Page 48 of Moonlight Hearts

I shivered as I looked down at him, absently stroking my own chest with one hand, the very place where my phoenix had first settled.

“Let me undress?”

He was already at the waistband of my pants, opening them with far less fumbling than I probably would have managed.

“Later, hmm?After.This is fine for now.”

He worked my shoes off, then moved down to sit on my legs, which pinned my hips even as he shoved my pants down just far enough to get to my cock.I tried to move to make it easier for him, but he wouldn’t let me, using his weight and his knees on either side of mine to keep me where he wanted me.I watched him smile as he took my cock in hand, pleased with how I was at his mercy in this position.

His hand on me made me buck, even though he wasn’t doing anything.It was just that I knew what he could do, how he could make me feel.Maybe it was also the roughness of the moment—not rough in how he treated me, but rough in how we hadn’t made it to the bed, hadn’t even made it out of our clothes.

As if Soyer had heard my thoughts, he let go of me, looked into my eyes instead.

I licked my dry lips.“Do you want me to…?”

“No.I want you exactly where you are.”He pulled his long-sleeved shirt off, tossed it aside.“You want to watch me, don’t you?”

Before I could answer, he bent down and lapped at the head of my cock.It was electrifying, but he didn’t stop there.I gasped, but Soyer didn’t let me adjust to what he was doing, instead taking me in all the way.

Having him do this to me felt exhilarating, but it also terrified me.He never gave any indication that it bothered him, taking me this deep, but the noises he made when he did worried me.I didn’t want him to choke or hurt himself.At the same time, when his throat contracted around me, when he used his fingers to touch and stroke, it was hard to keep control over my own body.

Today wasn’t any different, particularly considering how he had me pinned.I reached for him, stroking his silky hair and trying to at least not pull on it, even though I wanted to.

“S-Soyer…” I could hear myself whimpering, but I was powerless to do anything about it.

Soyer groaned in response, one hand sneaking around to the small of my back.I knew the feathers of my own phoenix bird stretched out there, and I imagined I could feel the magic in that tattoo that wasn’t a tattoo as if it connected us deeper than any mark on bare skin ever could.As if it bound us, soul to soul.

It was a fanciful thought—too romantic, maybe—and nothing I could hold on to for long, not when he kept giving me head with abandon.He had me almost ready to come in his mouth, but he noticed and pulled off.

“Mmm.I keep forgetting how good you taste.”

He had a mischievous glimmer in his eyes that made me stare, even as he wiped the spit off his chin and stood.

“D-do you want me to—”

“Nuh-uh.No moving around.You had your chance to get chased, now you’re caught.Stay caught, Amory.”

He pushed me back down, his warm hand splayed over my breastbone.When I complied, he undid his pants and toed his shoes off, each movement hurried, as if he couldn’t wait.

I’d seen Soyer naked on more than a few occasions, but still, every time he undressed in front of me was special all over again.He’d told me how much he wanted me, that he was loath to be apart from me—to the point of forcing vacation time on me no less—but more and more each day, I’d come to realize I wasn’t much different.Maybe I wasn’t as…martial as Soyer, or as forward as he was, but secretly, I enjoyed knowing no one else would ever see this—the sharp, urgent desire in his eyes, him naked and aroused, him seeing nothing but me.

The sight of his phoenix, the bird’s beak open in a silent cry just above his heart, the tip of one wing reaching almost to his jugular, made my heart beat faster.It reminded me of the day he’d told me what he was, the day he’d given me this secret he’d carried with him for centuries.

“I love you so much.”

He stopped with one leg slung above me.It might’ve been comical if not for that intense expression on his face.

“I do too, my heart.Come, don’t dissolve into too many romantic thoughts while we’re still busy with carnal things, hmm?Let me ride you first.I can hold you after, tell you how proud you made me when you took my ring.”He shrugged.“When you stole it from its hiding spot.”

I laughed, though a wet sheen spread over my eyes as I watched him get back on the couch, back on top of me.

“I didn’t steal.”

“That’s what all thieves say.”

He spoke with barely a tremor in his voice, even as he reached back to get himself ready to take me.That sight was magical.Soyer was a beautiful man, but that wasn’t the only reason.He got intense when he was on top like this.To be fair, it was rare for him not to be intense, even in the way he loved and showed his love, but this was something else.

I had a small realization then as I watched him get ready to…ride me, as he’d said.Soyer was a giving lover, and I was glad he’d been my first and only.But this, him being on top and in total control, this might just have been something he did only for his own enjoyment.If so, I was glad.For all his caring, I was glad there was some selfishness in him as well.