Page 20 of Gin & Sin (Last Call #2)

TWENTY

STEWART

The ripple of excitement flowing through me right now is breathtaking. Everything about being with Kit is turning my world inside out in the best fucking way. I’ve never wanted sex the way I want it with him, and that realization has my head all mixed up.

Kit leads me back to his bedroom, smiling warmly, but with heat in his eyes. The things he shared with me are deep and heavy, and I know it’s just because he feels comfortable with me and not anything more than that, but fuck, I want it to mean more than that. I shouldn’t even go there. Kit is a long way from wanting to settle down. Just because he’s aware of his hang-ups doesn’t mean he’s ready to conquer them.

I just can’t imagine wanting another person the way I want him. It’s going to be a huge letdown when this thing runs its course.

“Are you sure you want this right now?” Kit asks as he lays me down in the bed.

“Absolutely. Why?”

“Your expression looks… hesitant, I guess.”

Shoot. “I’m not hesitant, Kit. Maybe I’m in my head a little bit, but I definitely want to do this. I think about it constantly. I want to do everything.”

A sexy smile tugs on his lips as he crawls into bed and hovers over me. “I want to give you everything you want, you gorgeous man.”

Kit melts over me, pressing the heavy weight of his body into mine, and as I drape my arms around his neck, our lips meet in a sensual, tender, languid kiss. His tongue tangles with mine, exploring the depths of my mouth as if he can unlock all my secrets through his kiss. Maybe he can. Maybe there are things I don’t even know about myself that he can draw out of me with his seductive touch.

Kit makes no attempt to shift what we’re doing to something else. It’s like he enjoys kissing me. It’s not just a pit stop to the main event. It’s a prelude, a promise of more pleasure than I can stand. I twist my fingers in his hair and then drag them down his neck, reveling in the soft tickle of his beard on my own cheeks, the way his muscles ripple under my fingertips as he deepens the embrace, and how his confident kiss turns me to liquid.

He’s demanding without words, unraveling me bit by bit, in search of what it takes to make me moan. My pleasure matters to him, and that knowledge is a revelation.

After what feels like an eternity, Kit changes his focus to my neck. As he nibbles on my skin, he grips the front of my throat with enough pressure that I actually grin. It’s a man’s touch, strong and assertive and subtly possessive. He sucks my flesh, sending tendrils of heat shooting through me heading straight to my cock.

I explore what parts of his body I can reach, straining slightly to grip his ass.

“Please, Kit.”

“What do you need, gorgeous?” He nibbles my earlobe. “What can I give you?”

“I want to taste you.”

Kit moans, grinding his erection against mine. “You’re so sexy, babe.”

The comment is almost laughable, but there’s no way I’m ruining the mood right now by pointing that out. Instead, I wrap my legs around his waist.

“Flip me over.”

Kit lifts his head, grinning at me before doing exactly as I asked and flipping us with ease so that I’m on top of him. I sit up, gazing down at this hunk of man as I run my hands all over his hairy chest.

“Fuck, you’re so hot.”

Kit chuckles, reaching up to tweak my nipple. “So are you, babe.”

I bend down to kiss his neck, then his chest, and as I scoot my way down, I drag my lips over every bit of his skin I can reach. When I make it to his cock, I inhale his scent—musky, fresh from the shower, and earthy. The tip of his cock glistens with drops of precum already, urging me to take another taste, so I do, sliding my hand up and down his shaft as I draw him into my mouth.

Kit’s breath hitches as he arches his back slightly, gazing down at me with hooded eyes.

“You look fucking amazing with my cock in your mouth.”

I try to smile around his girth, but I’d rather get more of him down my throat. I manage to massage his heavy balls as I suck, paying attention to his moans and the changes in his breathing to find what turns him on the most.

“You like sucking my dick, baby?”

I nod, dragging my tongue along the underside before burying my nose in his pubes. I’ve honestly always enjoyed giving oral. To me, it’s such an intimate act to focus solely on someone else’s pleasure, but I never could’ve anticipated how incredible it is to feel the weight of a thick cock on my tongue, or how my own desire grows with every moan Kit feeds me.

With a surge of confidence I lift my head. “Lift your legs. Let me see your hole.”

“Fuuuck, babe. I love how dirty your mouth gets.”

Kit lifts his legs, holding on to his knees as he spreads them apart. My breath catches at the sight of him exposed like this. His ass is hairy like the rest of him, and my mouth literally waters with want. With my fingers, I spread his cheeks even more, biting my bottom lip as I focus on the pink flesh tempting me to taste.

I don’t hesitate at all, diving right in and burying my face between his legs. Darting my tongue out, I exhale with what I can only describe as pure satisfaction as I taste his hole for the first time. Kit moans loudly, spurring me on, and with my hands on his thighs, I do my best to dig my tongue inside him.

“Fuck, babe,” Kit pants. “Yes. Use your fingers too. Whatever you want.”

I hear his words and I’ll do what I can to pleasure him the way he needs, but right now, I’m still gorging myself on his flesh. The sensation of smooth skin, silky hair, and the unexpected sweetness of his most hidden part sends constant waves of pleasure rolling through me. I’m desperate for more, with an unrelenting urge to stay here as long as possible, tasting him, pleasing him, taking him apart.

“Stewart,” he pants. “Babe. Fuck.”

“Want me to stop?”

“Noooo. Need more.”

I nod, pulling back enough to use the tip of my index finger to circle his rim. Kit arches his back, panting softly in anticipation. When I breach him, he practically jackhammers off the bed as he claws at the sheets.

Oh this is good. So good.

Slowly, I slide my finger completely inside him, astonished at how hot and tight he is.

“Fuck,” I whisper as my cock twitches and spills precum on the bedding. “You feel incredible.”

“That’s just your finger. Imagine what your cock would feel like inside me.”

“Kit.”

“You want to fuck me, babe?” He lifts his head, gazing down at me with sultry eyes. “You want to know what it feels like to put your cock inside a man?”

“Fuck.” I dig my finger deeper inside him. “Yes.”

“Mmm. I’ll let you fuck me, beautiful. I’ll give that to you.”

I exhale a shaky breath. “I’m so turned on. Can I come from fingering you?”

A sexy smile spreads across his lips. “Let’s find out.” Reaching down, he grips my wrist and moves my hand back and forth. “Add another finger. Stretch me out.”

Nodding, I focus on his hole for a second before adding my middle finger to the mix.

“Suck my balls,” he says. “Gently, as you finger fuck me.”

I drag my tongue over his heavy balls before sucking one into my mouth, all while pumping my fingers in and out of him. Then it’s as if something wound up inside me releases, and I dive back in, using my tongue with my fingers. Like some sort of cock hungry beast, I take turns sucking on his balls and attempting to get his thick erection down my throat until I’m choking and gagging on it. Kit watches me with lustful eyes as he pumps his hips to help me along.

“Fucking gorgeous,” he whispers with his fingers tangled in my hair. “I’m gonna come soon, baby, so you need to let up or you’re getting a mouthful.”

“Oh god,” I mumble with his cock still in my mouth. “Want…mouthful…please.”

Kit grins, bucking his hips to the point that my jaw hurts and saliva runs down my chin. I don’t care. I’m in fucking heaven with my fingers inside him and his dick in my mouth. The salty taste of his precum floods my taste buds just before he tenses and explodes, shouting my name as his cock thickens and pulses in my mouth.

“Fuuuck,” he moans, shivering with aftershocks.

I keep my mouth locked on him through all of it, swallowing gulps of thick, warm cum. My eyes water with a mixture of emotion and effort, and as he comes down from the high he was on, I lay my head on his thigh, unwilling to let his cock leave my mouth.

We lie like that for several minutes, his breathing calming to me. I did that to him. I brought him that kind of pleasure.

A well of emotion rises in me, tightening my throat and threatening to spill over until I can’t hold it back anymore. Fuck. I don’t want him to see me lose it like this, but I can’t prevent it.

“Hey,” he whispers. “Stewart. Are you okay?”

Nodding, I keep my face pressed to his thigh even as the tears flow. My fingers are still inside him, but he doesn’t seem to mind.

“Babe. Look at me.”

“No thanks.”

He slides his hands under my arms, pulling me up to him effortlessly and forcing me to look at him. I try to avert my eyes, but Kit isn’t having it.

“Tell me this is happy emotion you’re feeling.”

Wiping at my eyes, I nod. “Sorry. I don’t know where it’s coming from. I just…” I shake my head, struggling to find the right words.

“Talk to me.” Kit sits up, cupping my face. “Let me help you through this.”

I force myself to meet his concerned gaze, and I’m glad I did. There’s nothing judgmental or disgusted or turned-off in his eyes.

“That experience was very…affirming for me. Yeah, that’s the word. I’ve struggled for so long to understand and accept my sexuality, and all the times I imagined what being with a man would be like didn’t come close to the reality of it.”

He nods, offering a supportive smile.

“I never understood why some people were so focused on sex. Especially men. Friends I’ve had said things over the years. I remember being so excited to finally lose my virginity. I thought it was going to be this amazing new world, and it was…nice. It was awkward and sweet, but it wasn’t what I was expecting. I thought it was because I didn’t know what I was doing yet. Then I convinced myself other people were just exaggerating or bragging. Then I told myself love made it better.”

Kit rubs my arm.

“Then I meet you and…” I pause, biting my bottom lip as I process my thoughts. Is this gonna be too much for him to hear? “Fuck.”

“Talk to me. I can handle it.”

I wipe at my eyes again before scratching the scruff on my cheeks. “I finally understand. That, all of this between us, has been what I expected sex to be like all those years ago. It’s exciting and urgent and incredible to make someone else… The way you sound, and the way you feel…” I shake my head. “With your cock in my mouth and my fingers inside of you, you saying such amazing things because I was making you feel good…”

He nods. “Yeah?”

“I felt more like myself than I ever have before. There’s been this massive disconnect my whole life, from my teenage years to now. I was missing part of who I am, and I’m meeting that person for the first time. It’s overwhelming and incredible and about damn time.”

Kit lifts my hand, kissing the back of it. “I’m happy for you and fucking honored to be part of it.”

“I’ve never experienced a flood of emotions like this after sex. I didn’t mean to make it all heavy.”

“Hey.” He cups my chin. “You didn’t. This is beautiful. You’re beautiful, Stewart. Can I tell you something?”

“Of course.”

“It was an experience for me too. It’s been a long-ass time since I’ve given myself over so completely. I’ve missed being open and exploring pleasure so deeply. I didn’t hold back because I wanted you to have everything you wanted. You were amazing.”

I bask in his praise, feeling my cheeks warm. “I felt powerful.”

Kit chuckles. “It is powerful to give someone an orgasm that makes them leave their body for a few minutes. I’m addicted to how you look with my cock in your mouth, and now I know what your tongue feels like exploring my deepest parts. Do you know how pretty you’re gonna look when you bury your cock inside of me?”

My stomach flutters as my cock twitches. “If I don’t come in five seconds.”

“I’ve got some tricks to help.” He winks. “Lucky for us, we’re not going anywhere for a while. We can spend days fucking and sucking and exploring all the ways to make each other come.”

“That sounds good.”

Kit playfully tackles me, pulling me down onto the bed. He lies beside me, dragging his fingers over my chest. “I’m glad you feel good with me. It means a lot that I get to experience this with you.”

I nod.

“You’ve earned yourself a blow job, sir.”

“Is that so?” Grinning, I reach up and tug on his beard. “When are you gonna fuck me?”

“Can you trust me with your pleasure? Give it over to me, gorgeous. I’ll make it worth it for you.”

I nod without hesitation. “Yes.”

He bends down and presses a quick kiss to my lips. “Good. Now sit back and enjoy.”