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I go cold when I see who provided the quote.
Detective Wilma Anson.
“I told you—”
I end the call, cutting off Wilma mid-sentence. When she calls me back seconds later, I let the phone ring. When she tries again, I silence the phone. There’s no point in answering. It’s clear she thinks Boone is capable of doing no wrong. Nothing I say is going to change that.
I can no longer trust Wilma.
And I certainly can’t trust Boone.
I am, I realize, completely on my own.
I don’t step outside of the house until night has fallen, and even then I only go as far as the porch. There’s a heaviness to the air that’s unnerving. Thick with humidity and turmoil. Last night’s wind is gone, replaced by eerie stillness.
The calm immediately before the storm.
Slouched in a rocking chair, I take a drink of bourbon.
My fourth or fifth or sixth.
It’s impossible to keep count when I’m drinking straight from the bottle.
During the afternoon and early evening, I was either in bed, trying in vain to get some rest; in the kitchen, chowing down on whatever food took the least time to prepare; or roaming the rest of the house like a bird trapped in a cage. As I walked—from library to den to living room—I thought about what, if anything, I can do now.
It didn’t take long to suss out the answer.
Nothing.
That’s what Wilma wants, after all.
So I picked up my old friend bourbon—the only thing I can trust at the moment. Now I’m buzzed and careening toward drunkenness. All it will take to push me over the edge is one or two more swigs from the bottle.
A tantalizing option.
Because I want everything to go away.
My concern about Katherine, my suspicion of both Tom and Boone, my loneliness and guilt and grief. I want all of it gone, never to return. And if that requires drinking myself into oblivion, so be it.
Gripping the bottle’s neck, I tip it back, ready to empty the damn thing.
Before I can do that, though, I notice a light brightening the kitchen window of the Royce house. Like a moth, I’m drawn to it. I can’t help it. I put down the bottle and pick up the binoculars, telling myself that it’s fine if I watch the house one last time. According to Wilma, I’ve already ruined everything. Spying on Tom now isn’t going to make things any worse.
He’s at the stove again, heating up another can of soup. When he gives a disinterested glance out the window, I don’t fear that he’ll again catch me watching. The porch, like the rest of the house, is pitch-black. As are the lake and the surrounding shore.
Other than the kitchen at the Royce house, the only other light around is a large rectangular glow on the lake’s rippling surface to my right. The Mitchell place. Although I can’t get a good look at the house from where I’m sitting, the bright patch tells me everything I need to know.
Boone is home.
I’ve got a possible wife-killer on one side of me and another possible wife-killer directly across the lake.
Not a comforting thought.
I swing the binoculars toward Eli’s house. It’s completely dark. Of course the sole person on this lake I can trust is the only onenothome. I call his cell, hoping he’ll answer, say he’s on his way back from gathering supplies and will swing by before heading to his house. Instead, the call again goes instantly to his voicemail.
I leave a message, straining to sound both sober and nonchalant. I fail at both.
“Eli, hi. It’s Casey. I, um, I hope you’re coming home soon. Like, right now. There have been things going on around the lake that you don’t knowabout. Dangerous things. And, well, I’m scared. And I could really use a friend right now. So if you’re around, please come over.”