Page 24 of Marley

I'm brought to my knees.

Like a seaside town

I'll wait for my sun.

Keep my love boarded up

Till the day that you come.

I'll wait and I'll hope

I'll beg and I'll plead.

Worship at your feet,

If that's what you need.

Just like the sunshine

I know you'll return.

Our bond too strong,

For you not to be mine.

Until that day happens,

When the sun shines bright,

I’ll keep your heart in my hands,

My memories held tight.

Like a seaside town

I’ll always believe

In the love that we share,

Of you and of me.

I ran my hand over my face, struggling to find the right words to respond. I took a draw on the joint before passing it to Maca. I scratched at my head and let the effects of the weed slalom through my brain. “I don’t know what to say. Fuck, mate, that’s fucking brilliant. I-I honestly I have no words.”

We sat in silence for a few long moments. I’d had one question going around in my head and although I wasn’t scared to ask it, I was terrified of the answer.

“Is this really how you feel?” I eventually got the courage to ask, already knowing what the answer would be.

“Every second of every day.”

“Fuck, Mac ... how? I mean, shit. How do you get through a day? How can you live your life feeling like this?”

He took a long draw, then passed the joint back to me. I stared up at the ceiling as I waited for his answer. I heard him blowing out the smoke he’d inhaled.

“I can’t, not anymore. I’m done, Marls. I love your sister, I’ll never stop loving her, but I need to let her go. If I don’t, it’s gonna kill me.”

I turned my head towards him, my mind racing with what that meant.

“You’ve not ... I mean, you wouldn’t? Shit.” I sat up and tried to get what I wanted to say straight in my head.