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It doesn’t look like Jaxon wants to joke around. “You need to keep drinking this.” He then crouches down in front of me and puts his hands on my cheeks. He runs his finger over the dark circles under my eyes and frowns. “I have to leave you. It hurts me to do so, but I’m the Alpha and the only way the coven can give up Felix is if I go and threaten them. Skyler will stay with you to keep you awake, and two guards will stand outside the room to protect you.”
I’m really sad that Jaxon can’t stay with me, but I’m glad he’s trying to help me. I don’t know where Felix is because he hasn’t answered my calls or texts. Jaxon trying to find him is the best thing that can happen for my recovery. I scowl and set the big mug on the floor. I put my arms around his neck and sigh because I miss him already. “Okay. I’ll miss you.”
Yeah. I’m so tired that I don’t seem to have a filter, so word vomit is very likely to happen.
I let him go from the hug, which Jaxon doesn’t like, so I can tell him something. “Before you leave, you have to promise me something.”
“Anything,” he says as he takes my hand. I can tell he understands how important this is to me because of the way I speak.
“You can’t hurt him.”
He laughs. “Anything but that.”
“Please? Jaxon, I’m so mad, frustrated, tired, and confused about this situation. He used to be my friend. Who knows why he’s doing this? Maybe he thinks he has no other choice, or maybe he was forced to!”
Jaxon is already shaking his head a lot. “I love how you try to see the good in everyone, but warlocks don’t care about human lives. Your friend did it because he and his coven are trying to start a war with my pack through you. They know I’ll be weaker without you. So, no. I will definitely hurt him, and as soon as you’re better, he’ll be dead for even touching you.”
“No!” I yell, getting up quickly and pushing him back. He doesn’t even budge. Dumb werewolf power. “You can’t kill him! You have to let me talk to him! I’m sure there’s a reason!”
I’m really reaching for straws now. At first, I felt like Felix had betrayed me, but then I remembered how sad he looked when we said goodbye. There must have been a reason for him. There is no way that our whole friendship was a lie! I do believe the best about people, and I really hope I’m right that Felix didn’t want to hurt me.
A soft knock on the door stops our fight. Skyler stands in the doorway with his own cup of coffee and slowly walks into the room. Jaxon just glares at him, clearly upset that he was interrupted.
“The pack has been trying to mindlink you. They’re ready.”
“I know,” Jaxon says, and then he turns back to me and kisses me on the forehead for a long time. The kiss makes me feel all the love and protection, and it warms me to my core. He lowers his head so that his lips are right next to my ear.
“Don’t even think about talking to that warlock. Don’t test me.”
I widen my eyes at him and back away a little from the way he talks. Jaxon has never talked to me in a stern voice before. It makes me a little scared. I bite my lip and look away from him, too upset to respond.  He used his “alpha” voice; I know this because he expects me to follow his command like I’m one of his pack members.  Sucks for him when he realizes that he can’t tell me what to do.
“I l-” Jaxon starts, then he clears his throat.  “I’ll be back as soon as I can.” Jaxon turns to Skyler, who also looks a bit scared by him.  “Don’t let her fall asleep or else there will be consequences.”
Skyler gulps and nods his head.  Jaxon leaves without another word, and the tension in the room leaves with him.
“Your mate is scary as f**k,” Skyler whines as he pulls me down into the comfy armchair and plops down next to me.  He holds out my coffee mug for me as he scrolls through Netflix to find a movie to watch.  I take it from him and swallow a huge gulp, the warmth already waking me up a bit more.
“Oh, wait! I have the perfect thing to watch!” Skyler speeds out of the room, my hair whipping across my face from the speed at which he leaves.  In a second, he’s back with five DVDs.  He puts the first one into the DVD player and joins me in the armchair once more.
“We’re watching Twilight, but with a twist,” he grins mischievously.
Oh no, what does he have planned?  I do enjoy the Twilight series, so I definitely don’t mind watching with him.  However, I am still a bit confused about what his idea of a “twist” is.
“What is it?” I hesitantly ask.
“Every time Emmett acts as a creepy overprotective boyfriend, we take a shot. In this case, we drink coffee. So, prepare to finish that whole mug by only half of the movie.”
I laugh so hard, definitely remembering how many times Emmett acts irrationally for Lettie.  This will be fun.
I do notice that we drink a lot of coffee while we watch the movie. In biology class, Emmett stares at Lettie. Drink. Does Emmett drive around town with Lettie? Drink. Did Emmett watch Lettie sleep? Drink. And drink, and drink, and drink. By the time the first movie is over, I’ve drunk most of my big mug of coffee, and I’m a nervous wreck. I’m still very tired, but at least I’m having fun and making the best of the situation.
Next, Skyler puts in a New Moon. “Okay, every time we see Jacob being pathetic because he loves someone who doesn’t love him back, we drink!”
The sound of a gust of wind fills the room after just ten minutes of the movie. Skyler and I turn around, and my eyes widen as Skyler stands in front of me to protect me from the intruders.
Felix’s point of view
This week has been one of the hardest I’ve ever had. I couldn’t explain my situation to Calla because she wouldn’t talk to me. She can be very stubborn when she wants to be. I was trying to do what she always says is the “right” thing to do, but she won’t even let me when I finally try. What the hell?
I didn’t think I would like her. I thought this was just another job. At first, I was sent to campus to make friends with Skyler and then kill him once he trusted me. The best way to break up the pack would be to kill the Betas, since their Alpha Jaxon didn’t have a mate. Beta Ezra would die if Skyler died, and my coven could easily swoop in and kill the pack so that we magical beings could finally practice magic without worrying about what stupid humans could see.
My mission changed right away when I found out that Alpha Jaxon might have a mate, and a human one at that. Now, I wanted to be friends with the girl and make sure she was the Alpha’s mate. The only issue is? I started to like her while I was making sure she was the right girl. A lot. She made my otherwise dull and boring life a lot happier. Her moral arguments were so wrong and human, but I still wanted to be like her in that way.
I never had to be ethical. The coven doesn’t care about people; they only care about their own magic. The coven leaders were angry with the werewolves because they were guarding our magic practice. They asked me to weaken them so we could get ready for war. But now I feel something I’ve never felt before: guilt.
Who knew guilt could hurt this much? What I did to Calla makes me sick to my stomach. I was told to kill her. Instead, I gave myself some time to think about how to save her. Elise knew how I felt right away. She’s my twin, so she called me out right after we left Steamy Bean Cafe the first time they met.
The vampire was the coven’s way of testing to see if she was Alpha Jaxon’s mate. We were supposed to go to Nectar Noir, and Jaxon and his pack were supposed to show up when she was in danger. That way, the coven could be 100% sure that Calla was Jaxon’s mate. Then we were supposed to get her to trust us more, have her accidentally tell us the pack’s secrets, and then kill her. Easy as pie, right?
That dumb, stupid thing called guilt got in the way. Calla told me that she was close to Jaxon, and I couldn’t stop the vampire attack fast enough. The coven members surrounded the place and wouldn’t let me stop the violence. She got hurt really badly, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. She must have been very scared…
After that, my heart hurt. I knew that it was all my fault. I tried to say sorry, but she didn’t want to talk to me. People can be so touchy at times. I know I helped plan her death, but she didn’t know that!
After that, I was told to kill her. Calla, my small, weak, moral friend taught me more about life than I ever thought possible. I knew I couldn’t do it. I cast a spell on her called Somnia in Somnus to give myself more time. It slowly kills the victim, not letting them rest. Their worst fears haunt their dreams, and after a few weeks, they die from a mix of not getting enough sleep, fear, and sadness.
That night, when I cast it, I cried myself to sleep. While my bosses praised me for a great slow death for Calla, I was sad for my friend. I saw that she kept texting me, but I couldn’t answer. Not knowing that she would die so soon, and that I would be the one to do it.
Elise came into my room two nights ago in the middle of the night. I was up late writing poems, which I only do when I’m sad. She must have had some kind of twin telepathy because she knew exactly when to come in.
“Hey, little bro,” Elise said as she sat down next to me. I turned my notebook away from her so she couldn’t see what I was writing.