Page 79 of Moonlight Hearts

He let me see him too, rolling his shoulders before opening the drawer we kept the lube in.He didn’t take out any condoms, so I didn’t have to tell him that I didn’t want them.When he dropped the bottle on the bed and closed the drawer, I stretched my knees farther apart, just a few degrees.

Soyer’s intense expression broke into a lopsided grin.“Amory.You’re a certain kind of craving, you know that?”

“That’s probably just you.”

“As it should be.Are you comfortable?Wait, let me put the pillow under your hips.”

“Your pillow?”

“Yeah.”

“But—”

“I like doing laundry, and I have lots of fresh sheets in the drawer.”He reached for his pillow.“Lift up.”

I did, and he wrapped his arm around my hips to guide me into the position he wanted, then let me settle down on the pillow.Part of me felt exposed, and I was, but more than that, I liked the idea of giving this to Soyer, this sight of me.When he started touching me, beginning at my shoulders, I tried to relax under his warm hands, but the way he kept trailing his fingers, finding almost ticklish spots, made that very difficult.

“Ahh…”

“Does it feel good, Amory?”

“Yeah.”

He leaned in closer.“I like how you’re always so responsive.That’s a special kind of temptation.”

“It’s just… That’s just because you know what to do.”

“Hmm.”He cupped my butt cheeks with both his hands, then moved them in slow circles.“You see, that’s where you’re mistaken.I’m at a loss with you more often than not.Does this feel nice?”

“Little weird, but nice.”

He chuckled.“A little weird?Why?What’s weird about it?”

I tried to figure out how to say it to him, that very specific block of my upbringing getting in the way as per usual.In this moment, it annoyed me to no end, and so I squeezed my eyes shut and just said the words.

“It’s having my ass up in the air like that.Exposed, I guess.And I can’t see you very well.”

He tightened his hold on me, but kept moving in circles.

“I see.I think you not seeing me is going to be part of the fun.”He sighed.“The phoenix on your back.I don’t want it to move from there.”

I wanted to tell him that I’d much prefer it if he took care of his own firebird and made sure it stayed where it was.

Perhaps Soyer had sensed that, I had no idea, but he let go of me and squeezed some lube onto me.The chill of the cool gel made me flinch and buck.He chuckled and spread it liberally.

“Try to relax, hmm?You’re so tense.”

“Not because I don’t like it.This is just new.”

“Yeah.We’ll take our time.There’s no rush, Amory.”

He meant that.Soyer settled in between my legs, making it so that I had to turn my head quite far if I wanted to see him.Whenever I did, he was watching with that same intensity as earlier.Eventually, he went from circling my hole and playing with my balls to inserting a finger and stimulating me from inside.This position had to be good for that, it definitely gave him more access, which he used to his advantage and to my pleasure.

Before long, my fingers were opening and closing around a fistful of the sheets, and my precum had soaked Soyer’s pillow.I was moving my knees up and down, my toes curling and uncurling depending on what Soyer was doing to me.Still, it didn’t feel as if he was very focused on stretching me open.

“S-Soyer…”

“What is it, my heart?”