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He doesn’t keep his hands on my hips; instead, he moves them to my back and rubs my body in a sensual way. His hands go down to my b**t and squeeze it as his tongue goes into my mouth. I gasp, which lets his tongue go deeper into my mouth. When I lightly s**k on his tongue, he lets out a low growl. I don’t care about the risks and let my body do the talking. His groans only make me feel more sure of myself, so I decide to go even further.
I put my hands on the bottom of his 8-pack and lightly scratch his chest with my nails while we kiss. I finally get my hands on his shoulders, and then I wrap my hands around his neck to pull him even closer to me.
I don’t even know how we got to the other side of the room, but now I’m straddling Jaxon while he sits on his bed. We’ve never gone this far before, but I can’t tell him to stop because I don’t want him to.
He pulls my body closer to him, and his hands stay on my b**t, so there isn’t an inch of space left. I can feel all of him because there’s no space. His member is hard against me, and I pull away from the kiss because I’m not very good at kissing. I don’t know what I should do. I like this, but Jaxon has been doing it for a lot longer than I have. What if he doesn’t like what we’re doing? What if he wants to have s*x right now? I don’t think I’m ready for that yet, but I’m having a great time with what we’re doing now.
Jaxon uses his thumb to pull my bottom lip out of my teeth. I didn’t even know I was biting my lip. I guess it’s a nervous habit.
“What’s wrong, baby? Talk to me.” I’m confused by how worried and kind he is. How did I get so lucky? I just shake my head and look down at the ground. I can’t believe I’m ruining the moment by being shy and insecure! Ugh, I’m so dumb!
“Calla, look at me.” His voice is soft but firm. He is holding my cheek in his hand, and I look up at him. “Are you okay? We can stop at any time. I thought you wanted—”
“I do!” I say a little louder than I meant to. He laughs and kisses me quickly on the lips.
“What happened? Did I do something wrong?” I can’t believe he’s asking me if he did something wrong! I don’t think he could do anything wrong in that area even if he wanted to! He’s a real God, and I’m just a normal girl.
“You didn’t do anything wrong. In fact, you did the opposite. I just don’t… I’ve never… And you…” I can’t even get a clear thought across. I’m so upset, especially since nothing has changed for us. I can still feel him hard underneath me, and it’s making me feel weird.
“Listen to me. I know you’re new to this. I don’t care. In fact, I like it that way. I want to be your first love, your first s****l experience, and your last. You’re it for me, baby.”
I don’t know how he did it, but he said the right thing. He was able to calm my worst fears about our relationship in just a few seconds. He doesn’t care that I get nervous easily or that I don’t know what to do sexually yet. He wants to be with me for the rest of his life. The thought makes my heart race and my cheeks flush.
I put my hands behind his neck right away and bring his lips back to mine. I’m so happy right now, and all I can think about is Jaxon. The kiss starts off slow and sexy, but it quickly speeds up again, and we’re basically back to where we were before I freaked out.
His hands on my back pull me into his hardness, and I can’t help but moan loudly. He growls deep in his throat and moves his hips to meet mine. The friction feels great. My body is tingling, and I can’t help but feel something building in my stomach. I can’t even imagine what s*x must feel like if we’re still fully clothed and it feels like this. I’m starting to get what everyone has been saying.
As he goes faster, my breathing gets shallower. As time goes on, my kisses get a little sloppy, and I feel like I’m floating. This is the first time I’ve ever felt this way.
“Jaxon,” I moan with my mouth wide open. As I focus on the growing tension in my stomach, my eyes close on their own. “Please.”
“Please, what?” He’s just messing with me, but I don’t care. I need him to fix this pain in my legs.
“Please,” I whine again.
He stops grinding his hips against mine all of a sudden. I open my eyes and give him a confused look. Why did he stop?
“Say what you want, and I’ll be happy to help you,” he says with a smirk on his face. I bite my lip because I’m not sure if I can just ask him for what I need. I can still see the caring Jaxon who won’t push me too far, even though he has a smirk on his face. He puts his forehead on mine because I must be taking too long to answer.
He whispers, “Do you trust me?”
“Yes,” I say right away.
“Okay. Then tell me what you want. I promise you won’t regret it.” I’m still a little scared, but I’m more at ease now that he said that.
“I want you… t-to make me c-c*m,” I say quietly. It’s the most disgusting thing I’ve ever said, and it only makes me want him more.
He says, “Your wish is my command,” and then he kisses me again. He turns us over so that my back is on the bed and he is above me. His elbows take most of his weight, so he’s not laying directly on me, but his body is still completely touching mine.
He keeps rubbing himself on my lower body, and the tension keeps getting worse. One of his hands goes down from my face and the other goes up from my thigh. He stops his right hand when it gets to my b****t and then moves his pointer finger around my n****e. I shudder at the new feeling, and my back bends a little. Not wearing a bra right now makes it even better. It feels like he’s touching me, even though he isn’t.
He lifts his thumb and lightly pinches my n****e. I let out a low moan as the tingles shot straight to my core. Jaxon bites my lip and then kisses his way down my jaw and neck. He keeps going down until he gets to my other n****e. He licks it through my shirt and then starts to s**k on it. I grab his hair right away and pull him closer to me. It feels so good.
I don’t think I can take any more, but he runs his left hand up my thigh until it reaches my pajama shorts. He doesn’t take them off; instead, he puts his hand over my clothed center and rubs my clit. The combination of the touching, sucking, and grinding against me is too much for my senses.
He pushes against me even harder and faster, and my breathing gets even faster. Jaxon lifts his head up to mine and starts kissing and sucking on my neck. He gently bites my earlobe and then whispers in my ear when he gets there.
“Come for me.”
I let out a loud scream, and Jaxon kisses me to quiet it down. It feels great. As I come down, he keeps rubbing my core, and the waves of pleasure keep coming. I let out a breathy sigh. I must have passed out for about thirty seconds, and when I woke up, Jaxon had a smug look on his face. I can’t even blame him; he knows his fingers are magical.
I turn to him with a lazy smile. “That was…” I have trouble finding the right words to describe how that made me feel. He laughs and pulls me to his side.
“Speechless? Just wait until I really touch you. You have no idea what my mouth can do.”
I put my head on his chest to hide my blush, but I’m pretty sure he saw it. He sees everything. We stayed in bed for another minute or so before my stomach rudely interrupted us by growling louder than Jaxon’s.
“Okay, let’s change you and then get you some food.”
I nod my head and kiss Jaxon slowly. The kiss lasts a little longer than I meant it to. As he groans, Jaxon is the one who pulls back.
“Don’t start something you can’t finish.” He shakes his head and smirks as he looks down at his you-know-what, and my eyebrows go up. How could I have been so selfish? Shouldn’t I help him since he helped me? Does he want that?
“D-do you w-want me to-” I don’t even have time to finish the sentence before Jaxon shakes his head.
“No, love. Today was about giving you pleasure. I really enjoyed watching you c*m by my hands.” He gets out of bed and goes to his drawer to get a pair of clean boxers and sweatpants. He gives them to me and tells me to go to the bathroom to change out of the… destroyed… the clothes I was wearing before. Who would have thought things would get so bad?
When I’m done cleaning up, I open the bathroom door and Jaxon is right there. At this point, I shouldn’t be surprised by how clingy he is. I’m sure now that Jaxon won’t give me much space because we took things a step further and I almost died. That’s fine with me. Not at all.
He looks down at me with love and admiration. He picks me up and carries me like a bride. I don’t even try to get out; I just cuddle deeper into his strong body and let him take me to the kitchen.
He puts me on one of the kitchen stools and starts looking through the fridge. “Do you want something in particular?”
I could eat a cow right now. That’s gross. But at this point, I would be happy to eat anything. “Jaxon, I’m really hungry. Can you make something fast?”
He nods, takes cheese out of the fridge, and starts to put a pan on the stove. He also finds a loaf of bread and cuts eight slices from it. Five minutes later, Jaxon brings a stack of four grilled cheese sandwiches. I grab one and put it right in my mouth.
“Oh my gawd, this is so good,” I say as I taste the melted cheese and the bread that is perfectly warm around it.
“Calla.” Jaxon growls to warn her. It’s not scary, but I still don’t understand why he’s doing it.
“What?” I say with a mouth full of food.
He doesn’t respond to me.