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Locke

I wake up to sunshine spilling in through the window. I try to shift but can’t move, and when I look down, Kiki is laying with her head on my chest. Her long hair is a mess, and I reach up and run my hand through it. I could get used to this no matter how fucked up I am. I could get used to her being here with me.

“Why’d you stop?” she asks groggily. I thought she was asleep. I just smile even though she can’t see me.

“Thought you were asleep.”

“I was, but I love it when someone rubs my hair.” I go back to doing it, and she sighs, snuggling in closer.

We lie in silence, just enjoying each other’s company, or maybe she knew I needed a few minutes to get myself together. Either way, I love that she’s here in my arms.

Before long, the door flies open, and Hodge stalks in, looking between the two of us. Kiki pulls the shit up a little higher as Hodge looks back at me. He doesn’t look happy, but he doesn’t look pissed either. I’m not sure what I expected.

“Gunner wants a meetin’. Now,” he says, nodding toward his sister. I nod my head and watch as he walks back out of the room, closing the door behind him.

“Well, that was an awkward way to wake up,” Kiki says as she stretches her body. I can’t help but look at her naked body stretched out in my bed. Fuck, this girl is going to make me crazy.

I smirk before climbing out of bed and stretching myself.

“You slept naked? What if Hodge had seen you?”

“Don’t give a shit, and I didn’t hear you complainin’ about my naked body last night.”

“I have no complaints about your body, Locke. None at all.”

“Good,” I tell her as I grab her ankles and pull her toward the edge of the bed. She squeals and laughs as I drop to my knees.

“What are you doing?”

“Havin’ breakfast before my meetin’.” Then I’m licking and sucking at her until she can’t stand it. I shove my tongue into her pussy and finger her clit until her legs shake, and she comes for me. Not once, but twice. And I could use more. I could take more but I don’t. Instead, I leave her lying there breathless as I head into the bathroom to clean up. I don’t know what this meeting is about. I don’t know if Gunner knows about me and Kiki. Not that I care. I don’t plan on letting her go anytime soon.

I wash up and clean myself before reentering the bedroom and seeing Kiki in one of my t-shirts. I can’t help but stop and take her in. My eyes travel over her when she turns to look at me, a sated look in her eyes.

“What’s wrong?” I ask her. I can see something is off in her eyes.

“I … I just want to be wanted for more than sex.”

“You think I don’t want you for more than that?” I ask, confused.

“After what you told me, I wasn’t sure.”

“I want you, Kiki. All of you. There’s not anything about you I don’t want. I just … I need to take things slow, yeah? I don’t wanna rush into things like I did with her.”

“I get it. I don’t want that either,” she says. I nod my head before walking over and brushing my lips over hers.

“I’ll be back.” She smiles, and I turn to walk out of the room and into the hallway. I make it to the office, and everyone is inside. Hodge eyes me but doesn’t say anything.

“Nice of you to join us,” Gunner says as I take my seat next to him and light up a cigarette. I don’t respond because there’s nothing to say. I wasn’t here on time, and that’s my fault.

“We got word on the Spike and his crew. We know where they’re stashin’ some of their drugs and guns, but we don’t know where they’re runnin’ girls out of.” Gunner looks around the table as everyone shifts in their seats.

“This is personal for the most part. They did give us a little hell with Spike, but not enough for us to fire back. We’ll vote on it. I don’t expect anyone to do anything they don’t want to do. We need to watch them. I want to know how many guys are in there at any given time. That means we need a team to go out,” Gunner explains as he looks around at us once more.

“I’m in,” I say before anyone has the chance to respond. Gunner nods his head before raising his hand to stop everyone from speaking.

“This is a vote. You’re in, or you’re not.” He goes around the room, and of course everyone is in. We’d never turn our backs on the Prez or his blood family.

“That’s settled. I want Hodge, Locke, Remy, and Knot on this for now. The rest of you just sit back and relax until we know more. That’s it.” The guys all stand ready to leave. As I stand, he glances over at me and shakes his head. “Stick around a minute.” I inhale nicotine into my lungs and sit back down in my chair, blowing smoke into the air.

“What’s up?”

“Listen, I know Kiki likes you. I know she looks at you more than she did, that asshole Spike. I know she has some kind of feelin’s there. What I don’t know is what you’re thinkin’ or feelin’. Now I’m not askin’ you to share your feelin’s with me like a bitch. I’m just askin’ where your heads at.” He looks me in the eye. I should have seen this coming. I take a deep breath and look at my cigarette in hand before looking back at him.

“I really like Kiki. She makes me feel different, in a good way. Somethin’ I haven’t had in a long time, but I don’t wanna hurt her, Gunner. I know the kind of man I am. I know what I did in the past, and that’s not some shit I want for her,” I admit to him.

“Listen to me, Locke. I don’t think you’d hurt her. Not on purpose, anyway. You’re not that kind of guy. I know you’re a good guy deep down, and I know you had a shit past. But that’s where it all is now. In the past, brother. We can’t hold onto that shit. We have to learn to let it all go.”

“I get that, I do, but some shit is just harder than others, yeah? I’m doin’ what I can, Gunner.”

“Then keep doin’ it. Normally, I would have your fuckin’ balls for touchin’ my daughter, but at least she chose someone I fully trust. And I’ll trust you with her too, Locke.”

“I appreciate that.” He nods his head as he stands to his feet, dismissing me. I snuff out the rest of my cigarette in the ashtray and stand, walking out into the main room where I see Tina.

“Where’s Kiki?”

“I don’t know. Thought she was with you.”

“I was in a meetin’.” She shrugs her shoulders as I nod my head and walk back down the hall. She must still be in my room. When I walk in, she’s curled up in the middle of the bed, sound asleep. I watch her for a long time. Watching her breathe, her eyelids flutter. She’s fucking beautiful. Perfect. And I don’t want to ruin her. I don’t want to ruin who she is.

I slowly walk over, climb onto the bed behind her, and wrap my arm around her. She doesn’t stir or move.

We lie like this for a long time when someone knocks on the door. I call out for them to open it, hoping I don’t wake her up. Hodge opens the door and looks at me, holding his sister.

“If you don’t wanna take watch tonight, I get it, brother.”

“Why wouldn’t I?”

“Maybe you need time with her.” He nods toward Kiki.

“She’s the reason I’m takin’ watch, Hodge. I’m not gonna let that motherfucker anywhere near her.” He nods his head before he smirks and backs out of the room, closing the door behind him. Kiki shifts, pressing her ass against my cock. She has to be awake. She has to know what she’s doing.

“What are you doin’?” I ask her.

“What do you think?”

“You’re a horny little thing, aren’t you?” I ask her as I lower my hand and pull her legs apart. I find her pussy still bare and waiting for me. Just how I like it. I dip a finger inside her and slowly work it in and out, listening to her moan as I do.

“What are you doing?”

“Givin’ you what you want,” I tell her. I work my finger in and out as she writhes against me. I fucking love when she gets this turned on by me. Then I pull my slick-coated fingers out and play with her clit. Her body jerks as I work it over, circling it, tugging it.

“You’re going to make me come,” she whines.

“That’s the point, sweetheart.” I keep going until her moans turn into soft cries, and then I feel her body tense. She comes for me, and I love every second of it. I wait until her breathing has evened out and she’s calmed before I speak again.

“I talked with your dad,” I tell her. She rolls over to look at me, waiting for more.

“What?”

“He’s okay with us. He’s pretty damn sure I won’t hurt you. It’s me who’s unsure, Kiki. I don’t want my past to slip back in,” I tell her.

“I get it, Locke. I don’t want my past with Spike to come back and haunt me either, but what can we do? We can’t control the past anymore.”

“I’m just … I don’t know.” Now, she starts to scoot away from me, and I won’t let her. I grab her hip and jerk her back toward me. “Don’t do that.”

“If you’re unsure of me, then let’s not do this.”

“I’m unsure of me, Kiki. Not you, darlin’.”

“Try, Locke. That’s all we can do.”

“You might be right.”

“I am. I always am,” she smiles at me. I lean in and brush my lips over hers before pulling back and looking at her. She’s perfect. Fucking perfect. “But I also get it. We barely know each other. I mean, not like we should.”

“What are you sayin’?”

“I don’t know how you are, Locke. You could be-”

“I’m nothin’ like him! Don’t you fuckin’ dare compare me to him.” Now I’m pissed. How the fuck did we go from talking it out to this? She thinks I’m like him?

“This is how things were with him! We were good once.”

“You fuckin’ kiddin’ me right now? You think I would beat you, Kiki?”

“I-”

“Don’t fuckin’ answer that,” I growl as I stand from the bed and storm out of the room. I’m down the hall and at the bar in no time, downing a drink when Hodge walks over.

“You tell her where you’re goin’?”

“Nope. She’s pissed at me.” I finish my drink then the guys and I head out to the bikes. We climb on and haul ass out of here. It doesn’t take long to get to our lookout spot.

We climb off the bikes, grab binoculars, and get into position with our coms units set up. We test them out to make sure everyone can hear us before we settle in to watch.

“So you pissed my sister off?” Hodge asks as we look through the binoculars.

“Somethin’ like that. She pissed me off first.”

“The first fight. Always a good time,” Remy adds with a chuckle. I flip him off with one hand and keep watch with the other.

“We both have a fucked up past, and neither of us know how to move on from it.”

“She’s a good girl, Locke. She’ll come around. Just give her a little time to get her back in the game. Whatever happened to her out there did a number on her,” Hodge says. I know what happened to her out there. She showed me, told me. I crack my neck from side to side because all I want to do is grab that motherfucker Spike around his throat and squeeze the fucking life out of him.

I sigh as I keep watching, knowing fighting with Kiki isn’t the answer. I’ve let my demons run my life long enough. It’s time for a change.