Page 25 of All Your Deadly Truths (The Filthy Duet #2)

Xeraphine

Ten days later

I ’ve imagined tearing out her eyes and feeding them to Mister every time our gaze meets. Rolling around in her guts after I’ve torn her apart slowly, and then swimming in whatever remains of her useless insides.

My jaw trembles, and I can’t fully grasp how my mouth feels so dry, yet a thread of saliva stretches between my parted lips.

I wish she would leave the room when her three henchmen would rape me. At least give me a chance to fight back, let my Amoro feed on their lifeforce’s, but nope. She’s giving me no means to escape, not even a single second.

They’ve not allowed me to even sleep. I’m forced to stay conscious—for what reason, Tali never says. A power play, or she just likes to see me suffer. She keeps telling me I’ve brought this on myself, but I just can’t fathom what I did to deserve this.

I do not deserve this.

Suppose it doesn’t really matter what I do and don’t deserve anymore. Doesn’t change the fact that my mother’s fingers are knuckle deep in my cunt, checking for the hundredth time to see if that Incubus has been successful in impregnating me.

I don’t pray, but I’ve silently been begging Belial, and even the Gods if they’d listen, to keep it from happening.

“Let me go…” A useless plea. Everything I say is. No one hears me, and no one fucking cares. As is true to my life’s story.

Why couldn’t I have just died in that box? Why did my Amoro curse me by awakening ?

She tilts her head, letting her long, black hair cascade onto my bare chest. Her darkened silver eyes—reminiscent of the gray in a black-and-white photo—search mine intently. Her dark cherry-stained lips curl into a demonic smile, revealing the double fangs on both sides of her upper teeth.

“You can beg so much better than that,” she says while her fingers curl upward inside of me. “No one’s out there waiting for you. What does letting you go do?” The sharp point of her nails drags across my inner wall, making my legs strain taut against the chains cuffed at my ankles.

“Kill me.”

She hums, and nods her head. “I will, don’t worry.” There’s a tight pinch as she breaches through my cervix, and I choke on an inward breath.

The happiness that creeps across her face has my skin beginning to vibrate. All of it, from my scalp to the very bottom of my bare feet.

“It’s done.”

My head shakes, eyes closing as heat builds behind my lids. No… please, no.

“Fucking finally,” Archer says.

As he brushes past me, his scents of rose oil and subtle hints of disinfectant flood my nose. It’s the solvents, acids, and other reagents that carry sharp and acrid scents, that make it unique.

Chase comes around to the foot of the bed I’ve been strapped to just as my mother slips her fingers out of me. “How long?” he asks, wetting his lips while staring down at my lower half. Not entirely sure where exactly. I can only assume my pussy.

He smells like the sea—a strong, briny scent of saltwater and seaweed. There are subtle hints of iodine and minerals, and a slight metallic aroma.

“Kill me,” I whisper.

“Full-blooded, it would be only four months, but because she’s a Hybrid it may take longer,” Tali answers. Sharp nails drag up my thighs and I twitch when they press through the skin, straight into my muscle. “We will pull her out in a month to check?—”

“She’ll die down there,” Jay cuts in, concern laced in his voice. “So will the baby.”

Good. Let it fucking die.

He smells like strawberries in a garden bed. Fresh cut grass after a light summer’s rain. I hate him. I hate them all, but he pisses me off more. He looked sorry for helping them rape me. Pathetic. At least be a fucking man about it and own up to the evil that you are.

Fucking bitch.

FUCKING CUNTS !

My eyes flutter open as I stare up at the ceiling. Knowing their scents this time doesn’t matter. This isn’t like last time. I’m not getting out of this. I won’t be crawling from my grave to search for another ten years for these four.

No… I will be like this for eternity. Raped, impregnated, buried, forced to give birth. Then, the cycle will repeat itself. I’ll heal through it all and will be a breeder for this psychotic bitch until she gets what she wants.

I wish I could muster up the ability to feel anything but this numbness that’s consuming my chest. It’s a hollow sensation that is trying to find out why I’m even fighting. There’s nothing out there for me, even if I got free…

Revenge had always been my motivation.

Kairhyse was my motivation to escape Daigo.

Sydni was that beacon I needed to find, because without her, my world had—has, no light.

I have no impetus to escape.

I’m slowly losing my mind.

“It won’t affect anything,” Tali finally answers. “She’s just a host. As long as the baby” —she places her hand onto my stomach, and I jerk— “stays right here, it’ll be fine.”

My chest heaves as I grind my teeth together, bearing them as hot tears roll down my temples. “Don’t do this…” I whisper, my hands clenching and unclenching as I pull on my restrained wrists. “Please… Send me to the Beyond…”

So I can be with him…

I don’t open my eyes, but I feel a body lean over me before the pointed tip of her tongue runs from my ear, straight to my eyelids. Her hot breath fans across my cheek as she whispers, “No.”

“Can’t we just keep her up here?” Jay asks, and I bite hard on my inner cheek as a hand comes to cup into mine. “I can watch her.”

A groan rolls from my mother. “It’s risky, and I’m in need of a break. We’ve been at this for two weeks straight. Her Amoro finally gave out. Any longer we would have just had to put her down until I was rested.”

Chase leans over, his hands resting against the table.

“Don’t worry your sweet, blond head, Jay.

I’ll make sure to keep an eye on her.” He leans in and licks across my temple, clearing it of my tears.

I’ve known he was a Shifter, some sort of sea creature from the smell.

“I like your tears more than your cum. Far saltier.”

I’d gag but I’m just too tired.

“Kill me,” I whisper again.

My mother hums, her lips trailing to mine as she says, “You’ve had your fun, Xeraphine, now it’s time to serve your only purpose in this life: me.”

The sound of metal clinking accompanies a freedom of my ankles and wrists that I haven’t felt in what feels like forever. I’ve been laying in the same position for several days. When I’m lifted, an involuntary whimper rolls from my throat.

I’m hoisted over Chase’s shoulder—his bare skin against mine feels like lava. My hand balls into a fist, and I pull it back to pound it against his muscular back. I may as well be a child with how weak I am. I’m certain he doesn’t even feel it.

Why am I even fighting…

I open my hand, looking at my palm, before completely going limp over him.

“I’ll see you later.” Jay’s soft voice finds me as I close my eyes, not caring where they are taking me. “Just sleep, don’t fight it.” A hand caresses up my neck, likely his from how soft it is.

The thudding of several feet against the hollow boat echoes beneath us, but as a cold breeze touches my bare skin, the sound fades, replaced by the steady crash of waves.

I had a feeling this was coming.

“I told Belial what I wanted,” Tali says, sounding as though she is right in front of me.

It’s confirmed as she grabs hold of my chin and lifts my head up.

Before she can command me to do so, I open my eyes and meet her gaze.

“Afterward, I was ambushed by a group of Fallen. Too coincidental, I think, but regardless... I should’ve never gone to a male with my concerns.

They never listen. They’ll never see my vision. I’m trying to save us?—”

“Fuck… you…” I spit through my teeth.

“They sunk me in this very spot for over two hundred years; said I was breaking the laws of our accords. Pfft.” She tuts. “They’re afraid of us, as is every mortal being, Xeraphine.”

“I… don’t care…”

“You will. One day you’ll give up this senseless fight and stand beside me. Until then, enjoy your alone time while my baby cooks inside you.”

A feeling of weightlessness hits me before the sting of the cold sea surrounds my body. Even if I had known he was jumping in, I wouldn’t have taken a breath. It’s night, so it’s dark the moment we’re beneath the surface of the water.

I close my eyes, allowing the burning in my lungs to take hold as we sink further and further away from the boat.

I’ve not felt utter helplessness like this since that day I rested down on the train tracks to take my own life. I’m going to die down here, but never be given the eternal rest I want so badly.

I’ll never be allowed to be with Kai in the afterlife. I’m forced to remember him every second my brain functions, knowing I can never have him. That’s true torture.

I’m once again buried.

Alone.

Kai… I’m sorry. I told you to let me go… Now I’m left with having to do it… to let you go…

Yet, I can’t find the strength to do that, because even in those fleeting memories of us, I’m happier within them.

Happier in the lie that someday I could be back with him.

I’m sorry I wasn’t strong enough to push you away before it was too late.