It’s beginning to drive me crazy.

The terry cloth of the towel is soft against my body as I dry off and wrap it around my bare skin. I step out of the bathroom and jump when I see Colson sitting on the edge of my bed.

“You scared the shit out of me,” I breathe, holding my palm against my chest. “I thought you were downstairs with Reiss.”

“I was,” he shrugs. “Now I’m here with you.”

I roll my eyes, trying to hide my nakedness with the tiny towel wrapped around me. “Yeah, one second you're here and the next you're gone. Sounds about right.”

He reaches for me, but I pull away.

“Linc, it’s not like that. You know that it’s not as simple as it should be. We have your brother to think about.”

I shake my head, “You think I don’t know that, Colson? I wanted to talk to him about us, but you refuse to even try.”

“It’s not that I don’t want to, I do. I just don’t think he will be as understanding as you think.”

“How do you know?” I argue. “I can’t be your dirty little secret, Colson.”

He pauses, knowing I’m right. We can’t keep doing this without talking to Reiss. It will be a lot worse when we get caught. He will feel betrayed.

He runs his hands through his sandy blond hair. “Fuck, I know. I know, I just don’t know how to approach the subject with him, Linc.”

I shake my head, “It will be a lot worse if he catches us sneaking around. What if he came in here right now?”

He glances at the door, then to me wrapped in this towel.

“Shit,” he sighs. “You’re right. We can’t do this. I will talk to him.”

“When?” I breathe, letting out the fear with my exhale.

“Soon,” he promises, pulling me down next to him on the foot of the bed.

“You promise?” I ask, my eyes pleading.

He nods, dragging his knuckles against my bare collarbone, “I promise.”

A soft knock at the door pulls my attention from him and he shuffles up off the bed.

“Linc, you in there?” Jackson’s voice fills the air, and I look to Colson, silently pleading for him to get rid of him.

I wrap the towel tighter around my breasts, and Colson speaks up. “Nah man, wrong room!”

I quietly chuckle, and Colson’s eyes burn into mine. Without saying another word, he gets up and locks the door. He turns down the bed and we both slip under the covers.

“Why did you lie to Reiss and tell him you drove home last night?”

His brows pinch, “I didn’t lie. I did drive home.”

“Why? That was an hour and a half round trip.”

His eyes sparkle with care, “I needed to clear my head, and I got you a birthday present.”

He gets up out of bed and rustles around in a bag on the dresser. I sit up in the bed, wrapping the comforter around my nakedness.

“I’m sorry for the past couple of years, Linc. I thought I was doing the right thing by ignoring you, treating you like I didn’t care. I thought that was the only way.”

He hands me a bag of Trolli gummi worms and turns the TV on, scrolling to a ninja turtles movie. “Like old times? ”

I feel a ping in my chest, and it hurts in the best way. I’m in love with him.

I always had been and I always would be.

It is the simplest gift, but it means so much to me.

This three dollar pack of candy is worth more than almost anything else because it means that all those years I spent wishing for my brother’s best friend to look at me as more than an annoying little sister, he already was. He saw more, just like I did.

I don’t know whether to melt into a puddle in the bed or attack him with a kiss. The way he’s looking at me, I choose the latter.

My lips are on his, quick and needy, and his move against mine just as desperately. I feel my heartbeat quicken with each swipe of his tongue against mine.

He chuckles deeply, pulling back, “They are just gummi worms.”

I shake my head, “It’s more than gummi worms.”

He takes my lips again, and it’s nothing like I’ve ever experienced before. It’s slow and needy, and I lose every ounce of control I once possessed. I want him inside me more than I want my next breath.

He moans and I grip the back of his neck tighter. Without much more thought, he rolls me onto my back, where his body towers over mine. I’m caged in by his arms, and I can’t keep my hands from finding the broadness of his shoulders. It’s the first time I’ve ever felt him up close like this.

Don’t get me wrong, I’d seen Colson without a shirt a thousand times over the years, but this feels different.

He feels like… mine.

Pressing his lips roughly against mine, he pulls the towel loose from my body, and I feel the hardness of him against the sensitive area between my thighs.

“Oh my God,” I breathe. “Colson.”

He trails kisses down my neck and between my breasts until his mouth is hovering over me.

“What happened?” He asks, rubbing his thumb over a red bruise under my boob. “Are you okay?”

“That’s from last night in the lake,” I whisper. “From you.”

He groans and dips down to kiss the mark he made. “Fuck, I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be,” I breathe, loving how gentle he is with me. How he’s only like that with me. “I like that you left it.”

I am already soaking wet from just kissing him, but I want more. I need more.

“Is this okay?” He asks as he moves down my body, brushing a single finger through my slit.

I nod but my breathing slows as his mouth finds my bundle of nerves. His tongue gently laps against me and my vision starts to instantly blur.

I’ve never wanted anything as much as I want him right now.

The way he looks up at me as I watch him devour my pussy is wicked. His eyes are wild and needy and I throw my head back with pleasure. He replaces his tongue with his fingers and buries them deep inside me, running his lips over the inside of my thighs.

“I’ve always imagined what this would be like.” He rasps. “To touch you like this.”

His fingers push deeper inside me and I can feel his palm tight against me. The fullness isn’t something I’m used to, and I’m basically grinding my hips against him at this point.

His mouth falls back against my clit and his fingers swirl around inside me in a motion that I can’t begin to describe. It’s euphoric.

“Colson, I…” No more than I can get his name past my lips, my body is shaking. When I finally feel my orgasm rip though me, he doesn’t move his fingers, he leaves them.

“I love the way you tighten around me,” he says, gently pulling his fingers from inside me.

I’ve never seen Colson like this. He takes my towel that’s laid out next to us and gently cleans me up. It’s the most intimate thing I’ve ever experienced.

“Lincoln!” My brother’s voice outside the door pulls me from my adoration. “Have you seen Colson? I swear he was in the living room five seconds ago and now I can’t find him.”

Colson’s eyes widen as he shakes his head and I search desperately for my panties. I can’t be naked and talk to my brother, it’s weird.

“No,” I choke out. “I just got out of the shower. Haven’t seen him.” I lie, watching as Colson twirls my panties around with his index finger. The wicked smirk on his perfectly chiseled face confirms the inevitable.

I will keep secrets if it means I get to keep him. I will lie through my teeth, even to my own brother.