Page 22 of Hold 'Em Tight

Smiling, I shake my head as I go over to my closet to grab my bag. Peaches lets out a soft meow, jumping up onto the bed.

“Oh, my God,” I gasp, my eyes widening. “I totally forgot you were in here.” I scoop her up. “Mommy is so sorry.” I groan. “What your tiny little eyes must have seen.”

There’s a chuckle behind me. I spin around to see Trevor standing in the doorway.

“She’s a cat. She has no idea what just went down in here.”

Biting my lip, I smile. “I’m guessing you do?”

“Oh, the whole house can guess what happened.” He chuckles.

“You know what, I'm not even sorry.” I laugh, letting the cat jump from my arms onto the bed.

“Don’t be.” Trevor makes his way across the room, pulling me into his arms. “You needed it. I’m just happy to see you smiling again.”

“Me too.” I let him hold me for a moment before he pulls back.

“I hear you're going on a trip?”

I raise a brow. “I think you mean ‘we’. You think we’d leave you behind?” I scoff. “Nope, you're part of this group of misfits. You're one of us now. So, get that sexy ass home and pack a bag.”

“Yeah?” He smiles.

“Hell yeah.” I mean it. “You really are crazy if you think you're not just as important to me as the others. There’s no side, Trevor. You’re my boyfriend. I love you. And the guys like you too, even if they don’t always show it.”

“Speaking of the guys, are you going to tell them?” he asks, his eyes lowering to look at my belly.

My smile slips. Turning around, I start to shove things into the bag. “No. Not yet.”

“Rylee, they deserve to know.”

“I know,” I snap, spinning around to glare at him. “I know. Okay. But you saw Mateo the other day. They’re not ready for this. They have so much shit to work on before I add more to their plate.”

“They’re stronger than you're giving them credit for, baby.”

“You don’t know them like I do.” I sigh. “They might put on a good front for everyone around them, but I know it’s all an act. Just give me the summer, okay? I’ll tell them after we get away for a bit. We can relax, enjoy some drama free time together, and then I’ll tell them.”

I know I can’t wait until life is perfect, because it never will be. And I don’t know what the timeline on the guys getting their shit together will be. It could be months. Hell, it could be years. I know this. Yet, I keep lying to myself about why I’m not telling them.

The real reason is, I’m scared. They say they won’t ever leave me, but didn’t Lennox say the same thing? And look where we are now.

If I tell them about the baby, it makes it real. What if it’s too much for them? What if they can’t handle it?

We’ve never really talked about kids. Sure, we mentioned it in passing when talking about the future, but we’re still in college. We have years before we graduate.

“Okay.” Trevor nods, cupping my face as he leans down to kiss me. “We do this your way.”

“Thank you.”

“Do you need any help?”

I shake my head. “No. Go pack. Sooner we’re ready, quicker we can get out of here.”

The flight was toolong for my liking. From the moment we took off, I felt nauseous. I thought my morning sickness was over, but it seems to hit me at random times.

Colton was concerned, constantly making sure I was okay. I told him it was just motion sickness, and it very well could have been.

After I was done puking, he lifted up the armrest and pulled me into his arms, where I slept the rest of the way.